Wrapping Up 2024: Embracing Change and New Beginnings

Introduction

Hi friends! I’m sorry it’s been a while since I’ve written. As you know, I value vulnerability, and honestly, the past three months since my move to Florida have been challenging. Turning twenty has been a significant milestone for me. A decade that feels exciting and overwhelming, full of possibilities and uncertainties. In these months, I’ve been navigating considerable life changes: switching degrees, moving to Disney, experiencing personal growth, and dealing with heartbreak. Change has become a central theme in my life, and I’ve realized that the only way to move forward is by reflecting and adjusting what needs to be changed to stay true to my path. This year, I took a significant risk by pausing my studies in the Creative Industries program in Toronto to pursue my passion for making magic at Disney World with the hope to find inspiration from others, just as I did after my first Disney program. During therapy, I reflected on how much has changed over the past year. I was in a completely different place back then, finishing my first year of university, drifting from high school friendships, and slowly finding my people. With a stronger sense of who I am and who I want to become, I arrived in Florida with high expectations. On the tough days when I feel homesick or question my decision, I remind myself why I’m here and that this is truly a once-in-a-lifetime opportunity. I’ve always been a go-getter, and like many of you, I struggle when I feel stuck or unsure of where life will take me next. But I’m learning to let go, and I think that’s what our twenties are all about. This year has taught me that if you want something to happen, you’re the one who has to make it happen. Instead of staying in bed and dwelling on homesickness, I’ve chosen to reach out to my peers and explore ways to keep growing while continuing my program. I try every scenario and every idea until I know I’ve done all I can. So, let’s dive into what my first year as a twenty-year-old has taught me!

Reflecting on Turning Twenty

You know those coming-of-age movies we all watched growing up? I never thought fiction would become my reality. Finding yourself is such a complex idea that it’s hard to grasp until you leave the familiarity of your hometown, friends, and the life you were used to. But when you take that leap, move away, and surround yourself with people who share your passions, you begin to see that leaving isn’t an end. It’s a beginning. The real challenge lies in stepping away from your comfort zone to discover a new version of yourself. At the start of this year, I spent much time alone. Just Moose and me in my studio apartment. It was a season of reflection and independence. Hosting cocktail nights with friends became a small but meaningful way to connect, and I learned to enjoy my own company truly. Living alone gave me a sense of freedom I never had before, and while I’m so excited to move back to the city and create a new “girl cave,” I’ve grown to respect my needs and value my independence. Knowing what you need, and allowing yourself to honour that, is such an important lesson. The people who genuinely love you will always stay, no matter the distance or the time apart. This year, I also faced something new for me: heartbreak. Yes, I’ve dabbled in dating before, but nothing ever felt as accurate as it did this time. I’m not sure if it was because my mindset had shifted or if it was the person himself, but before him, I was so scared to open myself up. After everything I’ve been through, especially navigating the aftermath of past trauma and building a safety net of people I trust, he was the first person I truly let in, someone I found on my own and genuinely liked. In the end, the heartbreak was necessary. It taught me that I can pick up the pieces and heal on my own. This year has shown me the importance of relying on myself. My friends always tell me they admire my confidence and love for spending time alone, and I wish everyone could experience that kind of self-assurance. It took me a long time to get here. I had to dive deep into my past, face the things I wanted to change and figure out how to move forward gracefully. This process has shaped the person I am today. Something is terrifying and thrilling about having time ahead of you while feeling the pressure to figure it all out. But I’m learning to find peace in the uncertainty and joy.

Accepting Heartbreak as Part of Growth

Heartbreak defined my year, not because of how he chose to treat me, but because of how I decided to move on. For the first time in my life, I truly understood my worth and recognized that the way I was treated wasn’t right. I’ve always been the fun, single friend dishing out advice, but I had never been so emotionally invested in a relationship. Even though it didn’t work out, I’m grateful it happened. It helped me grow into the confident, self-assured person I am today. I’m enjoying my single life with a fresh perspective, having experienced true heartbreak. It’s hard to accept when someone doesn’t want you, primarily when you’ve worked hard to become your best version. But I’ve learned that the right people will never make you feel too much or not enough. They will push you to achieve your goals, not hold you back. Recently, I ended things with someone I was seeing because I didn’t feel challenged. I need to be with someone with their own goals and the determination to achieve them while still supporting mine. I’ve also come to understand the importance of being with someone who’s done the work on themselves. Someone who knows their worth, understands their needs and is mature enough to communicate about them. These complex life experiences shape us, helping us grow and mature into the people we’re meant to be, for ourselves and future relationships. My mom often reminds me I’m only twenty, and there’s so much time ahead for love. And she’s right. Before my ex came into my life, I didn’t think much about dating or starting a family. I guess the right person can make you imagine new possibilities for your life. While I’m grateful that he showed me how deeply I’m capable of loving, I can’t wait to share that love with someone truly ready to receive it. Dating can feel exhausting, especially when all you’re trying to do is protect your heