Two Years of Living: From Surviving to Thriving

Introduction

Hey friends! I just got back from a spring break cruise with my best friend, and it was the perfect opportunity to reflect on the past two years of my mental health journey. Fair warning; this is going to be a deeply personal piece. I want to be vulnerable because it's worth it if sharing my story helps even one person through a dark time. Lying on the beach in the Bahamas, I had a powerful realization: it has been two years since I wanted to end my life. Two years of pure joy that I wouldn’t have experienced if I had stayed silent any longer or kept surrounding myself with people who weren’t good for me. For the first time, I’ve genuinely come to terms with my story, and I’m ready to share it, because I am so proud of how far I’ve come. That chapter of my life was dark, but I now understand it was essential to my journey. It shaped me into the firm, resilient woman I am today. I’m finally ready to trust and share this part of my life with all of you, and I hope that sharing it can comfort you or someone you love.

The Darkest Moment

Looking back on my 18th year is still tricky; it was filled with some of the darkest moments of my life. Things hit their worst during my first year of university, especially in residence. I went in with the mindset that you get out of the experience what you put into it, so I pushed myself to go out, rush Greek life, join clubs, and attend frat parties. But deep down, that wasn’t who I was. Both of my grandparents had gone to the same university. My grandpa had been a dedicated fraternity member who later became a successful law student, and my grandma, still a freshman at the time, had built her friend group through him. I remember the night I had my worst panic attack; I had to leave my dorm room and sit on the stairs my grandparents had once walked to their lecture halls. My heart raced from my chest as I sat on the phone with my grandma. My grandpa, who I lost when I was young, had always been a guiding presence in my life, and in that moment, I felt him telling me I needed to leave. The residence that had once been a home to both my grandparents wouldn’t be where I made my happy memories. Maybe that was intentional. But I also know that if I hadn’t tried, if I hadn’t gone to my dream school, gotten into my top program, I would have spent the rest of my life wondering what if. And it wasn’t all bad. I made some fantastic friends with whom I still keep in touch today. More importantly, I learned to let go of relationships that weren’t helping me grow. My breaking point came the night my roommate returned from a frat formal and found me self-harming. What hurt the most wasn’t just that I was at my lowest, but that she never acknowledged it; never even tried to check in, even though she knew I was struggling. I don’t blame anyone for what I was going through, but it was in that moment that I realized the people I was desperately trying to be friends with weren’t the kind of people who would help me heal. I had to get help. On the night of March 17, ironically, St. Patrick’s Day, I was at a party at another university, surrounded by people but feeling completely alone. All I wanted was my mom. She has always been my safe space, maybe because she’s been open about her mental health struggles for as long as I can remember. The moment I told her what was happening, it felt like the storm had passed. I moved back home. My mom booked me doctor’s appointments, and we spent our nights doing crafts and watching movies like we used to when I was in high school. It felt like coming back to the safest place I had ever known. We always joke that we were roommates before we were mother and daughter; when she got home from work, I’d have dinner in the oven, and she’d pick out a thriller for us to watch while we ate on the couch. And sometimes, going home is okay. I thought I needed to be on my own to grow, but my time back home gave me the strength to take on the world the way I have these past two years.

The First Anniversary: A Turning Point

Last March, on the first anniversary of the turning point in my life, I was on holiday in Cuba with my mom and grandma. Traveling together has always been something the Abbey girls love to do. My mom is the one who keeps us in line: booking everything, driving us around, while my grandma is in charge of all things educational and, of course, alcoholic. My expensive taste in wine started on a Tuscany tour long before I knew what wine was back in Canada. No matter where we go, we always find a way to have the best time, and this trip was what I needed to commemorate how far I had come. My grandma supported my growth, especially after my three-month program at Disney, which had changed me in ways I never expected. I went out of my shell on that trip and formed lifelong friendships. Just recently, one of the friends I made in Cuba came to visit me in Florida, and we laughed as we scrolled through our old group chat from that week. I still remember how I first caught their attention; one of them spotted me salsa dancing with the resort staff alone. That week, I was reminded never to change who I am and never let anyone make me feel like I should be less. They all supported my big dreams of working at the Walt Disney Company, and I truly believed in myself for the first time, too. It’s incredible how once you start being yourself, you finally find people who are meant for you. Coming off the high of my first Disney program, I finally felt like I was living, not just existing.

The Second Anniversary: A Celebration of Life

Here we are, two years later. Two years since I had no plan, no vision for my future. And now? I have all the dreams in the world. I just returned from a cruise with my best friend from the Disney program; someone from halfway across the globe in Norway. If you had told 18-year-old me that I’d be here, traveling the world with people I love, working towards a career I’m passionate about, I never would have believed you. But my 20th year felt different. For the first time, I wasn’t just surviving; I was living. I could finally see how much I had grown, and I knew that none of this would have been possible if I hadn’t asked for help at 18. That moment of vulnerability changed everything. Once I let myself be honest, I saw that I wasn’t alone in my darkness; more importantly, it is possible to see the light again. I started this blog to share my story and to encourage others to be honest about their feelings. My mom always tells me it’s okay to feel all the feelings. She reminds me that the most intelligent, creative people often feel things profoundly, but not everyone learns how to channel those emotions in a way that helps them. I’m here, to remind you that your feelings are valid, your struggles don’t define you, and healing is possible. You are never alone in this.

Dreams I Never Thought Possible

For the first time, I believe I can have the life I want. The kind of life where I don’t have to choose between ambition and family; I can be both the strong businesswoman I’ve always dreamed of and have a life filled with love and connection. I opened up to my friend about this long-held fear on the cruise. I used to believe I had to sacrifice one dream for another, that business success meant giving up the idea of a home, family, and balance. But now, I see that I can have both. These are dreams I never would have imagined two years ago, when I was lost in self-doubt and fear of the unknown. It reminds me of a moment from a Disney trip years ago that has stayed with me ever since. My cousin and I met a woman who owned a PR firm, and though I don’t remember her name, she left a lasting impression. She looked us in the eyes and said, Not many people will genuinely admire you, so when you find those who do, never take it for granted. At the time, I didn’t realize how much those words would shape me. Looking back, she felt like a guardian angel; someone placed in my path at the right moment to spark something inside me. She ignited my interest in business, a field I never thought I belonged in. And now, years later, it’s becoming my reality.

The Power of Strong Women

Growing up surrounded by strong women, I’ve witnessed life's many different paths. Each of us has had our journey, struggles, and triumphs to get to where we are today. My grandmother always had this fascinating idea; what if she, her mother, and my mom could meet each other at the age of thirty? Would they be friends? Would they recognize themselves in one another? My grandmother started a family young, divorced young, and rebuilt her life as a single woman in a new city, Stratford, and eventually became a full-time professor as a grandmother. Later in life, she found her true love, my Papa.

On the other hand, my mom ended a few engagements, raised me as a single mother, and built a career as a full-time principal. Now, she’s finally settled down with a man who makes her truly happy, and I couldn’t be happier for her. Both have shown me that love isn’t something you chase, but grows from within. Only once you know who you are, love will find its way to you in its most accurate form. I never knew my great-grandmother, but I’ve always heard fantastic things about her. She never wanted to be called “Grandma”, her favorite story was Little Women, so my mom called her Marmie.

When I was born, my grandma also wanted a unique name. She rooted for me to be named Hannah (which didn’t pass) but settled on Hana as her grandmother's name instead. And now, my mom, officially a dog grandma to my little Moose, has taken on the name Gogo. I think it’ll stick great with future grandchildren. After all, Goldie Hawn is “GoGo” to Kate Hudson’s kids, and she’s always been one of my favorite celebrities. I’ve been thinking a lot about time and how we grow into ourselves. My cousin just turned 30, reflecting on how much can change in a decade. My little cousin, 10 years younger than me, now looks up to me, how I once needed someone to look up to. It’s a full-circle moment, seeing how we all evolve, yet carry pieces of those who came before us.

Conclusion

I couldn’t see a future for myself two years ago, but now, I wake up every day excited for what’s to come. I’ve learned that healing isn’t linear, it’s a journey of rediscovering and choosing yourself. Repeatedly I’ve learned that vulnerability is a strength, that the right people will love you for exactly who you are, and that asking for help is never a sign of weakness. If you’re in a dark place, please know it won’t always feel this way. Life has a way of surprising you, of giving you moments of pure joy you never imagined possible. I am living proof of that. And if sharing my story helps even one person believe that there is light beyond the darkness, then every step of this journey has been worth it.

Coping with Change: How I’ve Learned to Embrace Life’s Challenges

Introduction
Hey friends! Yesterday’s therapy session was a powerful reminder of the journey I’ve been on. Both my therapist and I ended the call early because I had nothing else to work through. It wasn’t that life had become more manageable, but that I’ve learned how to navigate its challenges. Back in university, I used to think progress meant eliminating struggles, but the truth is, life still throws obstacles my way. I’ve simply developed coping strategies to help manage them. With greater self-awareness, I no longer feel the need to create new worries. I now recognize what triggers my anxiety and, more importantly, how to manage it. Today, I want to share some of the strategies that have empowered me, hoping they might do the same for you. Struggles still exist, but my mindset has evolved. From high school to multiple moves, program changes, and career shifts, I’ve learned the importance of embracing uncertainty rather than fearing it. I didn’t start my self-care journey until I moved away for university, where I learned how to navigate life on my own. That experience eventually led me to where I am today; working at Disney while continuing my studies. Six months in Florida feels surreal, and as I apply for courses back in Toronto, I feel at peace knowing that, no matter what happens next, I’ll find my way. I hope my journey can encourage you to embrace the uncertainties in your life, as they often lead to the most rewarding experiences.

High School: The Pressure to Have It All Figured Out
Looking back at my high school years, I realize that my coping strategies weren’t the healthiest; a struggle many teens can relate to. I dealt with stress by constantly being sick, missing weeks of school at a time. The pressure to stay on track and not disappoint the people I cared about was overwhelming. I believed success meant following a set path: work hard, get into my dream program, and everything else would fall into place. For a while, it seemed like that was the case. But when I finally achieved my goals, I felt lost, unsure where to go next. In university, I realized the program I’d fought hard to get into wasn’t the right fit. The school I’d worked so hard to get into, following my grandparents’ footsteps, didn’t feel like home. High school had been a blur of rushing toward milestones, but deep down, I knew there was more to discover. If I could go back in time, I’d tell my high school self to trust her gut and stop trying to figure everything out so quickly. So many doors were open, and choosing the right one was more complicated than I imagined. I’ve learned that part of the process is about letting go of old friendships, hobbies, and expectations that no longer serve you. Life isn’t a perfectly structured plan; it’s about figuring things out.

Moving to Toronto: A Plan That Didn’t Feel Right
When I moved to Toronto at 18, fresh out of high school, I was unsure of my next steps. I had achieved everything I had worked for, getting into my dream school and program, but once I arrived, I felt a void. I tried to fit into groups that didn’t resonate with me, convincing myself that if I pushed through, I could make university life match my vision. I even tried rushing a sorority, hoping some structure would help me feel like I belonged. The more I tried to fit in, the more out of place I felt. Looking back, I know I could have stuck with my program and friends, but I also know I wouldn’t have been happy. My first year was a constant internal struggle, believing that struggling was part of the process. I accepted every negative feeling without questioning it, and this wasn’t a healthy coping strategy. I spent most of my time locked in my residence, skipping lectures, and lying in bed with no hope for the future. It felt suffocating, but I couldn’t explain it. Eventually, I realized that no one was coming to fix things for me. I could stay stuck, or I could make a change. I started exploring the city: visiting cafés, walking through galleries, and doing little things that brought me joy. But I still kept to myself, unable to fully open up about how I felt. It wasn’t until I got an interview for a Disney job that I felt a spark of hope. That moment reignited something in me. I started dressing up again and allowed myself to feel excited about the possibility of something new. Getting the job offer gave me clarity; it was time to step back from my studies and focus on myself. Though I finished my first year online, taking time off was crucial for my reset. Therapy and self-care played a significant role in my rebuilding process, helping me to understand my feelings and make the necessary changes. Returning and admitting my program wasn’t the right fit was one of the hardest things I’ve had to do, but it was necessary and turned out to be the best decision. This setback was a turning point, leading to significant growth and a clearer path forward.

Moving Back Home: Feeling Like a Setback, but Finding Clarity
When I moved back home, it felt like a step backward. I had thought I’d made progress by living away, but returning home felt like undoing all my hard work. Yet, I knew it wasn’t permanent; I had Disney to look forward to, which gave me something to hold onto. Stepping away from an unfulfilling environment allowed me to reassess what I truly wanted. My time at home was filled with therapy, helping out at my mom’s school, and bonding with friends. It was exactly what I needed to reset. Moving home taught me that taking a step back isn’t always a setback; it can be a necessary part of moving forward. Being in a familiar place with the people who know you best helped me find the answers I sought. The unexpected opportunity to join Disney was life-changing. It reminded me that home wasn’t about going backward but gaining strength to move forward in the right direction. Leaving Toronto was bittersweet, but the break allowed me to re-evaluate my path. After my first Disney program, I knew moving home was the right choice to reset before the next chapter. That time away gave me clarity, and by fall 2023, I returned to Toronto with newfound confidence and purpose. This journey has shown me the importance of finding supportive communities, and I hope you can find yours too.

First Disney Program: Finding Passion and Perspective
When I moved to Disney in the summer of 2023, I wasn’t sure what to expect. Initially, I was hesitant, but my dog Dug made the transition easier. He was the best icebreaker when I moved to Florida, and I don’t think I would’ve made it through those three months without him. Dug helped me socialize, meet new people, and create meaningful connections. Animals have become an unexpected yet effective coping mechanism for my mental health. My current companion, Moose, continues to help me stay grounded and present. Once I settled into Florida, I realized there were people like me out there, and I didn’t have to pretend to be someone I wasn’t. I’ll never forget a girls’ night after a long park day when one of my friends told me, “It’s because you’ve never had people who make you feel safe enough to be yourself.” That moment stuck with me; no matter the heartache or lost friendships, finding people who see the real me made everything worthwhile. The summer at Disney was carefree, like a test run of living independently, but within the comfort of my Disney bubble. I embraced the unknown, opened up to new experiences, and became more confident. Working at Disney gave me the clarity to pursue a new professional and personal direction. It inspired me to start writing my blog, creating a space to express my creativity without judgment. My time at Disney opened my eyes to the power of being surrounded by like-minded people, making me rethink my career path and personal goals.

Moving Back to Toronto & Switching Programs: A Fresh Start
In fall 2023, I moved back to Toronto, starting fresh in a new school and program, switching from life sciences to creative industries. I settled into my studio apartment with Moose and worked part-time at a retail store. It didn’t feel like I moved to Toronto just for school; it felt like a move for the city itself, with classes woven into my routine. This shift in perspective allowed me to enjoy my studies and genuinely feel like I was in a good place. Living alone helped me embrace my independence. I could focus on myself without compromising my space or comfort for roommates. That self-focus led me to realize what I truly wanted and, equally important, what I didn’t need. As I built my life in Toronto, I found new friends and, unexpectedly, love. Though that relationship didn’t work out, it taught me the depth of love I’m capable of and how far I’ve come. By focusing on myself, I opened up to love when the time was right. Since ending that relationship, many new opportunities have come my way. Returning to Toronto with a fresh perspective and new goals has been life-changing. The excitement of pursuing what I genuinely love, creative industries, has completely shifted my outlook. Making bold choices and embracing uncertainty has prepared me for whatever comes next.

Coping with Change: Embracing Growth Through Life's Challenges
Over the years, I’ve learned that coping with change isn’t about avoiding discomfort but embracing it and learning to navigate it with resilience and grace. Each phase of my life, from high school pressures to moving to Toronto, changing programs, and working at Disney, has brought challenges, requiring me to develop new coping strategies. One of the most important lessons I’ve learned is that coping is a fluid process; it’s not about solving everything at once but adapting as I go. I’ve learned to be kinder to myself, accepting that setbacks are part of the journey, not a sign of failure. In high school, my coping mechanisms weren’t the healthiest; I relied on getting sick to avoid dealing with stress. But over the years, I’ve learned the value of self-awareness, allowing me to recognize when I need to step back and recharge. Moving to Toronto forced me to leave my comfort zone and adapt to a new environment. While it wasn’t easy, it eventually became a turning point where I learned that change could be an opportunity for personal growth. Whether I was dealing with the uncertainty of my future after university or the challenges of living independently in Florida, I found that embracing uncertainty became one of my most potent coping strategies. As I look back on these years, coping with change has been less about eliminating stress and more about learning to face it with patience and trust in my ability to adapt and grow.

Conclusion
My journey from high school to today has taught me that life is less about finding the perfect plan and more about embracing uncertainty. The coping strategies I’ve learned, self-awareness, accepting setbacks, and trusting the process, have helped me find peace amidst life’s challenges. As I continue moving forward, I’m excited to see where this new chapter takes me, knowing I have the tools to navigate whatever comes my way.

Learning to Love My Body: A Journey of Self-Acceptance

Introduction

Hey friends! There’s always something I find myself reflecting on, and as we move into 2025, I’ve never felt more at peace with loving myself than I do now. Recently, a TikTok trend went viral about conversing with your younger self, and it got me thinking, If I could talk to the younger me, what would I say? One of the biggest struggles of my adolescence was insecurity about my appearance, something I know so many of us have felt. My mom, who’s a principal (as I’ve mentioned before), recently put me on the phone with a girl who was feeling alone after being dropped by friends and picked on. I told her something I wish I had known earlier: this probably won’t be the last time it happens, but the right people will find you; just keep being yourself. As hard as that sounds, self-acceptance comes from peeling back the layers of insecurity and allowing yourself to be vulnerable. Growing up as a girl, you realize that most of us are faking confidence while secretly comparing ourselves to each other. We chase ideals necessary for happiness, even when they aren’t what we truly want. But the only thing that should ever feel necessary is your happiness. The TikTok trend made me reflect on how my journey with body image, anxiety, and self-perception shaped me. And while I wouldn’t want to relive the struggles, I’m grateful for them, because breaking down those layers allowed me to rebuild myself into the person I am today.

The Struggles of Fitting In

Unfortunately, my generation of girls grew up surrounded by unrealistic beauty standards shaped by celebrities and social media. We were bombarded with images of perfectly airbrushed models and influencers, setting an unrealistic standard of beauty. Edited images became the norm, altering our perception of natural beauty. But I think it’s time for this generation to reclaim beauty without the need to fit into someone else's standards. In high school, it always felt necessary to keep up with fashion trends, attend every event, and do everything expected to make me “fit in.” Yet, even when I followed the script, I still didn’t truly love myself. I didn’t understand my big emotions, and because I didn’t know how to express them, they often turned into physical health issues. I was sick a lot, missing school for weeks at a time, and instead of understanding what was happening, people assumed I had an eating disorder. The truth was, my anxiety was manifesting in ways I didn’t even recognize myself. It wasn’t until I moved to a new city alone that I was forced to meet new people and figure out who I was. At first I kept running into the wrong people, and I couldn’t understand why. But once I found the right friends, people who embraced me entirely, I realized how much of myself I had been holding back. They allowed me to be my fun, outgoing self without judgment or embarrassment. In high school, I remember times when my friends were too self-conscious to dance in the middle of a party, and I held myself back because I didn’t want to stand out. Now, it’s one of my favourite things to do. It makes me wonder, if I had expressed my true self earlier, where would I be today? Looking back, I realize that struggling through those years was necessary. I had to be unguarded and figure things out on my own. Because when we shape ourselves based on what others expect, we lose sight of who we are. True confidence comes from embracing yourself, not from meeting a standard someone else created.

The Turning Point: Getting to Know Myself

Everything changed once I stopped blaming my looks and started recognizing the energy I was putting into the world. My struggles weren’t just about appearance; they were deeply tied to my mental well-being. For so long, I carried a constant tightness in my chest, thinking it was just a normal feeling. But over the past year, that weight has finally lifted because I’ve opened myself up in ways I never thought would be accepted. I can’t pinpoint when everything shifted, but I think it started when I embraced the idea of faking it and made it. Moving out of my hometown was a challenge. I struggled with living with other people because I always felt like I was in their space, not mine. I had spent so much of my life being the supportive friend, the one who was pushed under the rug, never realizing that many of those friendships were built on manipulation rather than genuine care. But when I moved out alone, I was finally forced to meet new people who truly aligned with me. That’s when I started expressing the personality that had always been inside me but was too afraid to come out. My old friend group kept me in a box, unwilling to let me grow. One even told my mom I wasn’t “well enough” to work at Disney World. And yet, here I am today: the happiest I’ve ever been. That’s why I always emphasize the importance of trusting your gut and doing what you need for yourself. Spend time alone. Learn what makes you happy. This year, I also rediscovered my love for solo travel, another experience where I felt utterly free, unbound by expectations. And that’s precisely what this time in our lives should be about: freedom, growth, and choosing ourselves. The journey of self-discovery is an exciting and empowering one, and I encourage you to embark on it with an open heart and mind.

Projecting Self-Love into the World

Once I finally took the time to focus on myself, everything started to shift. I deleted all my social media, spent time only with my closest friends, and moved back home to work on my personal growth. A few months later, at just 19, I moved to Florida alone. My energy was completely transformed when I completed my first program with the Disney Company. Being surrounded by like-minded, creative people who emphasized career growth, networking, and stepping outside their comfort zones made all the difference. This company has been incredibly supportive of my career goals, inspiring me to start this blog after my program when I moved back to Toronto. What began as a personal outlet has now become a way to share my self-growth journey, hoping it might help others. But if I could give one piece of advice, it would be this: Don’t listen to every piece of advice; figure out what you genuinely need for yourself. Once you find your voice, you can build your network and grow into the version of yourself you want to be. I’ve started speaking about myself more confidently, not because I have everything figured out, but because I trust my ambition and know I can do great things. People often ask, "What about school?" Since I took a year off, I know school will always be there. I trust my work ethic, and taking this Disney opportunity was the right step for my career. My friends constantly compliment my confidence, but what they don’t always realize is that I’m simply projecting the self-love I’ve built within myself. I hope that, through sharing my story, I can help you do the same.

A Message to My Younger Self (And to Every Girl Struggling)

Looking back at that TikTok trend, I’ve thought a lot about what I would say to my younger self. The first thing? You are enough, just as you are. I would be vulnerable with her; I wouldn’t sugarcoat it. The journey isn’t easy. There will be moments of deep insecurity, loneliness, and self-doubt, but I promise all the lows will make the highs even more meaningful. You’ll question if you’re good enough or if you're on the right path. And the truth is, you won’t always have the answers. But that’s okay. It’s perfectly fine to live a “normal” life, but if there’s something you dream of doing, take the risk. You have nothing to lose because the people who truly matter will always support you. And if they don’t? Maybe they were never meant to be part of your journey. I would tell her to embrace every moment, even the difficult ones, and to remember that nothing happening today will define her entire future. The things that feel overwhelming now, the insecurities, the doubts, the fear of judgment, will fade in time. And the things you’re insecure about? One day, they won’t even cross your mind. It takes time to love yourself, and it is not a linear process. Some days you’ll feel like you’ve figured it all out; others, you’ll struggle again. But when you reach the other side, finally stop seeking validation from others and realize your worth, it will be the most freeing feeling in the world. To every girl struggling: Keep going. You are not alone. You are stronger than you think. And your future self is already so proud of you. 

Conclusion

Reflecting on where I am now and how far I’ve come, I feel gratitude for the journey that brought me here. Self-acceptance wasn’t an overnight realization; it was a process of unlearning, growing, and allowing myself to be seen for who I truly am. I hope that by sharing my story, I can encourage others to embrace their path, trust their resilience, and know that self-love is always within reach. That TikTok trend reminded me of something important: we owe it to ourselves, past and present, to be kinder, more forgiving, and more patient. If I could leave you with one thought, it would be this: your worth has never been tied to how you look, what you achieve, or who accepts you. It has always been within you. Keep going, and trust that the best version of yourself is already on the way.

Life Lessons from Moose: A Girl’s Best Friend and the Journey of Finding Myself

Introduction

Hi friends! I hope your new year has been off to a great start. It's hard to believe we're already wrapping up the first month 2025. This week, my mom called with some upsetting news: my old rescue dog, Hank, is declining. It’s been a bittersweet reminder of the unconditional love he gave me and all the pets in my life, especially Moose. My family has always been full of animal lovers. We’ve cherished the good times and endured the heartbreak of losing a pet. You never truly understand the depth of love for an animal until you’ve experienced that bond and then had to say goodbye. Over the years, I’ve had to part with a handful of beloved pets, and it never gets easier. But the connection you share with them makes it all worth it. Most of you know about my first Disney College Program and how my dog, Dug, was there with me. If it weren’t for him, I wouldn’t have completed the program or gotten into the role I’m in today. Eventually, I had to say goodbye to Dug. During the final weeks of my program, that moment was one of the hardest things I’ve ever experienced. I had to take him to the vet alone, and the sadness of that day stayed with me. But I channelled those emotions into my writing and began looking into adopting a Chihuahua, assuming it would take at least a year or more to find the right puppy. Surprisingly, the breeder I contacted said my story stood out to her. She mentioned how she loves creating memorable moments for families, just like I make magical moments here at Disney. That’s how Moose, my now 1-year-old Chihuahua, came into my life. Being on my second program with Moose by my side has taught me so much, and I’m excited to share those lessons with you in this post. Moose has been a significant part of my personal growth, inspiring me to live in the moment and appreciate the love and loyalty he brings. Stay tuned as I introduce Moose, share some of our favourite moments, and reflect on what he’s taught me over the past year!

The Lesson of Unconditional Love

One of the best gifts Moose has given me is unconditional love. This past year, I’ve had to let go of some relationships that weren’t meant to be, and Moose has been my constant reminder of what real, loyal love looks like. Knowing I have a furry companion waiting for me at the door daily reminds me how deeply I am loved and how important it is to have love reciprocated in a way that nurtures you. Moose has helped me see that love should be mutual, supportive, and kind, never one-sided or filled with disrespect. I’ve dealt with many challenges and moments where I felt disrespected this year, but Moose’s loyalty has been a light through it all. He doesn’t care how the world sees me or what kind of day I’ve had; his love is unwavering and judgment-free. No matter what happens, I know that little Chihuahua chooses me every night. Granted, maybe it’s because there’s no one else to choose from. But still, his loyalty means everything to me. It’s not just the love Moose gives me; it’s the love he shares with others, too. He has this way of making people feel seen and special. The other week, I met a lovely woman who had just lost her Chihuahua. She broke down in tears when she saw Moose, overcome with emotion. She told me how much her dog meant to her, and I let her have some cuddle time with Moose; at that moment, I saw how the love our pets give us is transformative; it touches something profound within us. Moose has comforted me in ways I never expected. On days when I’ve felt defeated or alone, his little face peeking up at me and his tail wagging with excitement reminded me that love and loyalty don’t have to be complicated. He’s shown me how to give love freely and without expectation and taught me to accept love without questioning if I deserve it. Moose has a unique ability to comfort and uplift, and he has brought reassurance and comfort to my life in ways I never thought possible. He's helped me grow in many ways, not just in how I see relationships but in how I value myself and the connections I choose to keep.

Living in the Moment

One thing I’ve always struggled with when managing my mental health is staying grounded. I could never fully be in the moment, always preoccupied with my next step or overanalyzing what came before. Something I’ve recently come to understand is that this often happens to emotionally intelligent people who feel under-challenged and end up blaming themselves for not doing enough. But Moose has been a game-changer for me in this regard. He’s helped me slow down and enjoy the simple joys of life, reminding me that happiness doesn’t have to come from grand gestures or accomplishments; it can be found in the smallest, most everyday moments. Moments of grounding with Moose happen all the time. Our walks in the city are one of my favourites. Seeing the smiles on people’s faces as we cross paths is so heartwarming, and it reminds me of how much light even a little dog can bring to someone’s day. And then there are the times we’re at home, giving him belly rubs, cuddling on the couch, or racing each other around the apartment in a game of Zoomies. These moments might seem small or ordinary, but they bring me immense joy. For Moose, they’re the best moments of his day, and sharing those experiences with him has made me realize how much I’ve been overlooking in my own life. Observing Moose has been like having a little mindfulness coach in my corner. He finds so much joy in the simplest things: a treat, a patch of sunlight, or even just sitting by my side. Watching him has taught me to pause and appreciate what’s around me instead of always rushing toward the next task or goal. He doesn’t care about what tomorrow holds; he’s fully immersed in whatever is happening right now, whether it’s sniffing every inch of grass on a walk or nuzzling into my lap after a long day. What’s even more powerful is how these moments with Moose have made me reflect on the people and opportunities in my life. If I can give Moose my full attention and cherish our time together, why wouldn’t I do the same with the people I love or the chances I’ve been given? Moose has shown me that quality time is one of the greatest gifts we can give to others and to ourselves. He’s helped me see that joy doesn’t have to come from doing big things or meeting huge expectations; sometimes, it’s in the quiet, simple things that we find the most meaning.

Resilience and Adaptability

I’ve always admired dogs' incredible ability to adapt to new environments, and Moose is a shining example. Born a Canadian puppy who braved snowy winters, he spends his days basking under the Florida sun and occasionally mingling with Disney characters. The move to Florida was a big transition for both of us, but Moose handled it like a pro. He endured an 18-hour drive without a complaint, which kept me sane during the trip. He kept me focused, too, ensuring we made plenty of stops for his potty breaks. Amazingly, his calm demeanour helped me stay grounded in a situation that could have easily been overwhelming. One of the best things about Moose’s breeder was her support and advice on travelling with this breed. Knowing that this program won’t end my travelling for work, I’ve found comfort in Moose’s ability to cope well with change. Watching him adapt so seamlessly has reminded me of the resilience I strive to build in myself. Moose has taught me that change doesn’t have to be daunting; it can be an opportunity to grow, thrive, and embrace new adventures. Last year, I lived alone in my studio apartment with Moose, and we had the best time. I admit I sometimes felt guilty because he had few opportunities to socialize. But whenever he got the chance, whether it was meeting my friends or encountering strangers on a walk, he’d light up with joy. Moose is the most social, loving dog I’ve ever known. He’ll happily jump into anyone’s lap and make them feel like they’ve been best friends forever. Now that we’re in Florida, things are a little different. I live with three roommates, and Moose couldn’t be happier. He’s thriving in a household full of people who adore him, and his little personality shines even more. He’s even starting to become bilingual, picking up commands in French and Norwegian from my roommates! It’s fascinating to see how Moose is adaptable and incredibly intuitive. From day one, he’s been great at reading people, always knowing who the good ones are. And he’s always right. There’s still one person Moose has an unshakable connection with: my ex. My ex made such a special impact on Moose’s life that their bond went viral on TikTok. Moose can remember people, and during a walk in the city, he somehow recognized my ex’s apartment out of all the buildings. It was a bittersweet moment, but Moose taught me something important that day. Even when life changes, and people come and go, the bonds we form can leave lasting impressions. After that chapter, it was just Moose and me again, and he adjusted back to our old routines without missing a beat. He was as happy as ever, reminding me that resilience isn’t about avoiding hardship; it’s about bouncing back and finding joy in what’s next. While it’s been challenging at times to navigate life without the help I once had, Moose has been my constant. He’s shown me that I can find strength within myself even when things are tough. Moose has become my little anchor, reminding me that change is a stepping stone to something better.

Patience and Responsibility

Owning a pet is a big commitment; Moose has taught me that firsthand. From the beginning, challenges came with being a pet parent, including very expensive vet visits and countless hours spent on training. Fun fact: Moose is even litter box trained! As a little baby, Moose had quite the personality; he loved to cause trouble and test his limits. I remember moments when his mischievous energy would leave me frustrated, but we found our rhythm over time. Eventually, Moose realized I wasn’t messing around, and he learned the rules, showing me how persistence pays off. Beyond the logistics of pet parenting, Moose has instilled in me a sense of responsibility that I didn’t have before. I remember my first year of university when I’d often choose staying in bed over facing the day. My priorities were all over the place, and I lacked structure in my life. But with Moose, everything changed. Having him by my side has given me purpose and motivation, reminding me that someone is counting on me to show up daily. Waking up to his boundless energy is now one of the best parts of my morning; it’s impossible not to smile when he’s wagging his tail and ready to take on the day. Moose has also been the perfect excuse for setting boundaries. Let’s face it: sometimes, events can feel overwhelming or not worth staying for, and Moose has become my ultimate “get-out-of-jail-free” card. “I need to get home to Moose” is my go-to line, and it’s always met with understanding because, really, who can argue with wanting to take care of your dog? While it might seem small, this has taught me how important it is to protect my time and energy, something I’ve always struggled with before. But most importantly, Moose has taught me patience and the value of consistency. Training him wasn’t always easy: it required repetition, discipline, and a lot of trial and error. There were moments when I’d feel defeated, wondering if we’d ever get it right. Yet, every step of the way, Moose reminded me of the importance of showing up, even when things are tough. Whether it was cleaning up accidents during his litter training days or sitting through vet visits, I learned to stay calm and keep working toward the bigger picture. Moose has become my little accountability partner through all the ups and downs. He’s shown me that consistency builds trust, and with trust comes an unbreakable bond. As much as I’ve helped Moose grow into the sweet, obedient dog he is today, he’s helped me grow, too. Together, we’ve built a life that feels fuller and more meaningful; I’ll always be grateful for that.

Conclusion

Reflecting on the past year with Moose, I realize how much he’s shaped my journey in ways I never expected. From teaching me unconditional love and the importance of living in the moment to showing me resilience, adaptability, patience, and responsibility, Moose has been more than just a pet; he’s been my most excellent teacher. Life with him has been filled with joy, growth, and countless little moments that have brought me closer to the person I strive to be. While I don’t know what the future holds, I know I’ll face it with Moose by my side, reminding me to embrace the simple joys, cherish the love in my life, and confidently take each step. One lesson I hope to share from my journey with Moose is that our bonds with people and pets can transform our lives in the most beautiful ways. Here's to another year of growth, love, and loyalty, led by the little Chihuahua who’s taught me more than I ever thought possible.

2025 Vision Board: Embracing Growth and Possibilty

Introduction

Hi friends, I hope you’ve all had a great start to the new year. This time of year feels special because many see it as a clean slate. And if that mindset helps you create change, then that’s great! But here’s a little tip: change doesn’t have to start on January 1st, and it’s okay if your New Year’s resolutions shift three months down the line. Life is about trial and error, and the pressure of finding jobs, managing living expenses, and navigating everyday life can feel overwhelming. Sometimes, the first step to growing isn’t setting huge goals, it’s taking a moment to reflect on what brought you joy and growth in the past year and figuring out how to carry that into your everyday life in 2025. When we put too much pressure on significant, end-goal achievements, we can miss the minor, meaningful steps leading to growth. One thing I’ve learned while working for The Walt Disney Company is how much I value hearing the journeys of my fellow cast members. Some started with undergraduate degrees, others joined straight out of high school, and many have worked in senior leadership roles. If there’s one thing I’ve taken from 2024, it’s this: attitude matters. When I shifted my attitude, I stopped seeing myself as “just a second-year university student.” I began to see my potential and connect with people who hold the kinds of roles I aspire to have someday. My conversations with these leaders have taught me something invaluable: never lose sight of the power of attitude. It fuels resilience in the face of rejection, and reframes rejection as redirection. As I step into 2025, I’m excited to carry these lessons and continue to grow.

Honing Passions and Skills

I firmly believe in finding your passions and focusing on yourself until you do. That doesn’t mean you must stick to just one passion, though. For my fellow readers in their twenties, this is our time to explore. There’s a big world and so much time ahead to determine where we want to land. I recently stepped out of my comfort zone by attending an audition workshop for Disney Live Entertainment. Some supportive peers had always envisioned me in entertainment, so I tried it, even though I couldn’t dance and had no experience. I went in vulnerable but confident in my attitude. What I love about Disney is their emphasis on hiring people for their trainability and attitude, not just their skills. To my surprise, after the workshop, my number was called alongside a handful of others for accurate headshots and measurements to receive a callback. That moment made my head spin, in a good way, as I started considering the possibility of working in entertainment. As I move into 2025, I’m embracing open-mindedness and taking advantage of every opportunity that comes my way. I’ve learned that I never know what I might miss out on if I don’t take the chance. For instance, I’ve always had a passion for writing. I was the quiet kid in school, but my teachers noticed my talent and often asked me to read my imaginative stories aloud to the class. After a challenging first year of university in life sciences and participating in my first Disney International Program, I again found my love for writing. I finally reached a point where I was happy and doing things for myself. When I moved back to the city, I cherished my time alone, reflecting and writing. Sharing my stories has connected me with many amazing people, and I want to continue doing so. Disney has taught me the value of storytelling, and this year, I plan to embrace that even more. For a long time, I felt shut down for having a loud personality, and even now, people sometimes try to dim my light. But my people skills will connect me with the right people. I told my mom, “I tailor my brand to the people I want to notice, and it’s okay if others don’t like my vision.” Those aren’t the people I need to work with to get where I want to be. As I step into 2025, I’m ready to continue embracing every opportunity, honing my passions, and staying true to my vision, because this year, it’s all about growth, storytelling, and believing in the possibilities ahead.

Seeing Potential in Yourself

Regarding my career goals, I know I won’t become a CEO overnight. But I can do my best where I am today, help others as much as I can, and continue to grow by learning from those around me. The first step to starting your vision board is seeing the potential in yourself. Without that, there’s no point in beginning your journey, because you can’t aim for something if you don’t even know what you truly want. I was always the student who stood on the sidelines, often described by teachers as a “silent leader.” I’ve always loved helping others. I even attended a service trip as the only middle schooler among high school students because I wanted to make a difference. However, I don’t know precisely when the flip switched, when I stopped seeing myself solely as a helper and started seeing my potential as a leader. Growing up in a community where success often seemed handed to people, I thought I couldn’t achieve things on my own. That changed when I moved to a big city and had to fend for myself. I learned the importance of networking and began to see that people valued what I had to say. This realization grew during my time with Disney, where I finally found my place among people who shared my values and encouraged me to be my authentic self. Before that, I tried to fit into spaces where I didn’t belong, becoming someone I wasn’t. Once I found my community and felt supported, I started to see my capabilities and practiced expressing them more confidently. Success and confidence don’t come overnight, it’s about showing up, staying consistent, and sometimes “faking it until you make it.” Now, I leave the house every day as if it’s an interview, working on building my brand and selling my vision. As I transition into 2025, I no longer see myself as bound by limitations. Although I may not have envisioned myself as a CEO before, I now believe in the power of growth, adaptability, and a positive attitude.

The Role of Others in Your Journey

Once you can figure out what you want from life, the next step is understanding that you can’t get there on your own. Success requires a network of people who value, respect, and support your goals. I’ve always been attracted to energy, and when I feel a genuine connection with someone, I know how important it is to nurture that relationship. I was also raised with the mindset of never burning bridges. Whether meeting someone for the first time or catching up with a mentor, I treat every interaction as an opportunity to learn and grow. One thing I’ve embraced is that not everyone will agree with you or align with your vision, and that’s okay. If you get a “no” for an answer, it might simply mean you’re talking to the wrong person. Life is all about finding those who see your potential and want to walk alongside you on your journey. Through my travels and experiences, I’ve been amazed at how even casual interactions can turn into valuable connections. For instance, I’ve gained a few LinkedIn contacts by striking up conversations in unexpected places, like coffee shops or airports. Life is truly what you make of it. Once I started viewing my life as my business and my mindset shifted to thinking of myself as a brand, everything began to align. I’ve realized that being a CEO isn’t just about a title, it’s about creating opportunities for others, continuously learning, and staying open to growth. I’ve sometimes struggled to decide whether to leave for new opportunities or stay where I am to deepen my network. Both choices have their pros and cons, but I’ve learned the value of nurturing relationships wherever I am. Each person who enters your life has the potential to teach you something valuable, even if your paths only cross briefly. Whether it’s a mentor sharing their wisdom or a friend challenging your perspective, these moments shape who you are and how you approach your goals. Moving into 2025, I’m carrying these lessons with me. I’m committed to building meaningful connections, staying open to new possibilities, and creating a future where my leadership vision comes to life. My journey is a testament to the fact that success isn’t a solo journey, it’s a collective effort fueled by collaboration and growth.

Embracing Uncertainty

When I was younger, my mom went to a psychic who told her I was an “indigo baby.” I’m not entirely sure what that means, but apparently, I have some kind of powers. She also mentioned that I’d be in school for a long time. It felt like a prophecy locking me into a never-ending academic journey at the time, but now I see it differently. It’s not a limitation, it’s part of my growth story. Education has always been a core value in my family. Nearly all my family members have been involved in education, and that environment instilled in me a deep respect for learning. However, my family also emphasized the importance of experiences outside the classroom, mainly through travel. One thing my parents, despite their differences, have always supported is my sense of independence. For example, they encouraged me to embark on a solo backpacking trip to Spain because they understood the invaluable lessons travel provides, having done the same at my age. When I received my offer to work at Disney for a year, there wasn’t much debate about school, it felt like the next step in my journey. I accepted the offer immediately, confident that this was where I needed to be. Luckily, I’ve been surrounded by educators and mentors who remind me that school will always be there, and I’m grateful to have the ambition to make the most of opportunities as they come. Even though I’m not currently in a traditional classroom, I’m far from losing my ambition. At Disney, I’m taking full advantage of classes and growth opportunities offered through my role while also planning my next steps for my career and education when I return to the city. Yes, I still get occasional looks or questions from those who don’t understand why I’ve chosen a non-linear path, but I’ve learned to block out the noise. I know what I want in life, and I trust that I’m on the track I’m meant to be on. Ultimately, life isn’t about following someone else’s map but creating your own path. Education, travel, and work have all become key parts of my journey, and I embrace the uncertainty because it means I’m growing. The linear route isn’t for everyone, and that’s okay. What matters is staying true to yourself and moving forward confidently, no matter where the road takes you.

Conclusion

As I step into 2025, my vision board is a reflection of everything I’ve learned and everything I aspire to become. It’s a mix of personal and professional goals, a reminder to embrace growth, and a testament to resilience and adaptability. At the center of my vision board is storytelling, whether through writing, connecting with people, or building my brand. I want to continue honing my passions, exploring new opportunities, and staying open to the unexpected. My journey isn’t about following a particular path but creating my own and celebrating the milestones. This year, I aim to nurture meaningful relationships, embrace every chance to learn, and remember that growth often comes from unexpected places. 2025 is my year to lean into change, stay true to my values, and continue believing in the possibilities. Here’s to a year of embracing uncertainty, celebrating progress, and making every step count!

Celebrating the Light of My Life: My Mom's Birthday

Introduction:

Hi friends! For this blog, it feels only fitting to celebrate the special person who inspired me to start writing in the first place: my mom. Yesterday, we celebrated her birthday in our favourite place, Walt Disney World. Looking back, though, it’s not just the location that makes these moments unique but also the memories we’ve created on our trips here throughout the years. This trip felt particularly full circle because I’m finally starting to live my dreams. My mom has never made me feel guilty about chasing those dreams; I know my dreams are hers, too. Two years ago, I moved away for school, and since September, I’ve taken an even more significant leap by moving to a whole new country for a year-long contract. It’s been hard not having her physically by my side, but no matter the distance, I feel her unwavering support and strength wherever I go. My mom often brings up a conversation we had before I moved, where I was upset and told her she wasn’t “accepting my voice and the person I’m becoming.” She’s held on to that moment, using it as a reminder to appreciate my voice and the voice it has now given her. What she doesn’t realize, though, is that she’s the reason I was able to find my voice in the first place. I can’t wait to dedicate this blog post to her. Happy Birthday Mom!

A Tribute to My Strong Single Mom

My mom was a single mom for my entire upbringing, and I like to think of us as the real-life Gilmore Girls. Last year, she took a leap of faith and moved into a new home with her partner, a step she never felt ready to take while I was growing up because her sole focus was me. Nothing about our bond has changed despite her new chapter and my move to a new country. When we’re together, we still find ways to go shopping, order takeout, or curl up in our pyjamas to watch crime shows. She wasn’t just made to be my mom; she was destined to be my best friend. I joke that I call the shots in our relationship, but she was the one who taught me independence. With her working late nights as a principal, I’d “cook” dinner (boil water or put the chicken in the oven) and eagerly wait for her to come home so we could eat together in our PJs while watching TV. It was like being roommates, but it was our special thing. My mom has always been a hardworking role model, teaching me resilience and independence while clearly trusting me completely. She believed I could do anything I wanted; wow, did it ever pay off! At only twenty, I’ve moved away from home three times, solo backpacked through Europe, and adopted my puppy, Moose. Her unwavering support has always been my safety net, and I know that no matter what happens or who I might disappoint, she’ll never stop believing in me because she knows and loves the real me. One of her favourite sayings is, “Why be vanilla when you can be tiger-striped ice cream?” She’s probably never had tiger-striped ice cream, but it’s stuck with me forever. It’s a reminder to embrace my uniqueness, a lesson she lives by and has passed on to me. Just yesterday at the park, a cast member told her, “I think you might be my favourite guest today.” That’s the kind of energy my mom radiates, and it’s the same energy she’s instilled in me, helping me achieve so much in just twenty years. Looking back and celebrating my accomplishments this year, I can’t help but think of my biggest cheerleader. She’s always the first to hear my news and probably always will be. And you had better believe she’ll be giving me away at my wedding if I even keep things traditional because one thing we aren’t is traditional. It was hard growing up watching my friends live in nuclear families, but my mom more than made up for it. She didn’t just make up for two parents; she made up for a whole village. No matter where life takes me, I know my mom will always be my anchor, inspiration, and the greatest gift I could ever ask for.

Believing in My Dreams

This year, I paused my studies to accept an offer to work at Walt Disney World as a Canadian Cultural Representative. If you knew me before my Disney journey, you’d remember that I was pursuing a top science degree at the #1 university in Canada, yet I didn’t feel fulfilled or successful. I kept asking myself, “What’s next”? and I couldn’t see a future I was excited about. It wasn’t until my mom encouraged me to apply for my first Disney International Program that I embraced change and growth. That experience completely shifted my perspective. I changed my degree to the Creative Industries at a school where I feel comfortable expressing myself. Then came another life-changing moment: my offer letter to work at Disney for a year. Well, almost. There was a hiccup. I originally applied for a three-month college exchange program but received a rejection email. When I called my mom to tell her the news, she refused to accept it as the final answer. She told me to find the right person to listen and give me another chance. Her belief in me gave me the courage to persist. I kept reaching out, sharing my passion, and explaining why this opportunity meant so much. Finally, I got my answer; I was accepted into the year-long Disney program! When I shared the news, many people asked, “What about school?” But my mom and I saw the bigger picture. She understood my dream, and her support gave me the strength to pursue it wholeheartedly. This year has been incredible. I’ve built connections with cast members from all walks of life, inspiring my next steps when I return to the city with my loyal sidekick, Moose. For those who know me, you know I’m open to life’s detours, always exploring what the world has to offer. This program has opened so many doors for me, and it’s why I’m so passionate about working for the Walt Disney Company. Reflecting on my journey, I know I wouldn’t be the person I am today without my mom. She often tells me she struggled with confidence at my age and finds it remarkable to see me thriving, but what she doesn’t realize is that my confidence comes from her. Her hard work, vulnerability, and honesty about her insecurities have been my guiding light. Thank you, Mom, for always believing in me and encouraging me to chase big or small opportunities. You’ve given me the wings to fly, and because of you, I’m stepping into this new chapter of my life with courage and excitement.

A Relationship Beyond Borders

Since moving back to Florida for my second Disney International Program, my mom and I have kept our bond strong, even across the miles/kilometres (For both my Canadian and American readers, haha). This most magical place always has a way of bringing us closer. Every time I return to Disney, I’m reminded of our first trip here together, when my Nonni, battling stage four cancer, took me at the age of five. That trip sparked a magic in me that has lived on ever since. Now, as an adult working for the company, it feels so special to share this experience with my mom and keep the magic alive. We continue many of the same traditions, with slight changes. For example, Splash Mountain, our favourite ride, has transformed into Tiana’s Bayou Adventure. I’ll never forget when we rode it with Nonni; she lost her wig during the ride! Funny enough, when we rode it this time, it happened to be on Nonni’s birthday, and we were sitting in the same boat. As we reached the end, our lap bar in the log was the only one that didn’t want to move; it was just another magical moment that felt like a message from her. Moments like these, filled with nostalgia and new traditions, keep Disney such a special place for us. Even when we’re apart, we stay close through calls, visits, and the traditions we’ve built over the years. My mom’s guidance continues to shape my choices, pushing me to chase opportunities and embrace every adventure. No matter how far apart we are, I know we’re always together; she’s my invisible red string, always tethered to me through every milestone and journey. Thank you, Mom, for shaping me into the woman I am today. I can’t wait to keep growing, making you proud, and creating more magical memories.

Conclusion

Mom, you are the heart and soul of every milestone and memory that means the most to me. Your love, resilience, and unwavering belief in me have been my foundation, giving me the courage to dream big, embrace my uniqueness, and chase after the life I’ve always imagined. Through every challenge and triumph, your guidance has been my compass, and I wouldn’t be the person I am today without you. Whether encouraging me to take bold leaps or simply reminding me to enjoy the moment, you’ve always been there, shaping my journey with your wisdom and care. As we celebrate your birthday in the most magical place, I hope you feel how deeply loved and appreciated you are today and every day. You’ve given me a lifetime of memories to cherish, and I look forward to creating even more as we continue to grow and explore together. Here’s to you, Mom, my biggest cheerleader, best friend, and most incredible gift. Wishing you the happiest of birthdays and a year ahead filled with love, laughter, and endless adventures. I love you more than words can ever say.

Wrapping Up 2024: Embracing Change and New Beginnings

Introduction

Hi friends! I’m sorry it’s been a while since I’ve written. As you know, I value vulnerability, and honestly, the past three months since my move to Florida have been challenging. Turning twenty has been a significant milestone for me. A decade that feels exciting and overwhelming, full of possibilities and uncertainties. In these months, I’ve been navigating considerable life changes: switching degrees, moving to Disney, experiencing personal growth, and dealing with heartbreak. Change has become a central theme in my life, and I’ve realized that the only way to move forward is by reflecting and adjusting what needs to be changed to stay true to my path. This year, I took a significant risk by pausing my studies in the Creative Industries program in Toronto to pursue my passion for making magic at Disney World with the hope to find inspiration from others, just as I did after my first Disney program. During therapy, I reflected on how much has changed over the past year. I was in a completely different place back then, finishing my first year of university, drifting from high school friendships, and slowly finding my people. With a stronger sense of who I am and who I want to become, I arrived in Florida with high expectations. On the tough days when I feel homesick or question my decision, I remind myself why I’m here and that this is truly a once-in-a-lifetime opportunity. I’ve always been a go-getter, and like many of you, I struggle when I feel stuck or unsure of where life will take me next. But I’m learning to let go, and I think that’s what our twenties are all about. This year has taught me that if you want something to happen, you’re the one who has to make it happen. Instead of staying in bed and dwelling on homesickness, I’ve chosen to reach out to my peers and explore ways to keep growing while continuing my program. I try every scenario and every idea until I know I’ve done all I can. So, let’s dive into what my first year as a twenty-year-old has taught me!

Reflecting on Turning Twenty

You know those coming-of-age movies we all watched growing up? I never thought fiction would become my reality. Finding yourself is such a complex idea that it’s hard to grasp until you leave the familiarity of your hometown, friends, and the life you were used to. But when you take that leap, move away, and surround yourself with people who share your passions, you begin to see that leaving isn’t an end. It’s a beginning. The real challenge lies in stepping away from your comfort zone to discover a new version of yourself. At the start of this year, I spent much time alone. Just Moose and me in my studio apartment. It was a season of reflection and independence. Hosting cocktail nights with friends became a small but meaningful way to connect, and I learned to enjoy my own company truly. Living alone gave me a sense of freedom I never had before, and while I’m so excited to move back to the city and create a new “girl cave,” I’ve grown to respect my needs and value my independence. Knowing what you need, and allowing yourself to honour that, is such an important lesson. The people who genuinely love you will always stay, no matter the distance or the time apart. This year, I also faced something new for me: heartbreak. Yes, I’ve dabbled in dating before, but nothing ever felt as accurate as it did this time. I’m not sure if it was because my mindset had shifted or if it was the person himself, but before him, I was so scared to open myself up. After everything I’ve been through, especially navigating the aftermath of past trauma and building a safety net of people I trust, he was the first person I truly let in, someone I found on my own and genuinely liked. In the end, the heartbreak was necessary. It taught me that I can pick up the pieces and heal on my own. This year has shown me the importance of relying on myself. My friends always tell me they admire my confidence and love for spending time alone, and I wish everyone could experience that kind of self-assurance. It took me a long time to get here. I had to dive deep into my past, face the things I wanted to change and figure out how to move forward gracefully. This process has shaped the person I am today. Something is terrifying and thrilling about having time ahead of you while feeling the pressure to figure it all out. But I’m learning to find peace in the uncertainty and joy.

Accepting Heartbreak as Part of Growth

Heartbreak defined my year, not because of how he chose to treat me, but because of how I decided to move on. For the first time in my life, I truly understood my worth and recognized that the way I was treated wasn’t right. I’ve always been the fun, single friend dishing out advice, but I had never been so emotionally invested in a relationship. Even though it didn’t work out, I’m grateful it happened. It helped me grow into the confident, self-assured person I am today. I’m enjoying my single life with a fresh perspective, having experienced true heartbreak. It’s hard to accept when someone doesn’t want you, primarily when you’ve worked hard to become your best version. But I’ve learned that the right people will never make you feel too much or not enough. They will push you to achieve your goals, not hold you back. Recently, I ended things with someone I was seeing because I didn’t feel challenged. I need to be with someone with their own goals and the determination to achieve them while still supporting mine. I’ve also come to understand the importance of being with someone who’s done the work on themselves. Someone who knows their worth, understands their needs and is mature enough to communicate about them. These complex life experiences shape us, helping us grow and mature into the people we’re meant to be, for ourselves and future relationships. My mom often reminds me I’m only twenty, and there’s so much time ahead for love. And she’s right. Before my ex came into my life, I didn’t think much about dating or starting a family. I guess the right person can make you imagine new possibilities for your life. While I’m grateful that he showed me how deeply I’m capable of loving, I can’t wait to share that love with someone truly ready to receive it. Dating can feel exhausting, especially when all you’re trying to do is protect your heart. But heartbreak has taught me much about love, boundaries, self-worth, and resilience. It’s not about accepting the loss as an ending but seeing it as an opportunity to grow stronger and redefine what happiness looks like.

Starting a New Chapter

As 2024 comes to a close, I am still unsure where this new chapter will lead me. But I trust myself and the choices I make, knowing that everything has a way of working out as it’s meant to. My peers are always shocked  that I was once in Life Sciences before switching to Creative Industries. No one ever believed I was a "gifted" student! But hey, everything happens for a reason. Maybe I should even thank my mom for not pushing me into the gifted program or maybe I wouldn’t be the bubbly person I am today(haha). After my first program at Walt Disney World, my new friends inspired and supported me to switch my degree. That decision led me to meet even more amazing people who align with my career goals and passions. This year, I’ve truly learned the importance of networking and the value of never burning a bridge. Some connections from my first Disney program have supported me during this experience, and I know I’ll stay in touch with them when I return to the city. And who knows, maybe even find my way back to the company someday. Switching degrees from Life Sciences to Creative Industries was a scary decision. It meant leaving behind a familiar, structured path for something less specific but far more exciting. At first, I worried about pivoting away from the expectations I’d placed on myself, but following my intuition was the best choice I’ve ever made. I’ve learned that taking risks, even scary ones, allows you to grow and align with what truly matters to you. Moving to Walt Disney for a year has been another bold step. The excitement of joining such a dynamic environment pushed me to step outside my comfort zone. Along the way, I’ve had to adapt to a new workplace, build new skills, and connect with people from all walks of life. These experiences have taught me the power of collaboration and how much you can learn from those around you. This year has also brought plenty of moments where I felt unsure about my future. But I’ve learned to balance my ambition with self-compassion. It’s okay to take things one step at a time and let your path unfold naturally. Ambition doesn’t mean rushing. It means staying curious and open to exploring unexpected opportunities. Through it all, I’ve had to have tough, honest conversations to advocate for myself and prioritize my well-being. And while those moments were intimidating, they’ve made me stronger and more self-assured. I’m proud of my steps this year to embrace change, lean into uncertainty, and trust that I’m exactly where I’m meant to be.

Lessons on Accepting Change

Change is inevitable, but how we navigate it can make all the difference in our personal growth. Over time, I’ve learned some practical ways to embrace transitions while staying true to myself. One of the first steps is allowing yourself to grieve old chapters. It’s important to acknowledge what you’re leaving behind and give yourself permission to feel the loss. This isn’t about holding onto the past but making space for the new beginnings that lie ahead. Staying present is another key piece of the puzzle. It’s easy to get caught up in future plans or to dwell on past mistakes, but there’s so much value in appreciating now. Whether it’s through journaling, taking a walk, or simply sitting with your thoughts, staying grounded helps us embrace uncertainty with clarity. Change can be scary, but it’s also an exciting opportunity to discover new strengths, meet amazing people, and uncover hidden passions. It’s crucial to lean into these new experiences, even when they feel overwhelming at first. Along the way, don’t forget to stay true to yourself. Sometimes, the hardest lesson is realizing you can’t change others, but you can focus on staying aligned with your values and prioritizing your own needs. If something doesn’t resonate with who you are or where you’re headed, it’s okay to let it go. Growth starts with asking the hard questions. What truly makes you happy, and what are you willing to work for? Finally, it’s important to accept that change is part of life. Resisting it only leads to stress, but embracing it opens the door to resilience and growth. The road ahead may not always be clear, but trusting in the journey, and knowing that each step is part of your evolution, will guide you to the right place.

Conclusion

As I close this chapter of 2024, I feel excitement and gratitude for all the lessons this year has brought. It hasn’t been easy, navigating significant changes never is, but every experience has shaped me into someone more resilient, self-assured, and ready to face whatever comes next. From heartbreak to personal growth, moving to Florida, to rediscovering my independence, I’ve learned that embracing change isn’t just about accepting what’s new. It’s about honouring where you’ve been and trusting yourself to create the future you deserve. I may not know exactly where this next chapter will lead, but I’ve realized that uncertainty isn’t something to fear, it’s something to embrace. Life has a way of working itself out when you show up for yourself and take those risks. So, here’s to stepping into the unknown, staying true to who we are, and finding joy in becoming. Thank you for sharing this journey with me. Let’s make 2025 even better!

Beyond the Election: Women’s Rights and the Path to Empowerment

**Talk of sexual assault

Introduction

Hi friends. Today, I woke up with dread, afraid to even look at my phone. It’s election results day in the U.S., and one glance at the screen would tell me what the next four years might bring, not just for America but for women everywhere. As I fell asleep the night before, the race was close, and I held onto hope. Seeing the results this morning, though, I felt a wave of disheartenment wash over me, especially thinking of all the work women like Kamala Harris put into this campaign. Her strength and refusal to give up until the end inspired me to write this post because she fought so hard, and many of us, even here in Canada, believed in her. As a proud Canadian representing my country at Walt Disney World, I feel grateful to live in a place where equality and human rights are values we strive to uphold. But what troubles me most today is the thought that all the progress women have made over decades, the rights we fought so hard for, could be diminished. It breaks my heart to think of the fear many women across the U.S. might feel, wondering if they’re truly safe in their own country. North America has always felt like a place of freedom, but today, that promise seems more fragile than ever.

Fear of Losing Progress on Women’s Rights

For generations, women have fought relentless battles for rights that should be expected: the right to vote, to earn equal pay, to make decisions about our bodies, and to feel secure in our communities. These hard-earned freedoms are not taken for granted as they result from activism, sacrifice, and resilience from women who refused to be silenced. Yet, as I contemplate the election results today, I fear these rights are more uncertain than ever. Political shifts in the U.S. could reverse years of progress, bringing in policies that undermine our freedoms, remove our protections, and leave many of us hesitant about the future. As a Canadian woman, I am fortunate to live in a country that consistently upholds and protects these rights. However, witnessing these changes in the U.S., I empathize deeply with women who may soon face an uncertain reality. It’s a clear reminder of the critical need to defend our rights everywhere because we should never have to fear losing the equality we’ve fought so hard to achieve.

The Personal Fear and Trauma Women Face

One of the most powerful aspects of Kamala’s campaign was her ability to be vulnerable and genuinely connect with others. She didn’t just speak from a platform. She came down to people’s level, listened, and genuinely saw them. Vulnerability is something we often shy away from, but I’ve learned through facing my past traumas that acknowledging our pain is the only way forward. My experience with sexual assault left me struggling with feelings of powerlessness and shame, often feeling as if it were somehow my fault. Healing from that trauma would have been impossible without the people who stood by me, reminding me that the blame wasn’t mine. It’s strange how trauma works. It can shape your insecurities in ways you don’t fully understand until you confront them. After my assault, I became deeply insecure, questioning my worth and struggling to feel safe. However, as I built relationships with others who were willing to be vulnerable with me, I found the strength to address my trauma head-on. Living in a country where politics sometimes feels like a game, I worry that these essential issues will be brushed aside. We need leaders who will confront problems honestly rather than using them to divide or dismiss. I’ve worked hard to reclaim my confidence and be open about my experiences, and it took vulnerability, support, and a lot of inner work to get here. This country needs that same willingness to face hard truths without fear of what might come next.

Finding Strength and Reclaiming Power

One of the greatest strengths I gained after my assault was resilience, and Kamala’s campaign reminded me so much of that same inner power. Her example empowered me to keep fighting, reinforcing that our fight for rights doesn’t end after an election, it’s an ongoing journey. Setbacks can either break us or make us stronger. Those who face challenges head-on truly rise, while those who avoid them stay stuck. After my experience, I struggled for a long time, unsure how to move forward. But at some point, it clicked for me: the only way my life would change was if I took control and did something about it. Through this, I learned that “no” is never the end of the road. There’s always a way forward when you put your heart into it and surround yourself with people who believe in you. By acknowledging my weaknesses, I’ve learned to transform them into strengths. What I respected most about Kamala was her refusal to pity herself, instead, she held herself accountable, pushing forward regardless of the odds. She symbolizes the strength we all need to keep fighting adversity and working toward a world where every woman is empowered. Never forget that resilience is our strongest weapon when confronting challenges.

The Role of Community and Collective Action

Supportive individuals are crucial in the battle for women’s rights, as they help create a world where everyone feels secure and valued. Strong relationships, including with men who stand with women as advocates, can make a real difference by listening, speaking out against discrimination, and fostering a culture of respect. Communities built on empathy and support can drive lasting change, and having people in my corner who believed in my worth was invaluable in my journey to reclaim my power. I hope this post inspires you to consider how you can support women’s rights in your own way. Small actions, like voting, advocating for equality, or educating yourself and others, are powerful steps forward. None of us need to face these challenges alone. We’re stronger together. Even as a Canadian, I deeply connect with women in the U.S. and worldwide. Their struggles and successes impact us all. Women’s rights transcend borders, and it’s on all of us to protect progress and push for a future where everyone enjoys freedom and safety.

Conclusion

In moments like these, when the future feels uncertain, I find strength in our unity as women and supportive communities across borders. Each of us, whether Canadian, American, or elsewhere, has a role in standing up for and uplifting one another. Sharing my story and engaging in this conversation is my way of reclaiming power. I hope it serves as a reminder that no setback can diminish our progress if we work together. Looking ahead, I’m more determined than ever to continue advocating for women’s rights, holding onto the belief that resilience is our greatest strength. Let’s keep moving forward, knowing that every voice, every action, and every supportive connection strengthens our path toward equality. Together, we can overcome the challenges and create a world where every woman feels safe, empowered, and valued.

From Misunderstood to Empowered: Navigating New Places and Changing Perspectives

Introduction

Hi friends, It's been almost two months since I moved back to Florida, following my career dreams as a Walt Disney World Cast Member. I highlighted how my first Disney International Program shaped me in previous posts. Now, I want to dive deeper into how moving multiple times and adapting quickly to new environments has influenced my future. My first significant move was from the town I grew up in to Toronto, the country's most diverse and populated city. Growing up, Toronto was always exciting for me. I would take weekend trips by myself to meet up with city friends, and my hometown friends would joke about me living a "double life." I didn’t see it that way. I was expanding my horizons beyond my hometown. That taste of city life as a teenager made me want to move there for school, especially knowing that my grandparents also went there. I was torn between Toronto and Vancouver when choosing a school, but I finally chose Toronto because of its energy and connection to my family. However, my first year in Toronto didn’t go as planned. I felt like I had failed my dream of living in the big city. But I realized it’s all about what you make of any experience. I hadn’t set myself up for happiness that first year, but luckily, the opportunity to work at Disney that summer came along, and since then, each step has revealed something new about myself. 

First Impressions and Preconceptions

Growing up, I often clashed in friend groups, and it wasn’t until my twenties that I realized the issue wasn’t me; I hadn’t found people who embraced my strong personality. My mom, an elementary school principal, often talked about how girls are made fun of for simply getting along with everyone. I related to that. I enjoyed hanging out with the boys, not to flirt, but for drama-free friendships, yet I was often labelled as a “flirt.” Throughout middle and high school, I distanced myself from cliques, avoiding daily gossip and drama. In high school, I kept to a small circle of close friends, but when I began socializing more, the people I surrounded myself with made me feel judged. They saw me as loud and obnoxious, which fed my insecurities. Now, though, I’m proud to be dancing in the middle of the floor with my friends! The people who once controlled how I felt are now complimenting me for being open on social media. It’s funny how time changes perspectives. Looking back, I wonder how high school might have been different if we’d all had the life experiences we have now. Moving to Toronto for university felt like high school all over again. I surrounded myself with people who cared about status and materialism, which wasn’t me. Their judgmental nature weighed me down; even my mom noticed a change. But her support and understanding were crucial in my journey. I needed to go through these experiences to find the friends I have now: the ones who lift me, embrace adventure, and encourage me to be unapologetically myself.

Adapting to Different Social Dynamics

As I navigated the social dynamics of a big city like Toronto, I realized the value of authentic connections. Walking into my first lecture, Psychology 100, surrounded by 1,000 students, I felt overwhelmed at the thought of these being just a few classmates. The people I hung out with suggested joining a sorority was the only way to make friends, but that idea felt entirely out of my comfort zone. As a Canadian teenager, my weekends were spent at bush parties, local bars, hockey games, and anything but formal gatherings. I felt entirely out of place when I entered my first sorority rush. Known for my bubbly personality, the lack of authenticity took me aback. Panic set in as I questioned whether this was the only way to find my people. I had always dreamed of leaving my small-town life to explore the city and meet people like me, but I sensed there had to be a better way. Despite my reservations, I kept an open mind and rushed to a sorority. I had faced similar feelings of being out of place when I attended a private school on a scholarship, feeling different from my friends. Travelling from a young age exposed me to authentic cultures, making the materialistic vibe of Toronto challenging to navigate. My mom could see that something was off. I'd come home for weekends feeling anxious and panicked, especially after being dropped off at the train station. I tried my best to engage with others, but I didn’t understand why I wasn’t enjoying my first year like everyone else seemed to be after getting a bid into a sorority. Honestly, my first year was a blur. I blocked much of it out, holding onto the trauma of those experiences to the point where my mom didn’t want me to return. Yet, I was determined to finish the year, and I did! That’s when I got to go to Disney, where I finally met my people. The community at Disney was different. They embraced me for who I am, and I felt a sense of belonging that I hadn't experienced before. This experience at Disney was a turning point in my journey, and it made me realize that the people I encountered in Toronto weren’t meant to be my people, and that’s okay. We all have paths and needs that must be met, and we deserve to be treated with respect, kindness, and happiness. This understanding drives me to make everyone feel welcome and heard, as I know firsthand how hard it is to find yourself.

Breaking Through Judgments and Finding Connection

It’s been a long journey to get to where I am today, and the most challenging part was spending time alone to figure out who I truly am and what fuels my spirit. This process of self-discovery and self-awareness has been enlightening, allowing me to confidently articulate my needs to others and fully embrace myself without pretenses. Ultimately, it comes down to believing in yourself over the voices of doubt and knowing what is true. Disagreeing with others is perfectly okay; we all hold different beliefs and values. What matters most is surrounding yourself with people who align with your principles. If they don’t, you have to be confident enough to walk away, knowing it’s the best choice for you. Recently, I started working at a new location where people have warned me that if I share something, the whole staff will know. However, I trust myself enough to stand my ground. I know how to interact with others and am always willing to lend a hand because I understand what it feels like to be judged. It’s particularly challenging when people say they would never assume anything is wrong with me based solely on my appearance. Often, those who carry the heaviest emotions are battling the most profound inner struggles. We usually want to do so much for those we love that we forget to care for ourselves. It’s crucial never to judge anyone based on their appearance or any diagnoses they may have. You are not that person, and you have no idea what they’ve gone through to become the strong individual they are today. Anyone who attempts to undermine that strength doesn’t deserve a place in your life. By sharing my history with mental health, I hope to encourage others to share their battles as well. It’s hard to feel judged, but we shouldn’t have to live in that fear. The people who love us will never make us feel that way; they will always want us to feel safe and supported. Remember, you know your body and your struggles better than anyone else. The ones who genuinely love you will be there to help you through.

Lessons Learned Across Three Cities

Reflecting on my journey through three cities: my hometown, Toronto, and now Florida, I see how each move has significantly shaped my self-discovery and relationship perspective. Each environment presented unique challenges and opportunities for growth, allowing me to refine my understanding of what I truly value in friendships. In Toronto, I learned the importance of resilience in the face of judgment, discovering that my strong personality is a gift rather than a flaw. My time there taught me to seek out those who appreciate me for who I am rather than trying to fit into preconceived moulds. Moving to Florida as a Walt Disney World Cast Member has further solidified my adaptability and openness as I embrace the diverse personalities and stories around me. Each encounter has broadened my perspective and deepened my appreciation for the uniqueness of each place and the people within it. If I hadn’t participated in this program, I wouldn’t have a best friend from Norway and France today whom I plan to visit! I've realized that meaningful connections thrive in environments where authenticity is valued, and I’m grateful for the lessons learned along the way. Embracing my individuality while appreciating the differences in others has made my journey all the more enriching, and I look forward to where this path of self-discovery will take me next.

Conclusion

Reflecting on my journey through these diverse cities, I realize how each chapter has made me stronger and more self-aware. The challenges I faced taught me resilience, while the friendships I forged helped me understand the importance of surrounding myself with those who embrace my authenticity. I no longer feel the need to conform; I’ve learned to celebrate my bold personality and the unique perspectives of those around me. Each move has deepened my appreciation for the rich tapestry of experiences and cultures and reinforced my belief in the power of genuine connections. As I embark on this next chapter as a Walt Disney World Cast Member, I am filled with excitement and confidence. I look forward to breaking down barriers and thriving in new environments, knowing that I carry the lessons of my past with me. Embracing my true self and remaining open to the adventures ahead, I am ready to make meaningful connections that reflect my journey of self-discovery. Here’s to the next adventure!

The Power of Attitude: A Personal Journey of Growth

Introduction

Hi friends! I know it’s been a while since my last post, but life has been a whirlwind as I settle into my new role. I’m excited to share that for the next twelve months, I’ll be a full-time cast member with the Walt Disney World Experiences Team, working as a Canadian representative at the Canadian Pavilion in Epcot! This opportunity has been a significant part of my growth journey, where I’ve gained so many leadership insights in just over a month. Returning to the Disney groove, the vibrant and energetic atmosphere that is synonymous with Disney, reminded me of one of my favourite traits: my attitude and effort to radiate positivity to those around me.

Embracing change isn’t just a part of my journey; it's the joyous heart of it. I hope this blog gives you a glimpse into my path of embracing change, vulnerability, and confidence and how my attitude has shaped my direction in life.

Learning to Let Go

In previous posts, I’ve shared how, when I was younger, I felt like I had to shrink myself to fit in. Like many of us, I struggled with finding where I belonged and often muted parts of myself to avoid standing out. This feeling is universal: we all go through stages where we need to change who we are to be accepted by others. 

Over the past few years, I’ve realized that letting go of what holds us back is essential for personal growth. We often cling to relationships, self-doubt, or fear of judgment, all of which can stifle our potential. Moving out independently at 18 was one of my most challenging but rewarding decisions. I had to let go of relationships that no longer served me, people who limited my growth by imposing their goals on me rather than supporting my own. This wasn’t easy, but it was necessary to become the person I wanted to be, and I encourage you to do the same in your own life.

Finding My Spark

That first year living independently was tough, but it forced me to confront parts of myself that I had long ignored. I had to deal with loneliness, fear, and uncertainty, but it was also when I found my spark. A pivotal moment came during my first Disney program, a unique and immersive experience that allowed me to be surrounded by like-minded people who shared my positive attitude and ambition. This program was a significant milestone in my journey, as it was where I realized the power of being in an environment that supports growth. We uplifted one another, encouraged each other's dreams, and shared a collective energy that pushed us forward. This experience was life-changing and helped me embrace my potential.

When I returned to Toronto, I carried the mindset and skills I had gained. I switched schools, changed my major, and moved into my apartment. During this time, I adopted my Chihuahua, Moose, who became my constant companion and best friend. All of these changes were steps toward the life I wanted to live, and my attitude played a crucial role in that transformation.

The Journey to Confidence

Since I started living for myself, my life has changed dramatically. People often compliment my confidence, telling me, "Never change!" But here’s the truth: I did have to adjust to become the person I am today. Growing up, I was quiet and reserved, always holding back out of fear of being “too much.” But the spark of who I am was always there; I just didn’t know where or how to express it safely.

The most significant shift happened when I started to embrace vulnerability. I learned that being called “too much” wasn’t a reflection of me; it was a reflection of those who weren’t ready to accept me as I was. The people who matter don’t find me “too much;” they celebrate my energy and personality. Being unapologetically myself has been my greatest strength. 

But expressing your attitude doesn’t mean you must be loud or dominate a room. As Disney cast members say, we’re all "VIPs,” Very Individual Persons. There are countless ways to express your attitude, whether through quiet confidence, kindness, or simply staying true to your values. Your attitude should be an authentic expression of “you.”

Finding Hope Through Vulnerability

In my first year of university, I experienced a difficult period. I disappeared from social media, spent most of my time in my room, and felt uncertain about the future. It was a lonely and anxious time, and I struggled with mental health challenges that felt overwhelming.

Looking back, I realize the people I surrounded myself with didn’t support who I was or wanted to become. It wasn’t until I met friends who truly accepted me, allowing me to be vulnerable, that I began to open up. That vulnerability became the key to unlocking my potential. Complaining about life and feeling stuck didn’t get me anywhere; changing my mindset did. I learned nothing can change unless you’re willing to change your attitude first.

The Importance of Therapy and Self-Work

A pivotal moment in my journey was my decision to take therapy seriously. I remember telling my therapist that all I wanted was a friend to send TikToks to. That might sound small, but it symbolized the more profound loneliness I was experiencing. Slowly, therapy helped me open up and put in the work to heal. This journey of self-work wasn’t just about healing; it was about empowerment. 

My mom has been a constant source of support. She allowed me to be vulnerable but clarified that I had to take responsibility for my growth. She couldn’t do the work for me, but she stood by me as I began to change my outlook on life. That’s one of the most important lessons I’ve learned: having a support system is essential, and it's comforting to know that it's there, but ultimately, the hard work has to come from within.

Overcoming Challenges

At just 20 years old, I’ve faced my share of challenges: moving out, working in a new country, and dealing with personal trauma. This trauma, which I may share more about in the future, was a significant turning point in my journey. Every experience has shaped me into the person I am today. Every mistake has been a learning opportunity, and every difficult situation has taught me to find the positive. I’ve come to realize that my attitude is what has helped me overcome these challenges.

We all face tough times, but comparing our struggles to others won’t help. Everyone has their journey, and focusing on self-awareness can change how you approach life. My grandma recently told me that some lessons I’ve learned are things her friends still haven’t figured out, even at their age. And that’s okay; we’re all on our paths. But I’ve learned that working on your attitude and mindset can make all the difference.

Conclusion

As I continue this journey, I’ve realized that sometimes we have to let go of things, or people, who aren’t willing to grow with us. It’s not easy, but it’s essential for our progress. I’ve learned that attitude is everything. It gets me through the tough days and allows me to spread positivity to those around me. However, having a good attitude doesn’t mean being loud or overwhelming. It means being authentic to yourself. There are countless ways to express attitude, and we’re all unique in how we do it. 

Thank you for reading, and I hope this blog encourages you to reflect on your attitude. Remember, no matter what life throws at you, your attitude will shape how you move forward. Stay true to yourself, and embrace your journey.

Finding Home Again: My Move Back to Florida

Introduction

Hi friends! I know it’s been a while, so much has happened, and I’ve been all over the place! After hopping off a flight from Spain, I packed up my car and hit the road to Florida. Oh, and did I mention that I got into a car accident that demolished Nemo, my beloved orange Subaru? Despite all of that, I’m finally settled into my new home, and as promised, here’s an update on my move to Florida!

My drive to Florida was filled with so many emotions. Surprisingly, none of them were fear. I was confident about what was to come this year because of the strong connections I’ve built here, both through holidays and from living here in the summer of 2023. Even with the twists and turns that led me back to the Sunshine State, I knew it would all be worth it.

A Fresh Start

My first Disney program changed me, or maybe it just helped me uncover the real me. I was surrounded by people with big dreams, ambition, and drive, pushing me to pursue my own goals. Back home, I’d felt stuck in my Niagara bubble, and although I’ll always cherish my roots and the people there, I needed the change. I needed to find “my people”, and the only way to do that was to take that leap into something new.

My mom has always been my rock, especially through the darkest times. It was her encouragement that led me to apply for my first program, even when I didn’t want to think about the future. Now, it’s all I think about, my dreams and what I can accomplish. She’s always been there to brighten my world, and I carry that strength with me as I chase my next chapter.

The Big Move

This time, I was ready. The car was packed, Moose (my emotional support animal) by my side, and it felt like no time had passed since my first road trip to Florida. Keeping the tradition alive, my grandma Hana came along for the ride, paper map in hand. We had a few detours, Daytona and Cocoa Beach were a bit of a blur, but we made it! The 18-hour drive flew by, filled with laughter, family stories, and my grandma’s endless knowledge of American politics (as a Canadian citizen, no less!).

We took a quick pit stop at Cocoa Beach before heading to Disney. I needed that breather, a moment of rest and reflection before jumping back into the magic. Florida holds a special place in my heart, especially because it’s where I made some of my favorite memories with my grandfather. Though his dream of taking me to Disney never came true, my Noni, his ex-wife, made it happen during her battle with stage-four cancer. She was the definition of perseverance, and that’s a trait I’m proud to carry forward.

Moose, My Comfort and Constant

I couldn’t have done any of this without Moose, my ESA (emotional support animal). He’s more than just a pet—he’s my home, my familiar friend, and the best snuggle bug I could ask for. Through all the ups and downs, having him by my side makes everything easier. His presence gives me the comfort I need, and I know I’m never truly alone with him around. I also feel like Dug, my late dog, is watching over us, making sure we’re both okay. Moose makes this new chapter less intimidating because with him, I always feel like I’m home.

Reflecting on Nemo

Nemo, my orange Subaru, was with me during my first journey to Florida. Losing him in the accident felt like the end of an era. But in some ways, it also felt like a full-circle moment. Nemo was part of my story when I first began this adventure, and now I’m starting fresh in a new chapter without him. It’s bittersweet, but it reminds me how far I’ve come. We now have a new car family member, Betty White, the white Subaru.

Settling Into My New Home

Arriving at Flamingo Crossings felt like coming home. I reunited with familiar faces and met so many new ones, some of whom I already know will become lifelong friends. There’s something special about being surrounded by fellow cast members who have worked hard to get here. It feels like a community of dreamers and doers, and that energy is contagious.

When I moved back to the city last year, it was tough because there weren’t many people around who shared that same Disney cast member mindset. But this year, I worked hard on building my brand, especially on LinkedIn, and preparing for my return to Florida. Funny enough, I hadn’t originally planned to come back for a full year. I was aiming for a shorter program with some friends, but after being told I was no longer in consideration, I didn’t give up. Eventually, I got an unexpected offer for the Cultural Representative Program, and I couldn’t have clicked “accept” fast enough!

One of the things I’m most excited about is working the beer cart! It’s a completely different experience, and I’m slowly improving my skills. I never thought I’d be doing something like this, but it’s been a lot of fun learning the ropes and getting better each day. The guests love to make comments on my minimal skills and I’ve also been questioned if I truly am Canadian, apparently I don’t sound like one!

I’ve always loved the company and its values, and even though I don’t know exactly what I want to do yet, I know Disney is part of my end goal. There’s something magical about working here, and it’s helped me see a future I’m excited about. It’s incredible to be part of a company that aligns with my values and inspires me to think big.

Conclusion: The Adventure Continues

So here we are, settled into my new-but-familiar home, adjusting to American living (seriously, why does no one use their indicators here?). My first three months here were the best of my life, and I can’t wait to see where this next year at the most magical place on earth will take me.

If there’s one thing I’ve learned, it’s to stay open to all the opportunities that come your way. You never know where they’ll lead you.

This journey has been full of unexpected twists, but every moment has been a part of the path that led me to where I am now. I’ve learned that no matter the challenges, I can always find my way back to what feels like home. With Moose by my side, my supportive family cheering me on, and the incredible opportunities that await me at Disney, I feel more ready than ever to embrace whatever this year holds.

I’m excited for the growth, the friendships, and the memories that are yet to come. I don’t know exactly where this journey will take me, but I do know that I’m in the right place, where dreams truly do come true. Here’s to making the most of every opportunity, staying open to the magic, and continuing to follow my passion.

Until next time, stay tuned for more adventures from my time at the most magical place on Earth! Can’t wait to dive deeper into my Disney journey in my next post! Stay tuned!

City Nights and Solo Flights: Embracing Single Life and Preparing for What's Next

Introduction

Hi friends! I can't believe we're already nearing the end of summer. It feels like just yesterday I was writing about my plans to embrace single life in the city, and now, here we are, two months later, with a few weeks left to savour. Reflecting on it, it’s been a pretty successful summer. Much of my time was spent working at the mall or glued to my computer, tackling summer courses. I'm happy to say I completed my last final this week and am ready for a small (year-long) break before returning to full-time studies. As many of you might remember from my previous blogs, last summer was about finding myself. This summer was about owning my confidence, being unapologetically myself, and attracting those who share my vibe. I've loved spending time with friends I met in the city this year, reconnecting with friends who visited me from home, and making new connections on nights out.

Embracing Singleness in the City

Last summer, I was immersed in the magic of Walt Disney World, juggling late shifts at Magic Kingdom and making unforgettable memories with new friends. While it was an incredible experience, I had little time to live on my terms. This summer was different; it was my first real taste of independence, living alone, and figuring out who I am for myself. The freedom has been exhilarating, with no one keeping tabs on me. That’s the beauty of being single, having the space to be yourself, with no one questioning your choices or wondering what you’re up to. It's a joyous journey of self-discovery and empowerment, and I want to share this joy with you all.

One of the best parts of this summer has been my new sidekick, Moose! My dog has made living in Toronto on my own so much more secure and fun. He's always there, even if he isn’t thrilled when I roll in during the early morning hours after a night out. I joke with my friends that Moose will meet a few ‘dads’ until we find the right one. I'm not sure if you saw our famous TikTok, but Moose and I went viral this summer! We’re almost at 1.3 million likes because Moose insisted on visiting an ex’s apartment, only to discover that “old dad” wasn’t ready for a relationship. If only dogs could understand that not all men are what they seem! The funniest part? The guy blocked me after the video went viral. But on the bright side, it’s introduced me to some lovely guys who appreciate a girl and her dog’s time.

I’ve also been making the most of my time in the city, soaking up everything Toronto offers, from happy hours on patios to hitting the bars at night, catching Jays games, and meeting people in the craziest scenarios, like running into someone from my hometown that I’ve never met before. I'm always open to trying new things, whether spontaneous nights out or meeting new people. I’ve built a solid friend group I love going out with; they're single, too, so we have a blast together. They're a bit older, so they've taught me the dos and don’ts of city life and how to know our worth. We’ve had nights dancing on tables, running down the city streets at 4 a.m., and living life to the fullest. 

This summer has been about embracing the freedom and empowerment of being single. I’ve used this time to focus on myself, rediscover my passions, and explore the city on my terms. Whether spontaneous adventures, late-night conversations, or new friendships, every experience has helped me grow and find joy in this chapter of my life.

Strengthening Connections and Expanding Horizons

Being single can sometimes feel lonely, but the strong foundation I've built with my friends reassures me that I won’t be alone forever. Embracing my independence and becoming more confident has drawn like-minded people into my life. I’ve realized that taking care of myself in all aspects empowers me to be selective about the relationships I choose, and only those that align with my future goals are worth my time and energy.

When a guy tells me he isn’t ready for a relationship or is seeing other people, I’m at peace with it. I know who I am, and I’m confident that people will value me for all I am without the need for competition or ego boosts. This summer, I’ve embraced spontaneity, gone out with no expectations, and danced freely, which led me to meet some incredible people. These encounters often sparked deep conversations about life goals and personal growth, which I value deeply. These conversations have inspired and motivated me, reminding me of the importance of meaningful connections in our lives, and I hope they inspire you too.

Being single has also given me the freedom to spend more quality time with my friends. I’ve had more “dates” with friends this summer than anyone else, and I wouldn’t trade that for the world. I love our girls’ nights (with a few close guy friends included) and treasure our deepened bonds. It’s comforting to know that I have a circle of people to lean on and share life with, no matter what.

Reflecting on these experiences, I see how they’ve shaped who I am today. It hasn’t been easy to open up to men, especially given my past experiences with sexual assault and emotional abuse. But I’m proud of my progress in allowing myself to be open to new relationships, something I couldn’t have imagined last year. Back then, I clung to relationships because they felt “safe,” but leaving them was the best decision for me. Taking risks, stepping out of my comfort zone, and meeting like-minded individuals have shown me that I have time to enjoy being young and, as my older friends remind me, to have fun. There’s lots of time for boy drama.

As I prepare for new solo adventures, I’m excited about the future and the connections yet to be made. The anticipation of what's to come is a thrilling part of the journey, and I can't wait to see where it leads. Stepping into this new chapter, I’m ready to embrace the unknown and welcome the opportunities ahead.

Preparing for Solo Adventures

Sitting on my bed on my last night in the big city, I’m filled with anticipation for what’s yet to come. There’s a sense of security within me now, a readiness for the challenges ahead. I’ve embraced the mindset of “let them,” understanding that you have to be your first priority at the end of the day. If you don’t love yourself fully, you can’t offer genuine love to others; instead, it reflects your insecurities and ego. It’s taken me time to reach this point, but the air is clearer now. I finally feel like I’ve found myself and am ready to take on whatever comes my way.

I’m setting off on my first solo trip to Europe this week, with Spain as my destination! Travelling has always been a passion of mine. I never grew up obsessed over a sport or playing an instrument; instead, I’ve always had an insatiable desire to see the world and try new things; try everything. This solo trip is a dream come true, and I know it’s just the beginning of many more adventures on my own. My last trip was to Cuba, where I met so many wonderful friends. I earned the nickname "the hub" because of how I brought everyone together, and it was so fulfilling to be that connection point. Just today, someone called me a "breath of fresh air," and when people give me those compliments, it means so much. I can’t wait to spread my love in other parts of the world and experience different cultures.

Travelling alone feels like a natural extension of the journey I’ve been on, embracing singleness and independence, learning to trust myself, and finding joy in my own company. Reflecting on my experiences in Toronto, from the spontaneous nights out to quiet moments of introspection, I realize how much this city has prepared me for this next significant chapter. I’ve honed my skills and built a strong sense of self, and now I’m ready to explore the world with an open heart.

After that, I’ll be gearing up for my big move to Florida once I return! Unlike last year, I have no fears about moving this time. Florida feels like home now. So many people I love, and cherished memories are tied to that place, and I can’t wait to create even more. With Moose by my side, I’m excited to spread the love and embrace this new chapter with familiar faces and new adventures. The journey from Toronto to Florida, with a detour through Spain, is one I’m eager to embark on. It’s a continuation of the themes that have defined my year: growth, discovery, and pursuing what makes me feel most alive.

Conclusion

Reflecting on this summer, I’m grateful for the journey I’ve been on: embracing singleness, deepening connections, and discovering more about myself. It’s been a season of growth filled with laughter, new memories, and a renewed sense of independence. As I embark on my solo trip to Spain and eventually move to Florida, I carry the lessons I learned and the confidence I gained from my time in the city. I’m excited about what’s ahead and open to the possibilities that await. Here’s to new adventures, cherished moments, and the thrill of what’s yet to come. Thank you for tagging along with me!

Memories in the Making: Preparing to Move to Florida

Introduction 

Hi friends! As most of you know, I’m just a month away from my big move down south for the year. I’ve gratefully accepted my second internship with the Walt Disney Company, and this time, I’m honoured to take on the new title of Canadian representative. This position is not easy to earn, especially since I’m still completing my studies and will be the youngest in the group. But in my family, we don’t miss out when opportunity knocks. I'm filled with anticipation and excitement for this new chapter in my life, and I can't wait to share it with all of you.

This summer, I’ve been feeling a whirlwind of emotions, and I tend to pick up on the energy around me. My Grandpa (Sneaky Snake) and my Nonni were two extraordinary people I lost suddenly within a year when I was just five. It was a tough age to experience loss, as it’s the time when memories start to stick. But while I remember the family arguments, the hospital visits, and attending two funerals as the only grandchild, the happy memories shine through the dark. Those memories are deeply rooted in Florida, which is why the place holds such a strong emotional pull on me. And hey, it seems like Florida can’t get enough of me. A three-month visa wasn’t enough, haha!

Florida: A Place of Memories

It all started when I was a baby; my grandpa owned a condo on Fort Myers Beach, where most of my fondest memories were made with him. One of my earliest memories is of us winning the sand sculpture competition with our creation, “Emvicous,” a sea monster that wasn’t necessarily the best. Still, we won anyway because my family signed up for the kids' competition. Even though I was just a baby, I was the only kid present! I’m so grateful my mom, like most parents from my generation, had a VCR and recorded those moments. It’s such a gift to have those tapes, to laugh and still feel his presence.

It’s incredible how much nostalgia can bring back. I can still remember the salt air, the feeling of sandy feet walking from the beach back to our condo, and the time my Nonni spent hours searching the ocean for my favourite Minnie Mouse ring. I never got that ring back, but my mom asked a friend to bring another one back from Disney, and I made sure to wear it to both of my interviews with Disney. My last trip with both of my grandparents is my most cherished memory. When I first met my therapist, she asked me what the best day of my life was, and the first thing that came to mind was my time spent with my grandparents in Florida. When I asked her what those questions helped with, she said that my answer revealed that family is my priority, and that is true. My family has built a strong foundation for me to grow on, and I’m forever grateful for that. Even though my grandparents are no longer here, 15 years later, they still drive me to reach my goals, and I am deeply grateful for their influence on my life and career.

Now, my mom is in Florida, visiting all our favourite spots. Unfortunately, the hurricane last year took down many of them, but they are slowly reopening. My favourites were The Mucky Duck, The Bubble Room, and The Lazy Flamingo. I also loved a good round of animal-themed mini golf, and there was nothing better than driving with the top down, except when I lost my pink bucket hat and made my mom pull over on the side of the highway to retrieve it! As I get ready to move down to Florida, I can’t help but feel like I’m coming full circle.

The Presence of Loved Ones

At age 5, saying goodbye to two of the most influential people in my life was hard. That year, I took a memorable trip with both of them—one that I will cherish forever and hope to tell my kids about one day. My grandparents were divorced; this was my grandpa’s second marriage, so Nonni was my step-grandma, but she felt like blood. My mom and Nonni had a very close relationship, as Nonni was there for most of my mom’s upbringing. Nonni was Italian, so it was nice to have some Italian blood on this side of the family. During our last trip together, they were dealing with a messy divorce. I will never forget the crossover at the airport, waving goodbye to my grandpa and then walking over to the arrival gate to pick up Nonni. Even though my family had so much bitterness, the love overpowered it.

Both of my grandparents were tough cookies: my grandpa was a judge, and Nonni was a lawyer. They were both young and fit, which made it even harder to believe they were gone. It’s crazy to think that Nonni was my mom’s age when she lost her battle with cancer. My grandpa’s cancer was very sudden; he was diagnosed shortly after that trip we had. Florida was the last time I saw them both, as I remember them, my Sneaky Snake and my Nonni. My grandpa was a jokester who loved to scare me, and Nonni loved taking me shopping and on breakfast dates. One of my favourite memories is when Nonni asked for a cappuccino at the princess breakfast in the castle, and the waiter returned and said, “This is just your average castle, ma'am.”

Signs and Symbolism

Splash Mountain is a ride that holds special memories for me, and I’m excited to go on the newly renovated version, now themed after “The Princess and the Frog.” When I returned to Disney at 12, seven years after my trip with Nonni, I could remember that trip as if no time had passed, and I understood why Walt Disney created this place. I will forever cherish the picture from that ride. I was scared, but I put my arms up, and Nonni’s wig flew off, so she had to rock a Minnie ball cap for the rest of the trip. Every time my mom and I return, we laugh about these memories. 

I haven’t returned to Fort Myers since, and I think that will be hard. I had a close connection to my grandpa, and I don’t know how to explain it because I only knew him for five short years. My mom shares her memories with him, and I feel like I’m in the room. I even followed in his footsteps by going to of, though weirdly, I think he was trying to tell me to “get out of there.” He lived in the same residence building as me, which is where most of my trauma occurred. My sign from him is a snake. I don’t know how it started, but his name to me has always been Sneaky Snake, and whenever I see a snake, I know it’s him.

I’ll never forget my mom telling me that she talked to Sneaky Snake about feeling bad that he wouldn’t see me the first time at Disney because he took my mom all those times when they went to Florida together. She remembers him saying, “I have all the time in the world; Diane (Nonni) doesn’t.” Unfortunately, he passed away six months before her, so he never got to take me, but I always felt his presence around me. His favourite ride was the Carousel of Progress, so I always visit it. As I prepare for this move, I can’t help but feel that they are guiding me every step of the way.

Looking Forward to New Beginnings

Packing up and moving always brings a mix of emotions. There’s the excitement of starting something new and the weight of leaving behind familiar places and faces. As I prepare to move to Florida, it feels like a reunion with my past, filled with cherished memories of my grandparents and the special moments we shared. At the same time, it’s a step into my future, where I create new memories and experiences in a place that has always felt like home.

This transition is bittersweet. I’m thrilled to be returning to a place that holds so much meaning for me, but I’m also nostalgic for the times that have passed. Yet, I find comfort in knowing that the memories of my grandpa and Nonni will be with me, guiding me as I embark on this new adventure. They’ve always been my driving force, and their presence will continue to inspire me as I take on this next chapter.

I’m filled with hope and excitement as I look forward to this move. I’m eager to continue my family's traditions, and I’m honoured to be part of the magic as a Cast Member at Disney. Being able to make magical memories for guests is something I cherish deeply because, without us, the magic simply can’t happen. I’m ready to embrace both the past and the future, carrying the love and lessons of my grandparents with me as I start this new adventure in Florida.

Reflections on Toronto with Moose: From City Streets To Summer Solitude

Introduction

Hi friends! As I started to wrap up my summer here in the city, it was the perfect time to reflect on a truly transformative season. This summer, I explored nature, embraced solitude, and found inspiration in the simplest moments. It’s been a journey of practicing mindfulness and setting future intentions, all while having my loyal Chihuahua, Moose, by my side.

In previous blogs, I've shared the ups and downs of my life post-secondary, but these past few months have been a whole new relief. Without the weight of events threatening my mental well-being, I've been able to enjoy time with my loved ones and reflect on what I've learned since moving out of my family home. This summer, work and summer school have kept me busy as I complete a semester before moving for the year. Work has been a great way to get me dressed up and out of the house daily.

I've cherished my first summer living in the city in my free time. From countless walks around the town with Moose to religiously attending Jay's games, enjoying occasional beach days, and indulging in many happy hours, this summer has been about finding balance and joy in everyday life. These experiences have profoundly impacted my mental health, creativity, and personal growth, and I'm excited to share more about them with you.

Exploring Toronto’s Nature Spots

Although you may think there's little greenery in the city, spending more time here and having the freedom to explore different locations has been worth it. With Moose, I'm pushed to leave my house 1-3 times daily. Our go-to spot is the Berczy Park Dog Fountain, a quiet greenery escape surrounded by towering buildings. We've also enjoyed our visits to the lakeshore, watching the ferries take off to the island, and planes soar to unknown destinations.

Another hidden nature getaway is Toronto Island. I visited it for the first time since I was a baby, and I accused my mom of never taking me, but she swears we went when I was little! Escaping the city's hustle and bustle was refreshing, knowing it was just a 10-minute boat ride away. Tanning on the beach with friends while seeing the city skyline was a great way to spend a day off; I could even see Niagara in the distance in the other direction!

Toronto has several parks and natural spots that have become my favourites. With its charming dog fountain, Berczy Park is a retreat for us. Moose and I have had many memorable adventures there, and it's become our little urban oasis away from home. Our lakeshore visits have been equally delightful, offering stunning views and a peaceful atmosphere.

These moments of escaping city life and enjoying a change of scenery have been more than just enjoyable. They've been a lifeline for my mental health, providing clarity and inspiration. The natural environment has been a catalyst for my creativity and productivity, making this summer a transformative experience in more ways than one. I hope my experiences inspire you to prioritize your well-being and seek out similar nature escapes.

The Art of Solitude

Few of my friends live alone. Initially, living alone was nerve-racking, but with Moose by my side, I quickly adapted and even began to enjoy it. Returning to living with roommates will be challenging, especially since I don’t know who they will be. However, I am grateful to bring Moose as my emotional support, much like Dug was for me last year.

Last year, our apartment had four girls and three dogs, and it couldn’t have been crazier! Each living experience offers valuable lessons, and my older roommates last year better prepared me to live alone. Before that, I only lived alone in a university dorm room, always escaping to sleep in my bed.

When people ask if I mind living alone, I can honestly say I don’t. Moose motivates me to leave the house, and I’ve built strong connections with coworkers who have become friends. I’m grateful for my talkative personality, which makes it easy for me to make friends wherever I go.

Having a strong foundation around me has allowed me to feel safe and comfortable. I cherish this alone time because I don’t get to enjoy it often. Whenever I feel down about not seeing anyone, I remind myself to cherish the moment because who knows when I might meet my future husband!

Spending alone time in the city has pushed me out of my comfort zone. I’ve had to do things I used to ask my mom to do for me, like calling the doctor and dentist. Watching her raise me independently set an expectation for me to do everything myself. This summer, I've learned the difference between loneliness and solitude. I don’t feel alone anymore; I felt more alone when surrounded by people who didn’t care for my goals.

Building my solitude has been a journey of self-discovery and empowerment. It’s about finding people who share my goals and values and setting boundaries with those who don’t. Being authentic has attracted like-minded individuals, or even exact opposites, from whom we've learned and grown. Navigating personal, family, friend, and work issues has been challenging, but it's all part of life's journey to reach our true selves.

Spending time alone in the city has been a profound experience. I’ve explored new places, met new people, and discovered parts of myself I didn’t know existed. Reflecting on the difference between loneliness and solitude has been eye-opening. Loneliness is a feeling of emptiness, while solitude is a state of being content with oneself.

Solo adventures have led to significant self-discovery and growth. I’ve learned to appreciate my own company and enjoy the little things. These experiences have shaped my perspective, teaching me resilience, independence, and the value of true companionship. Through solitude, I’ve learned that personal growth often comes from within and that being alone doesn’t mean being lonely.

Moments of Mindfulness

In Toronto, you can never get bored. Each block is completely different from the other. At the same time, Moose and I could walk the same route daily and still find something new each time. When people ask why I enjoy the busy city life, I say it grounds me. Walking through the city, I can reflect and look around, seeing other pedestrians, cars passing by, and animals following behind their owners. Each person has a different story that has brought them to this point. Even though most of my friends and family don’t live near me, I never really feel alone when I’m out and about in the city. Each time I step out, I always have some sort of interaction!

My favourite interactions are the ones with Moose. Seeing people glance up from their phones for two seconds or tap their partner on the shoulder to look at the fluffy little Chihuahua always brings joy to my face, especially when cars roll down their windows and yell out how cute Moose is. There are special moments where I can tell someone needed some time with a cuddly little guy. Hearing their life stories or about their past pets always means so much. People have even shed a tear while cuddling him and sharing their stories. I’ve even gotten closer with some of my coworkers by bringing Moose to the store. 

Life is so hard nowadays and constantly changing, but I’ve learned from being a dog parent that they slow us down and keep us grounded. They have nowhere else to be than in that moment with their person, unconditionally trusting them. I feel pretty sad as I write this blog because Moose isn’t snuggled up next to me. He’s at home visiting with my mom. I’ve had to use my other mindfulness tactics. As I said, my walks in the city are always unique, and I always come back with a story or sometimes a shopping bag or Starbucks cup.

Journaling and sitting in my thoughts have been something I’ve had to become better at. It’s hard to reflect on our flaws, but once we reach that point, we can assess what needs to change and accept that some things don’t need to change, and some do. We need to put ourselves first and choose our values. Everyday moments and interactions in Toronto inspire my creative work. Mundane moments often spark new ideas, and I’ve learned to find inspiration in the ordinary.

Mindfulness has been a significant part of my summer activities. Being present has made a considerable difference, allowing me to connect with my surroundings and appreciate the beauty of life's simple joys. These experiences have fueled my passion and drive in the creative industries, reminding me of the importance of finding inspiration in everyday life.

Setting Intentions for the Future

As I’ve finally settled into my routine in the city, I am uprooting again! But to be honest, I like always being on the go. Most of my family is like that, always trying out new things. My dad went from being a teacher to getting into medical school, earning his master’s degree, and now, his career in law enforcement. My mom began her career as a principal at a very young age, even before she had me, which was a difficult spot to get at that time. She then earned her master’s and tried to pick up a second over COVID. But even a superwoman can’t do it all! Despite this, her dream career was to be a flight attendant, and still is to this day. So, my career possibilities were endless while I was growing up.

My reflection journey has shown me that whatever I want to do in this life is up to me and no one else. My mindset has changed to where I am only working to meet my expectations, and so should you. Once we start focusing on our own lives, that’s when self-reflection and change happen. Looking into other people's lives truly mirrors those qualities within yourself.

I am so proud of the growth I’ve encountered living as a single female in the city, managing for myself and my dog. It didn’t happen overnight to build this security within myself, and I’m sure there will be more bumps along the way. But knowing I am capable of taking care of myself and understanding my worth, I attract and keep like-minded individuals around me. This summer has been a joy because I’ve let go of people who aren’t interested in mutual growth and have invested time in myself and those who are genuinely happy for my success as I am for theirs.

I fear what this new chapter brings with my move back to Florida. This time, I am returning with my head held high, coming in as my most authentic self, no holding back. I am excited to be surrounded by like-minded cast members seeing their drive. That inspired me last year and makes me want to continue working with the company. The opportunities and dreams are endless. The connections I have made are ones I will cherish, and I look forward to more I will make and more insights I will gain over the next 12 months.

Reflecting on my goals and intentions for the upcoming months, I plan to focus on personal and professional growth. My summer experiences have shaped these intentions by teaching me the value of self-reflection and authenticity. I look forward to achieving new milestones and am confident that my summer journey has prepared me well for these future goals.

Conclusion

This summer has been a profound journey of joy, solitude, and inspiration with Moose. Reflecting on my experiences, I’ve realized the importance of finding balance and happiness in everyday life, exploring nature, embracing solitude, and practicing mindfulness. These simple yet powerful moments have significantly improved my mental health, creativity, and personal growth.

Nature spots in Toronto, like Berczy Park and Toronto Island, have provided peaceful escapes from the city’s hustle and bustle, offering clarity and inspiration. The art of solitude has pushed me out of my comfort zone, teaching me resilience, independence, and the value of true companionship. Mindfulness has been a crucial part of my summer activities, allowing me to connect with my surroundings and appreciate the beauty of the mundane.

As I set intentions for the future, I am proud of the growth I’ve encountered and the lessons learned. I look forward to achieving new milestones and embracing new opportunities with an open heart. My summer journey has prepared me well for the next chapter, and I am excited about what lies ahead. With Moose by my side, I am grateful for the experiences and the insights gained, and I am ready to embark on new adventures and continue growing personally and professionally.

My Year in Toronto: Skills for the Creative Workplace

Introduction

Hi friends! I hope you are all enjoying your summer so far! As most of you know, I am returning to Florida to participate in another Disney internship for the year. Recently, while filling out paperwork to start my job as a cast member again, I had to decide what city to put on my nametag. Since I don’t live at home anymore and we’ve moved to a new town, I mainly spend my time in Toronto. I texted my mom, asking what city I should use, and she said, “You’re a city girl right now.” So, city girl it is!

I wanted to reflect on my life in Toronto and start up with my furry friend, Moose. I've lived in Toronto for two years, but I've had a soft spot for the city since I was younger when my mom and I would play hookey to go shopping and see a musical or on school trips to the ROM my friends, and I still talk about today. I have always loved the vibrancy of the city: every block, person, style, and building is unique. It's an excellent place for someone who is neurodivergent and needs different things to focus on. I get distracted, often wandering off and exploring new markets, parks, cafes, and more.

My first year in the city was challenging, which I've reflected on in previous blogs, and now it feels like I’m living in a whole new city. This year, I took the necessary steps forward and made some tough decisions to find my niche, and I did. It took some time, but everything changed once I reached that point. I've met many great friends in my classes who share the same drive, and we're always learning and growing from each other. My friends like to say I'm a LinkedIn connoisseur. Everything clicked once I found my people, Moose, my safe space (my apartment), and my retail job, where I gained excellent customer service skills and made terrific friends. Reflecting on how living in Toronto has shaped my skills for the creative workplace, I realize how much my experiences at Disney and my academic transition have inspired me.

My Transition from Life Sciences to Creative Industries

My whole life, I always thought I would end up in math and sciences. I have no idea why because my entire family consists of educators and in-laws, so I’m not sure where the dream came from! I enjoyed math and sciences more when I liked sticking to a rigid lesson plan and not stepping outside the box. I liked that I had to listen and learn from someone else and then apply the work. Plus, there was never any public speaking in math class!

On the other hand, I also loved the arts growing up, but it wasn’t emphasized much in school. In high school, I had some work featured in art shows and got to expand on my creativity, but still in a very rigid way where I couldn’t do my own thing. I also loved the idea of helping others. It would have involved travelling if I had worked in the medical field. Travelling at a young age and volunteering in developing countries inspired me. So, when it came time to decide what I wanted to do in university, I chose the sciences, but I never felt confident with that answer. Reflecting, I know I could entirely stick through, but it wasn’t for me, and I wasn’t happy. Despite my determination, I stuck it out for the first year, and that was enough.

When I started university, it felt like everyone around me was having the time of their life, what college was supposed to be about. If you've struggled with mental illness, you know it’s hard to be around people who don’t understand it. I always put myself down when I heard stories of others and their successes and felt like I had nothing to bring to the table. But I also know real friends would never want to make me feel as insecure as I did last year. My turning point was my summer at Disney. If you remember, I was very fearful of starting my program and only applied because my mom told me about it and encouraged me to do so. I wouldn’t have made it without my best pal, Dug, my late rescue dog, who accompanied me on the journey. The feeling was surreal when I got to Florida; it was like a switch flipped in me, and I was home. I applied for my second program only a month into my first one! The people I met were like-minded and had even more drive than me. I surrounded myself with older individuals with more life experience than me. I met the big sisters I never had growing up and gained the self-love I needed. I was always giving love to others but was so burnt out because I was never receiving it back. Once I knew these friendships existed and there were people like me, returning to Toronto was easy for me to meet and know when it was time to let go. My determination to pursue my dreams was unwavering, and I hope my journey inspires you to do the same.

Reflecting on My Academic Experiences in Toronto

Comparing the courses I've taken this year to those from last year, I’ve been enlightened in many ways and have made inquiries about our society. I've taken various creative courses like graphic design, fashion, music, business, and marketing to help me further grow my skills in the creative industry. It amazes me to discover all the career options I never knew about in high school and that there is no limit to what you can do. I've learned much about cultural diversity in the industry, and working with the Walt Disney Company has shaped my perspective. Disney is a great place to work in terms of diversity. They run the best international programs within the states, such as Disney on the Yard for HBCU students and international programs where people from their respective countries come to represent themselves at the park, like me!

When I was at Disney, my coworkers asked so many questions about diversity within Toronto, making me realize how lucky I am to have grown up with such diversity around me. It shocked me to have only lived in the States for three months and to see the cultural differences. I’m excited to bring my open mind and willingness to learn about new cultures to Florida, where I can educate guests about why Canada is so great! All the courses I have taken this year are practical and skills I will need to know for my future. They have shown me the business side of creativity and how all aspects work together. Creativity extends beyond just the fine arts, and so many careers exist. I’ve also enjoyed being on LinkedIn and connecting with like-minded individuals. I’ve learned a lot from posts, followed new leaders, and found inspiration for my blog and future careers.

Taking a Pause and Returning to Disney

As I’m sure you’ve heard from me before, I am a cast member at Disney! Last year, I participated in the Cultural Exchange Program and will start my Cultural Representative Program in the fall. It’s a funny story because I originally applied to only go for the summer, forgetting I had also used for the year-long program, which is significantly more challenging to get into since we are only there for a year. There are only three work locations in Epcot, Canada. The Cultural Representative Program has been a program I’ve known about my whole life, dreaming of doing it but never thinking I’d get it. I assumed it would be more about knowing someone to get in. The second time around, I was dying to hear if I got into my second summer program with my friends when I checked the application portal to see if I was “no longer in consideration” for the Cultural Exchange Program. I was in complete shock. None of my friends in Florida could believe it. “You are the face of Disney,” they would say, haha. They are not wrong. I can keep this smile on my face 24/7. I have always been a Disney girl, and everyone knows it. So, if you know me, I’m not giving up if I want something. I knew Disney was where I wanted to work in the future, and I was getting back with the company somehow, some way.

It took me about three emails, reaching out to a few recruiters on LinkedIn, and finally getting the answer I sought. I am only allowed to interview for one program each year, and they had put me in the running for the year program instead, but I had the option. I immediately answered yes to the year! I didn’t even discuss it with my mom; I am only in my second year and will take a year off school. Luckily, she was on board, and I think she’s pretty pumped for a year of Disney visits. Last year, I worked in my dream location, Main Street, USA. You know, the pretty street with the castle at the end? Yeah, that one. I guess Walt was right when he said dreams do come true. I had the best three months of my life. It was challenging work, but what do you expect when working with the most well-known company worldwide? I had sleepless nights, blood, sweat, and tears, but those moments were worth everything to be on stage as a cast member, seeing the spark of magic in kids’ eyes or joking with the tired parents at the end of the day who just want their candy apple after the fireworks. Each guest experience was so unique to me. Or when other cast members would recognize your hard work and give you a cast compliment. I think that is the best thing about Disney: the support network of cast members and the shared experiences. 

I am so excited to return for a year and work in a different park, Epcot, in the Canadian pavilion. I have no clue what to expect; it is a whole new adventure for me, but after taking risks already, I know the rewards are worth it, and I am ready for the skills I will gain to help further my career and inspire others with my journey.

Owning Your Personality

When people ask me what I want to do in the future, career-wise, I never have a clear answer. But I do know that I want to work with people. I cherish my ability to connect with others personally and maintain an open mind when meeting and working with them. My manager at work jokes that she can hear me from the back room when I'm welcoming guests, and to be quite honest, I come home with a new Instagram follower at least once a week. I love learning about others and what they have to offer. I'm so interested in how our lives diverge into moments where we meet. I know people have left lasting impacts on me in public, and I want to do the same.

I used to hang out with people who were “embarrassed” by my loud personality, and it was unbelievable that once I stopped spending time around them, I attracted people who cherished my personality. I told my friend last summer I had never been so happy and had so many genuine laughs; I felt like a child again. She told me it was maybe because I had to protect myself and be the adult in most situations, putting my guard up, and now I finally felt safe to do whatever I wanted. It's true! I've learned that my personality propels me forward.

Most connections I have made through LinkedIn are just conversations I've had in public, so I always emphasize dressing and feeling your best; you never know who you will run into. When I was at Disney a few years ago, I was in a pink workout set and noticed a lovely couple on a ride. Later that day, we ran into them again! The lady said she saw me and that I stood out to her. It turned out she was a significant PR professional in Toronto. I knew nothing about PR then, but it all fell into place when I spoke to her at Disney about the career path I happen to be in today.

During job interviews, I always make sure to stand out. For my first Disney interview, I wore pink pants, and this time, I went all out with a pink power suit. The recruiter and I chatted about “Legally Blonde” for about half the time, and at the end, he said, "Never change who you are." Every time someone tells me that, it drives me more. I knew I was born to be authentic and not follow the lines. Once I broke free from my box and had the freedom, I couldn't go back.

Conclusion

Reflecting on my year in Toronto and the experiences that have shaped me, I am grateful for the growth and opportunities that have come my way. Living in Toronto has not only broadened my cultural understanding but also honed my skills for the creative workplace. From exploring diverse courses in graphic design, fashion, and business to forging meaningful connections with like-minded individuals, each experience has prepared me for my career aspirations.

Looking forward, I eagerly anticipate my return to Disney for another chapter in my journey. Joining the Cultural Representative Program at Epcot's Canadian pavilion is a new adventure that promises to enrich my skills and perspective further. I am ready to embrace the challenges and rewards that lie ahead, confident in the lessons I've learned and the growth I've achieved.

To anyone on a similar path, I encourage you to embrace your unique journey, pursue your passions wholeheartedly, and never underestimate the power of authenticity. Every experience, whether challenging or joyful, contributes to your personal and professional growth. Keep learning, exploring, and striving for what makes you truly fulfilled.

As I embark on this next chapter, I am excited to continue sharing my journey and insights. Thank you for being a part of my story!

Flying Solo: Embracing Singleness This Summer

Introduction:

Hi friends, sorry it's been a while. Summer school is definitely not for the weak! I didn’t know what I was getting myself into when I decided to take a full course load. But this topic has been weighing on me and is a central point of discussion as summer has begun: let's talk about being single in the summer.

If you've read my previous blogs, you know by now that I'm a pretty independent single woman and have been my whole life. I was raised by a single mom and was surrounded by strong female figures growing up. My mom chose not to share her dating life with me, making me her sole focus. I never had to witness toxic love because, even though she was one person, she was able to give me the unconditional love I understand today. Seeing my mom do it all alone meant I had to work just as hard for myself. I was my babysitter by age 9, “attempting” to have dinner ready, usually forgetting to put the chicken in the oven (sorry, Mom!).

As the years have passed, I've embraced my single life but have always been open to dating. Seeing my mom's high standards and how easily she could let go of a guy, I know my way around the dating game. So once again, this summer, I will be embracing being single and the exciting possibilities it holds. This journey of self-discovery and the joy it brings is something I want to inspire you all with.

The State of Dating Today:

Dating in our generation feels like my worst enemy. If you've read my previous blogs, you know I love romantic books and binge rom-coms. Growing up as quite the Disney princess didn’t help with setting my expectations either, so I’ve made it pretty difficult for these men. But I want you to know, you're not alone in this. We're all navigating the complexities of modern dating, and it's okay to feel this way. I thought living in a big city would make meeting people easy, but I find it the hardest. I’d much rather have plenty of fish in the sea than have a dating reunion with my hometown, where everyone finds everything out. In Toronto, I can explore my options without outside opinions until I’m ready to introduce someone. I’ve learned that once I talk about the guy, it becomes a curse, and I jinx it. This ability to set my own pace and boundaries in dating has given me a sense of control and confidence. So, how do we date these days? 

The most straightforward answer is dating apps. I’ve tried them all: Hinge, Tinder, Bumble, and I haven't left the house once! The appeal isn't there for me; I’m all about first impressions. As a hopeless romantic, I hope I don't have to say I met my soulmate on Tinder. But it’s been fun swiping left or right. I've had decent conversations with guys, which has helped me realize the traits I want in a future relationship. I’ve made it a mission to myself to go on a few dates this summer, even though it’s hard to believe I've never been on an actual date! I ask my friends how they go out with someone new every week. Is it not awkward? What if they aren’t the same in person? The main answer I get is, "The free food is great," haha. But in all seriousness, I don't think my social anxiety could handle meeting a guy I met online. Or maybe my mom just showed me too many crime documentaries growing up.

Embracing change and my fears this year is a significant step in the right direction. Another favourite when it comes to dating in our generation is Snapchat. An app that has never been a good thing for any relationship I’ve been in. The toxicity of “secret” snaps, checking Snap Maps, best friends lists, and leaving someone on "delivered" or, as we like to call it, “ghosting,” is exhausting. Many people who use the app have something they want to call a “roster,” where we have many options in the dating pool, which is the hit thing of our generation, and I’m tired of it. Sure, in high school, it was great; it built some tough skin and taught me how to speak up. But now, I’m ready for something real, and a snap a day of a mirror selfie at the gym that you're probably sending to your whole best friends list isn’t cutting it anymore. I also tire of looking presentable for the camera daily and sending photos where the conversation will lead nowhere! Frankly, it takes the fun out of the app. I prefer posting silly things for my friends to see instead of worrying if he is active now and hasn’t responded to me. These little things genuinely take a toll on you regarding dating, and it has now turned more into games. 

This summer, I decided I wouldn’t be using Snapchat as a platform to talk to guys. Instagram isn’t much better, but I find it more accurate because it is all laid out there with nothing hiding. I love stalking a guy's grid and showing it to the girls over drinks. I appreciate when guys respond to stories and engage in a conversation. There's no avoiding technology and dating today, but there are ways to use it correctly for your well-being. Focus on yourself first and your needs, and choose what you’re comfortable using on your phone for dating.

Navigating Situationships:

If you're on TikTok, you’re probably familiar with the term “situationship.” It's a relationship without labels, which makes sense for our generation. We’re all busy figuring out our own lives, and adding labels can feel like added stress. But a good relationship shouldn't be something you have to stress about. I think that's why I'm still single: I try to avoid situationships because I'd instead invest that time into myself. The term "situationship" has become synonymous with toxicity. These undefined relationships can drag on for months, going nowhere. It's strange to think that when our parents were our age, they often had stable relationships without our current serial dating culture.

As much as you want to avoid situationships, they’re hard to escape. Unfortunately, many guys are all talk, and when it comes time for the “what are we?” conversation, they aren't ready. I’ve learned that it’s time to step away if they aren't prepared. Relationships shouldn't add extra stress; when I feel a connection, I pursue it and focus on it solely. But don’t get me wrong, just because I’m single and avoid situationships doesn’t mean I don’t have fun! Dating should be fun, and situationships aren’t. So, I’m throwing the term out of my vocabulary this summer.

My mom always says I act like the “man” in the relationship, which isn’t entirely wrong. It's hard to trust again after having my trust broken so many times. I’ve learned to detach healthily. My most recent situationship was mentally draining, making me question my worth on most days. I wondered who else he was talking to and if there were others I didn’t know about. My friends even joked that he was using me for my dog, Moose! I’ve never received actual genuine acts of love from a man, but after a year of growth, self-discovery, and cutting off manipulative relationships, I knew this wasn’t how I wanted to feel. Someone who loves me wouldn’t make me feel this way and I have finally come to terms with that.

So, this summer, I’m adopting a "one-month rule." We have a month to figure out what this connection is. If you're not ready to have an emotionally mature conversation by the end of that month and want to continue the situationship, that’s when I back away. That conversation will show you what you want to see in your future partner. I now know my worth and know there is someone out there who will make me their everything. It’s essential to set clear expectations and not get caught up in potential, which I know is hard for us book lovers!

Traveling Solo:

One of my go-to remedies for anything is travel! I’ll never forget my mom telling me about ending a long-term relationship in her twenties and hopping on a plane to Australia by herself for a month. Her stories were so fun, filled with adventure and meeting new people, and a new boyfriend! Seeing my mom start solo travel at a young age inspired me. My cousins, who are a few years older than me, have also done their fair share of travel. One even met her husband and now lives with him in Edinburgh. My cousin Sabrina, who blogged about her dating life abroad, inspired me to start my blog.

Travel doesn’t have to be far. Even going out for dinner alone in the city is a significant first step. I’ve found that when I'm at a bar with friends, it’s easy to socialize if you go in with the right attitude. Improving my self-worth and confidence has significantly impacted my dating life. When you feel confident, it shines across the room. While travelling, I've received compliments like, “Never let anyone take away your energy.” It's my favourite compliment when someone notices my energy. I always try to bring positive light wherever I go because you never know who will be there. I've met some of my best friends on my solo journeys in the city or another country.

Travelling solo has numerous benefits, such as personal growth and new experiences. Here are some tips for meeting people while travelling: stay in social accommodations like hostels or guesthouses, use travel apps to connect with other travellers or locals, or engage in group activities like tours, classes, or meetups.

Safety is also crucial when travelling solo. Always research your destination, stay aware of your surroundings, and trust your instincts. Or, if you're like my mom, she sat me down and showed me a documentary on what not to do when traveling abroad to avoid getting kidnapped. Ha ha. My solo travel experiences taught me to navigate new places confidently and meet incredible people. Embracing solo travel has enriched my life with unforgettable experiences and helped me grow as a person.

Setting Boundaries in Dating:

One of the most important lessons I've learned in any relationship is setting and mutually respecting those boundaries. In past relationships, I often gave too much of myself, prioritizing the other person’s wants and needs over mine. Eventually, I realized that I was not happy and was living a life that wasn't true to myself. Once I understood what I wanted, I started making choices aligned with my personal growth. This realization sometimes meant ending relationships that didn’t support my growth. It was tough, but I had spent too long dragging myself down for others and was finally ready to live a life where my partner is equal and we support each other’s goals. In a loving relationship, you should never have to jeopardize your dreams for the other person, as this only builds resentment. 

I've made mistakes by letting people in too much and allowing them to take up all my personal space, thinking it would be worth it because they would choose me. But I’ve learned that happily ever after doesn’t exist in that way. I can control my actions, focus on what I love, and choose to spend time with people who I never have to question my worth. What frustrates me most is being ready for a real relationship, putting in the work, and having a partner back away when hard decisions need to be made.

So, set boundaries! Be honest about what you want from the beginning. Communicate openly if something makes you uncomfortable. No man worth being with will ever disrespect your time or your boundaries. Prioritize your well-being and seek relationships that uplift and support you.

Embracing Singleness and Self-Care:

Embracing singleness and prioritizing self-care have been transformative aspects of my journey. I've realized that loving oneself is not just a cliché but a profound truth. It's during those solitary moments that the most profound personal growth occurs.

Last year tested me in ways I hadn't imagined, but I found resilience in those moments of introspection and solitude. I navigated my inner battles independently, emerging more substantial and self-assured on the other side. Through this process, I've learned that I can manage my emotions and validate my worth. I no longer depend on others for validation because I've cultivated a deep self-acceptance and understanding.

The journey wasn't easy; it demanded confronting painful truths and embracing vulnerability. However, by confronting and working through these challenges, I've fostered genuine honesty with myself and, consequently, those around me. Transparency has become my strength, and I now embrace my past without reservation, knowing that every experience has shaped me into who I am today.

Self-care has played a pivotal role in this journey of self-discovery. It's about pampering oneself and nurturing one's soul and well-being. My favourite self-care activities range from journaling and meditation to long walks with Moose. These practices have helped me cultivate mindfulness, manage stress, and stay grounded in the present moment. They've taught me the importance of listening to and responding to my needs with compassion.

For anyone navigating singleness, I encourage you to view this time as a period of immense growth and opportunity. It's a chance to delve deep into understanding who you are, what you value, and what brings you joy. Invest in activities that nourish your mind, body, and spirit. Whether pursuing a hobby, travelling solo, or simply enjoying your own company, cherish this time of independence and self-exploration.

Remember, being single does not equate to loneliness; it's an invaluable chapter of self-discovery. Embrace it with open arms, knowing that every step you take towards self-love and care brings you closer to aligning with your most authentic self. Celebrate your journey, past relationships included, as they have all contributed to your growth and resilience. Someone once told me something that stuck with me: enjoy your single life, especially when you're young and growing, because you never know when you'll run into your soulmate and settle down. Trust that by nurturing a loving relationship with yourself, you are laying the foundation for fulfilling and meaningful connections in the future.

Conclusion:

In conclusion, navigating the complexities of modern dating, embracing solo adventures, setting firm boundaries, and prioritizing self-care have profoundly shaped my journey of self-discovery and empowerment. Encouraging words from my friends and family who admire how I've handled my single life mean so much to me. Despite the challenges and occasional setbacks, I've learned invaluable lessons in self-worth, resilience, and the significance of personal growth.

This summer, join me in celebrating the joys of being single! It's a season full of opportunities to focus on ourselves, explore new interests, and deepen our understanding of what truly brings us happiness. Whether navigating dating apps or enjoying the freedom of solo travel, remember to prioritize your well-being and honour your journey.

Setting clear boundaries in relationships, both romantic and platonic, is essential. It ensures that your time and energy are invested in relationships that uplift and support you. Feel free to communicate your needs and expectations openly. Remember, you deserve to be with someone who respects and cherishes you for who you are.

As you embark on this summer adventure of self-discovery, engage in activities that nurture your soul and bring you joy. Above all, embrace your singleness with optimism and gratitude. It's a period of growth, empowerment, and limitless possibilities. Trust in your journey, cherish your independence, and know that every step you take toward self-love and authenticity brings you closer to a fulfilling and meaningful future.

Here's to a summer filled with self-discovery, self-care, and the freedom to embrace who you are entirely. Cheers to celebrating the beautiful journey that lies ahead.

Reflections on Girlhood: Lessons in Friendship, Family, and Finding Myself

Introduction

Hi friends! Happy June! With the weather warming up, I am excited for summer. Moose and I have been enjoying our adventures around the city. Reflecting on a busy week of midterms, full-time work, and social outings, I realized how unique and uplifting my catch-ups with different girlfriends have been recently. I hadn't noticed how draining some past relationships were until now. After twenty years of navigating life as a woman, I'm beginning to understand what I need from any relationship. Growing up with a single mom, who was always there to guide me, taught me to handle things independently from a young age. Her influence, along with strong female characters from my favorite rom-coms, shaped my values and friendships.

Early Years

Growing up as an only child had its ups and downs, but I got good at entertaining myself early on. I started writing stories that my mom still keeps to this day. With a big imagination and a family of educators and actors, it makes sense that I was so creative.

Once I began school in my little neighborhood, where my mom, uncle, and grandma had all gone, I made friends for life. We would walk to meet each other at the lights until we got our driver's licenses. When we were younger (and phones weren’t a thing), we had to be home when the streetlights came on. Walking to the park turned into walking home from the bar, but we went through it together. Eva and Bea, if you’re reading this, this is basically about you. You’re welcome. Growing up in a small neighborhood had its moments. Everyone somehow knew everything about everyone. But through it all, I maintained a solid foundation of friends.

When I came home crying to my mom because I heard this or that, she always had an answer. Our nightly debriefs were my favorite thing, and those conversations sparked my love for having close girlfriends. We always used to joke that we were like college roommates, ordering in almost every night and watching TV. After a bad day, we'd ask, “Funny or scary movie tonight?” I can't even remember the last time we sat at our dining room table! Since I left home, she's been sitting at the table now, haha!

My mom influenced the friendships I carry proudly today. She never intervened, allowing me the space to find my way, yet she always knew when to lend a hand, especially when crafting the perfect response to those oh-so-important texts. If you’ve been through the “girl drama” phase, you understand those messages' significance. From a young age, I witnessed her endless love for me, her students, friends, and family. Her unwavering dedication has not only influenced me but has also shaped the meaningful connections I cherish today.

Sometimes I wished I had a big sister, but luckily, my mom introduced me to rom-coms at a young age, and I've been hooked ever since. Characters like Elle Woods, Carrie Bradshaw, Samantha Jones, Andie Anderson, Andrea Sachs, and many more became my virtual big sisters. The first thing the Disney recruiter said to me when I showed up in my pink pantsuit for the interview was, “Have you seen Legally Blonde?” I said I sure have! We spent a good chunk of time chatting about the movie, and even at the end, he said, “Thank your mom for showing you Legally Blonde.” And I got the job!

These characters taught me lessons in confidence, resilience, and self-expression. They showed me what friendship is all about. Yes, there will be fights here and there, but if you have a strong foundation, you can never say anything wrong to the right person. These movies made me dream of having a secure group I could trust with my heart, and I finally do.

Middle School

Now we're getting into the good stuff: middle school! The time when all the excitement and drama of puberty unfolded. It was a period marked by constant change with students transferring schools, close-knit friend groups splitting into different classes, the emergence of new social circles, and the rise of social media. Despite being surrounded by peers, I often found myself dealing with feelings of loneliness. While I had many friends, I quickly learned that quality outweighed quantity when it came to friendship. I tried to immerse myself in different social circles, but I always felt like an outsider.

This might be a surprise to some, but I was quite shy until I found my people. In the midst of middle school drama, I found myself struggling to fit in despite my vibrant energy and dislike for unnecessary conflict. Despite doing well academically, I battled with self-doubt and feeling insecure around my peers.

Yet, during these years, one friendship remained constant: my best friend, Bea. Despite going to different schools, Bea and I shared an unbreakable bond. Throughout the chaos of our teenage years, one thing stayed the same: my friendship with Bea. Even though we were polar opposites, our connection gave me a comforting feeling of belonging and stability during those tough times.

Throughout the challenges of middle school, my mom was my biggest cheerleader. Her wisdom and support helped me navigate the complexities of teenage social life. It is quite handy to have a parent who deals with students' problems daily. Entering high school only added to the complexity of social situations, faced with new challenges and opportunities for personal growth. Yet, equipped with the lessons learned and the continued support from my mom, I faced these new challenges with renewed confidence and resilience.

High School

The big debate is: you either hated high school, or it was the time of your life. Everyone would say, “Enjoy those years, they go by so fast.” For me, they couldn’t have gone slower. Going into high school, my friends and I first thought about where we would sit for lunch, whether we were in any classes together, and how we would navigate this new environment. We went from being at the top in elementary school to the bottom again. My classes didn’t interest me, I had no classes with my friends, and I was comparing myself too much to others, trying to become something I wasn’t.

I was lucky enough to have my friend Bea with me. We made high school fun in our ways, even joining the swim team together. I did not like those 5 a.m. wake-up calls in the middle of winter, though! As I reflect, I am grateful to have had a strong foundation built with my best friend and to have navigated the highs and lows of high school together. Walking home from school before we had the freedom to drive was my favourite time to debrief about our day. Sometimes, it was even better when we’d convince our moms to sign us out of the last period so we could leave early on the days we couldn’t stand it.

COVID came along, and that was a hard time for friendships. Luckily, Bea and I were lockdown buddies and made some pretty epic TikToks and had many movie marathons in my basement in our matching PJs. The COVID lockdown period was challenging for me, as I'm sure many of you can relate.

Unfortunately, during those years, I also faced the trauma of sexual assault, which greatly affected my ability to reach out to others, leading me to withdraw and isolate myself. I’ve learned now that I don’t need to do that, and I have a strong support group I wasn’t taking advantage of at the time. After the COVID lockdown, life got better. We were seniors: a time of so much excitement, like joining the cheer team (still not sure how I made the first cut), our senior trip to the Dominican Republic, prom, and so many more unforgettable memories.

As I reflect on those years, I realize the insecurities of others and how their actions were just reflections of themselves. Once I realized my values, I chose to stand up and pick the right people for my well-being. I hold no grudges against anyone from my past. I have accepted the situations for what they are and who I am: the good, the bad, and the ugly. Once I did that, I felt free of the relationships I was holding onto that weren’t working out. Still, I always do my best to resolve the situation because my mom always reminds me that it’s important to never burn bridges, especially at the age of 20, when we start to branch out and begin our careers. High school was just one chapter, and while it had its challenges, it also laid the groundwork for the secure, supportive friendships I have today.

Adulthood

As I enter adulthood, I discover a newfound sense of fulfillment in my relationships. When I think about my tough first year at university, it was a time of struggle and pretending. I wore a mask, concealing the inner pain that weighed me down. Yet, hitting rock bottom became pivotal, encouraging me to seek the support I needed. Despite the obstacles, I persisted, completing my first year of university with the necessary assistance. Then, an unexpected journey unfolded last summer: a trip to Walt Disney World for three months, accompanied only by my best pal, Dug. Whether it was the enchantment of Disney or the change of scenery from southern Ontario, something shifted within me, and Dug, too.

Gradually, genuine happiness replaced the mask I once wore, and the friendships I forged during this time were transformative. These friends opened up about their pasts, offering comfort and understanding without judgment. Trust flowed effortlessly, and their continued support pushed me forward. Returning from Disney, I continued my journey of self-discovery with newfound confidence. I embraced change, switched programs, and started blogging. During my studies this year, I made connections with inspiring individuals, who shared similar ambitions and a love for creativity. A few of my friendships were formed from unexpected meetings in the city, often, they stopped because they were in awe of my dog, Moose.

Some of the most significant growth in my life has come from conversations with strangers, particularly during my travels. Growing up, my confidence was shaped by experiencing different cultures and meeting new people from a young age. During my time in Cuba, I formed friendships I've longed for my entire life: the kind of

spirited and supportive girls you often see in romantic comedies who always give me the advice I exactly needed to hear. They're like the big sisters I needed when I was younger, and now I finally have them. It's hard to believe I had to go all the way to Cuba and Florida to meet some of my best friends today, only to find out they live in Ontario. But that's the thing about doing things alone: you never know who you'll meet or where. That's why I always emphasize the importance of putting yourself out there and trying new things, especially going solo, because that's where you meet people who truly align with your values.

As I continue my journey through adulthood, I remain dedicated to self-discovery and surrounding myself with those who share my values. While this path may lead to parting ways with some, I understand that such changes are crucial for personal growth and taking care of genuine connections. While we may not click with everyone, it's essential for our well-being not to hold grudges but to thank them for the lessons learned and hope that everyone who crosses our path finds their people.

My Advice to You

As you navigate your own journey, here are some pieces of advice that I've learned along the way…

1. Be Yourself: Embrace who you are and let your genuine personality shine. The right people will appreciate you for who you are.

2. Learn from Every Experience: Every friendship, whether it lasts or not, teaches you something valuable. Reflect on these lessons and use them to grow.

3. Open Communication: Honest and open communication is the key to any healthy relationship. Don't be afraid to express your feelings and listen to others.

4. Set Boundaries: It's important to know your limits and set boundaries in your relationships. Don't be afraid to say no or distance yourself from toxic influences.

5. Stay Positive: Surround yourself with positive, like-minded people who uplift and inspire you. Positivity is contagious and can greatly improve your well-being.

6. Keep Growing: Personal growth is a lifelong journey. Continuously seek to improve yourself and your relationships. Learn from your mistakes and celebrate your successes.

7. Cherish Quality Over Quantity: It's better to have a few close friends who truly understand and support you than to have a large group of acquaintances. True friends will be there through thick and thin.

8. Value Your Own Company: Learning to enjoy your own company helps you discover what truly makes you happy. This self-awareness not only makes your relationships with others more authentic but also ensures your happiness comes from within.

9. Let Them: People will always have opinions about you, but what's important is how you view yourself. Stay true to who you are and let go of the need for validation from others.

10. Take Risks: Sometimes stepping out of your comfort zone and taking risks can lead to the most rewarding experiences and relationships. Don’t be afraid to take that leap, because you never know where it might lead you.

Conclusion

Reflecting on my journey through girlhood and adulthood, I'm grateful for the lessons learned and the friendships created. From my mom's guidance to the inspiration I got from fictional characters, each has played a vital role in shaping who I am and the friendships I hold dear today. The ups and downs of middle and high school taught me resilience and the value of true friendship, while my adventures in adulthood have shown me the importance of self-discovery and aligning with those who share my values. Whether through unexpected encounters with strangers or lifelong bonds formed since childhood, each friend has contributed to my growth uniquely. As I look ahead, I am grateful to my current circle of friends, acknowledging the strength and significance of these connections. My final message is that you reflect on your own journey and the friendships that have influenced it, recognizing their pivotal role in personal development and overall well-being. And if you ever need a friend, I am always here :)

Fearless Living: Embracing Fear for Personal Growth

TRIGGER WARNING: Talk of mental health and self-harm

Introduction:

Hey friends! I hope you are all enjoying your May long weekend. Yesterday, I had the day off and spent a good chunk of time outside, taking advantage of the beautiful weather to find happiness amidst my heavy spring course load. Don’t be fooled, I was still doing work on our walk. Listening to the audiobook of “Jane Eyre” would not be my first choice of audio to listen to on a walk. I decided to take Moose on a walk to my old campus, where I spent some time reflecting. Revisiting a place tied to many emotions felt strange, especially returning a year later as a different version of myself. I sat in the spot where I’d go when I’d have my worst panic attacks, where I could finally catch my breath. Now sitting there over a year later, the sun beaming on my face, with Moose by my side, I am at my most content. This experience inspired me to write about facing our fears and how it can be a catalyst for personal growth. Yesterday felt like the final checkbox in this chapter of my life, giving me the closure I needed.

Confronting Trauma:

Yesterday, I walked around the city and eventually revisited a place of past trauma, accompanied by Moose. As I’ve mentioned in previous posts, my first year of university was challenging, a sentiment many of us share. Much of my trauma was tied to my residence, where I spent the majority of my time. For those familiar with depression, the feeling of being tied down to your bed by the weight of your thoughts is all too real. I chose to stay quiet for too long, and eventually, it caught up with me. It's hard to explain when people ask me why I feel this way and why I decided to open up now. Being in a changed environment and feeling a lack of understanding from those I confided in exacerbated my struggles. When people didn’t respond in the way I needed, I turned to self-harm as a coping mechanism, feeling I "deserved" it on most days. Some days were worse than others, with thoughts keeping me up all night. Eventually, I hit my breaking point, a moment that remains with me but one I often wish to forget. However, I choose not to forget because facing my fears is the first step toward recovery, a lesson I've learned this past year.

It wasn’t until I finally told someone I wasn’t the 24/7 bubbly person they thought I was that things finally began to change. After reaching my breaking point, my mom swooped in to rescue me, staying by my side every step, along with my supportive friends and family, who constantly reached out. Despite my stubbornness and reluctance to listen, my mom tried various approaches to help. We spent Sundays at Michael's art classes meant for kids, and she tried to play the "bad cop" role, which I humorously pointed out she wasn't good at. Eventually, she let me find my way, and I finally did. The changes and challenges over the past year, which included becoming a Walt Disney World cast member, switching schools, altering career goals, and the impending move to Florida in the fall, have all shaped my growth. None of this would have happened if I hadn't faced my truths, opened up, received proper support, and spent time with people whose energy I thrive on.

Embracing Change:

Once I finally faced my fears and stepped forward to get help, positive change followed. Accepting my flaws and developing an action plan helped me break free from the negative cycles of not wanting to get out of bed, feeling the world hated me, and thinking I’d never be good enough for anything or anyone. Even writing this now blows my mind because I could never imagine saying those words to myself today. Choosing to be vulnerable with myself and others made a significant difference. Therapy was a great start. I began it before leaving for Disney and met my personal goals by the end of 2023.

In 2024, I feel confident within myself and comfortable expressing my feelings externally. I've learned to say "no," communicate my feelings to people I care about, and finally trust others and open up. Embracing this new version of myself has given me confidence like no other. This growth feels entirely mental rather than physical, and it's beautiful. I've never felt my head and chest so light. I fully embrace my loud, goofy, bubbly, chatty self. I don’t want to change anything about me because I’ve learned to own my flaws and words. Ultimately, you’re all you've got and must do what's best for you. That is what this year has taught me, and I hope it can help you.

Finding Happiness:

Finally, facing my fears has led me to a more profound sense of self-acceptance and happiness. This journey all started with a mouse who hired me to work at the most magical place on earth in May 2023. My friends and family say those three months changed me, and they did, but what they might not understand is that this has been a work in progress long before then. Moving to Florida was just when I finally became vulnerable and opened up to others. Once I started to be myself, I attracted like-minded people. I harnessed my skills and entirely accepted myself: the good, the bad, the ugly, and the trauma that trails along. I attracted the people I needed most. I also attracted new opportunities, such as accepting my position in the Disney Cultural Representative program in the fall, something I had only dreamed of doing, but never thought I could achieve. These new supportive relationships and opportunities inspired me towards self-discovery and growth, and I began sharing my journey online through my blogs. This year, I switched my career goals from the life sciences, which had always been on the horizon, to creative industries, something I was never surrounded by until recently. It’s never too late to change your path. You should change it more than once until you feel the happiest with yourself and your relationships.

Lessons Learned:

This year has been a catalyst for growth, and it truly began when I took control of my life and faced the fears I needed to confront. What I hope you take away from this is the importance of confronting your inner demons. Once you do, identify what you need from the outside world, take what serves you, and leave behind what doesn't. It's okay to say, "No." However, never holding a grudge or avoiding confrontation is crucial because unaddressed fears prevent you from working through problems. I've learned to let go of people unwilling to compromise and work through issues. The most critical thing in any relationship is that both sides feel valued. While this sometimes takes extra effort, keeping only those willing to do the work, regardless of the relationship type, is essential. Don't fall for false hope; be vulnerable enough to accept that some people won't change, and you can't control that. You can control yourself, your fears, and your flaws. As I've said in previous blogs, “let them” and embrace the "what if" because no matter what, you're still here. You've made it this far, dealing with all your fears and flaws that you thought you could never work through. My friends always ask how I got here, and I am committed to helping others embark on their own journey of self-discovery.

Conclusion:

Looking inward and confronting our fears is crucial for personal growth. Embracing change, accepting our flaws, and being vulnerable with ourselves and others can lead to a more profound sense of self-acceptance and happiness. My journey began with facing my inner demons and seeking help, which allowed me to break free from negative cycles and attract the right people and opportunities into my life. It’s never too late to change your path; you should change it as often as necessary until you find what and who makes you happiest. I encourage you to embark on your journey of self-discovery. Confront your fears, embrace change, and don’t be afraid to seek support. Remember, personal growth is an ongoing process; you are not alone. I am committed to helping others navigate their paths and am here to offer support and guidance along the way. Together, we can achieve the growth and happiness we all deserve.

The Abbey Girls: Three Generations of Love on Mother's Day

Introduction:

Hey friends! Happy Mother’s Day weekend! This holiday is when I’m reminded of the extraordinary women who have shaped my life. But you know what? We should celebrate them every day, shouldn’t we? Today, I want to reflect on my family: three generations of Abbey girls. There’s my grandma, my mom, and then there’s me. Our family dynamic may not fit the typical model, but honestly, I wouldn’t have it any other way. Growing up as an only child with a single mom and a grandma who felt like a second parent, I learned the true meaning of love and resilience. While many incredible women have influenced my life, these two hold the top spots. Our bond is unbreakable, and the love we share for each other is like no other. So here’s to you, Mom and Hana. Today and every day, I celebrate you.

To Hana: 

Let’s begin by introducing Grandma Hana, the backbone of our family, who raised my mom and my uncle during challenging times as a single mother. Growing up, I always knew my grandma was a tough cookie, but she also had the biggest heart and still does. One of my favourite memories is from grade two, when she went to talk to my teacher because the portrayal of a grandma in a rocking chair knitting in one of our practice worksheets was an incorrect depiction of a grandma! Another classic Hana moment was when she asked Cinderella at breakfast at the Walt Disney World castle if Prince Charming helped her with chores or if he was in the other room watching football. My grandma certainly isn’t your traditional woman! As I grew older, I began to appreciate her wisdom more and more. Climbing the moors based on the Brontë sisters at age eight wasn’t exactly fun, but now, funny enough, I’m in a course where this information comes in handy, and guess who I turn to? That’s right, Hana! With Mom and Hana working full-time jobs when I was younger, Hana's eventual retirement made her an integral part of my daily life. I’ll never forget her making me breakfast and walking me to the bus stop to greet all my friends. She also was a helping hand with my schoolwork and saved me from being the last one picked up at daycare. Thanks, Mom Ha Ha. Now that I'm at an age where I can reflect on her strength and resilience during a time when divorce was uncommon and on her remarkable job raising two amazing kids and working full-time, I am genuinely in awe. Then eventually she had the honour of becoming a grandma, surprise it’s me! Hana always tells the story of how there was a Northeastern US and Southern Canada blackout when Mom announced her pregnancy with me. She knew from then on that I was powerful! You might be wondering why I call her Hana, and no, that’s not her name. She decided she didn’t want to be called Grandma, and since she loved the name and my mom wasn’t using it for me, why not? So, since then, she’s always been Hana to me, and she’d be pretty offended if you ever called her Grandma. Hana and I have always been close. I was her only grandchild for ten years until my cousin came along. So now, she always calls me her "Uno." Over the years, we’ve shared endless good times: skiing in Ellicottville over the years, my first backpacking trip, our 18-hour road trip to Florida, where we pulled over late at night to a motel, drank wine in the parking lot, and listened to her endless CNN updates. So, Hana, here’s to you. Thank you for being the foundation of our family. Thank you for always being my go-to for a good time, serving as my favourite wine partner (especially during happy hour!) and dance partner. 

To Mom:

Let's shift our focus to the next generation: my mom, who most of you know as Hilary. Mom, you are the anchor of this family, and you've done an incredible job passing down Hana's legacy to me. I understand now that you were always hard on yourself, but even in your darkest times, you were the brightest light in mine. Your selflessness is unmatched, and I will forever be grateful for your hard work as a single parent and your unwavering dedication to providing for me. Despite your doubts, you balanced your career as a principal with being a loving mother, always ensuring I was cared for, even on your late work nights or bad days. I had some pretty cool babysitters, and you made sure of that! I'm grateful that you allowed yourself to be vulnerable with me and set realistic expectations for me from such a young age. I witnessed the effort you put into everything you did and the rewards that came from it. I've always admired and been proud to call you my mom. Having a baby and running a school simultaneously at such a young age is remarkable. But boy, did you make up for it on your time off. Yes, there were weekends when you didn't want to get out of bed, but as an adult, I understand that now. However, it was always the best time when we were out and about. I cherished the days when we played hooky and went shopping or binge-watched thriller movies and rom-coms. And the best times were our holidays together, the three of us. Mom was definitely the brains behind these vacations. Sure, we almost got lost in the rainforest on a day trip with a stranger, and we had a close call on a roundabout in Italy in our Fiat convertible, but I wouldn't have it any other way. These memories fuel me and bring me joy when I look back on them. I miss being able to come into your room every night and keep you up on a school night with my funny stories or videos I find online. But wherever you are, I know you're just a phone call away, ready to share a laugh on the other end. I can't express enough gratitude for your sacrifices in order to love and dedicate 18 years of your life to me. The love you poured into raising me is immeasurable, and I can never thank you enough.

Passing it Down:

Last but certainly not least, there's me! I like to think of myself as the Switzerland of the family, always serving as the neutral ground and sounding board. With three strong-willed women, our discussions can sometimes escalate into what could easily be reality TV show-worthy arguments. But they always conclude with a hug, without fail. We've never allowed ourselves to go to bed upset with each other. Regardless of the disagreement, we Abbey girls always have each other's backs. They've instilled in me the actual values of loyalty and respect. Despite our differences, we share a deep love for one another and are made stronger by each other. My grandma leans towards extraversion, while my mom tends to be more introverted, and I find myself somewhere in between. I've been fortunate enough to form two exceptional bonds with them. Recently, we went on a vacation to Cuba, and it was extraordinary to be reunited again. Life tends to get in the way, but that week was filled with love and laughter. Hana and I enjoy our wine and sunset photoshoots, and Mom and I are soaking up the sun with our morning coffee. Perhaps they were both a bit annoyed with me for rolling in at who-knows-what time in the morning, but the best moments were the nights when I accidentally woke them both up, and I found myself sharing crazy stories from the night out. Overall, I don't know who I would be today if it weren't for these two amazing women. Mom is my favourite person to watch movies with, and enjoy takeout on the couch. Even the Disney recruiter told me to thank my mom for showing me "Legally Blonde" at such a young age! On the other hand, Hana is always up for a visit to the city, a history lesson, or both. A few months ago, she even attended my philosophy lecture with me, an experience I'll never forget. Not to my surprise, she had more notes than me. Each and every one of their teachings has shaped my character and influenced my positive outlook on life because I know, no matter what, they're always in my corner. As I embark on my next chapter, living alone in Toronto with my puppy Chihuahua, Moose, where Mom has become GoGo to him, I'm reminded of the significance of family traditions and the memories we've created over the years. I can't wait to continue passing down this legacy of love to future generations, animals and humans!

Conclusion:

In concluding the celebration of the two most remarkable women in my life, Hana and Mom (Hilary), I'm filled with profound gratitude. Hana, the foundation of our family, instilled in me strength and warmth through her resilience and wisdom. Mom, the anchor, carried down Hana's legacy with love, shaping me with her selflessness and dedication. We, the Abbey girls, form a trio bonded by love and laughter. As I move forward, I carry their lessons and memories, ready to pass down this legacy of love to future generations. To all mothers, thank you for your endless love, strength, and guidance. Happy Mother's Day.

Let’s Get Real: My First Month as a Twenty-Year-Old

Introduction

Hey everyone! With school out (at least until my spring courses start), I finally have some free time to sit down and write. Lately, I've been engaged in deep conversations with friends and family, navigating through significant changes that have encouraged me to reflect and share my thoughts. They often say that crying on your birthday is common, but for me, the tears flowed more freely during the first month of my twenties than ever before. They were onto something in the rom-coms I grew up watching; your twenties mark a pivotal time when life-changing events take shape. After handling my fair share of challenges in my short twenty years, I began realizing the importance of embracing change and staying in touch with my emotions, something I never would’ve said as a nineteen-year-old. So, let's dive right in!

Highs and Lows of the First Month

My journey of self-growth has been brewing within me for the past year since I embarked on a road trip with my faithful friend, Dug, by my side. I've come to believe that the most significant growth often occurs when we seek adventure independently, though it's equally important to have our loved ones cheering us on from the sidelines. Stepping into the unknown can be worrisome, but it's in those uncomfortable moments that real change begins to unfold. Reflecting on how different my life might have been if I had never left home, I've realized that true fulfillment only comes when our surroundings align with our inner selves. It's easy to be tough on ourselves, but confronting our struggles with someone else can be incredibly challenging. Admitting that my journey to self-acceptance was shaped by years of trauma and self-criticism has been a complicated truth to face. I set unrealistic expectations for myself, eventually taking me down when I couldn't meet them. It was then that I realized therapy was the next step forward. Since starting therapy last year, I've made significant strides in overcoming my inner demons and am now beginning to address the challenges around me. In the past, I've tried therapy, and initially, I believed I could outsmart the therapist. However, when I simply sat back, relaxed, and opened up, the real progress began. Remember, it's okay to be vulnerable. At some point, we must prioritize ourselves and our well-being. This doesn't mean neglecting others, but recognizing that true love and support mean wanting to see each other grow, no matter the obstacles we face.

Finding Strength in Words

I've been doing something I never thought I'd do so often: sharing my feelings. And if you know me, I usually add humour to my emotional conversations to lighten the mood. However, recently, I've realized that brushing the surface wasn't enough; I needed to delve deeper and confront these feelings head-on. It wasn't until I found the courage to voice them aloud that I truly began to understand the weight it held on me. Hearing my thoughts spoken aloud wasn't as horrible as I had feared. It felt free to acknowledge that these struggles were not mine to face alone. One mantra that has resonated with me throughout this journey is the simple question, "What if?" It's a reminder that, no matter how drastic the situation may seem, we always get through it. Instead of allowing my emotions to spiral out of control, I've made a conscious effort to identify my triggers and figure out what aligns with my values. This phase of life is a time for significant shifts in our relationships. As we figure out our values, we recognize that some connections no longer align with our aspirations. Engaging in those challenging conversations, particularly for individuals who prioritize others' approval, can be immensely difficult. Yet, as my mom said recently, "Let them." Choosing yourself over others is a new perspective that gave me newfound clarity. Not everyone is destined for our story, and that's perfectly okay. Maintaining peace, however, is essential, and clarity is critical. After all, life would be dreadfully dull if we were all the same, wouldn't it? Embracing conflict as part of life allows us to appreciate the diversity of human experience and can also make for excellent drama novel plots! So, it's essential to allow yourself to let them have their opinions about you because you can only control your thoughts and well-being. Once we connect with ourselves, we expand our focus to face the world.

Facing the Unknown

Engaging in face-to-face conversations is undeniably challenging, regardless of the circumstances. Yet, when you're secure in your truth and have worked on all efforts toward a compromise, sometimes the best thing to do is to step away. Stepping into uncertainty, whether in personal relationships, career aspirations, financial struggles, or any other area of life, can bring out a sense of fear. However, I assure you that things begin to improve once you find inner security. You become more equipped to navigate change and regulate your emotions, even amidst the actions of others. As I've mentioned earlier, confronting our challenges head-on, even when it means facing our inner demons alone, is essential for personal growth. We evaluate our relationships through this journey and discover careers that genuinely resonate with us. And remember, despite the solitary nature of this process, you're not alone. We're all navigating similar challenges simultaneously, and a sense of security lies in that. Opening up and allowing yourself to be vulnerable can lead to a more fulfilling life, bringing us one step closer to uncovering our purpose. Perhaps that's what the twenties are all about: discovering our path amidst the uncertainties of life, or so I've heard.

  Moving Forward with Moose and more

Moving forward with Moose and more, I'm ready to embrace the next chapter. Having cultivated a positive mindset and surrounded myself with supportive people, Moose included, I am prepared for this next chapter. Returning to the Happiest Place on Earth for a year-long internship marks a significant change, requiring me to take a break from school. But this opportunity aligns perfectly with my career goals in the creative industries. As I embark on this adventure, I hold onto two guiding principles, as I talked about: "let them," allowing others to voice their opinions, and "what if," acknowledging potential setbacks. Stepping into my twenties feels like a chance for newfound growth, filled with optimism and determination. I encourage you to do the same. Embrace change, follow your instincts, and surround yourself with supportive people. Stay true to yourself, take risks, and trust your ability to navigate challenges. Approach each new chapter with resilience, optimism, and a willingness to embrace the unknown. And always remember, you're never alone. Whether with a faithful pet like Moose by your side or a supportive group cheering you on, there's always someone or something there to ease the journey.

Conclusion

Reflecting on my first month as a twenty-year-old, I'm grateful for the lessons I learned and the growth I experienced. This journey has been challenging and rewarding, from navigating deep conversations to confronting inner demons. I've learned the importance of embracing change, staying true to myself, and surrounding myself with supportive people. Stepping into uncertainty can be a scary thought, but it's also where real growth occurs. As I look ahead, I'm filled with optimism and determination. With Moose by my side and a newfound clarity, I'm ready to embrace whatever the next chapter may bring. And as you embark on your journey, I encourage you to do the same. Embrace change, follow your instincts, and trust your ability to navigate challenges. Remember, you're never alone; there's always someone or something there to ease the journey. Here's to embracing the uncertainties of life and finding strength in the journey ahead.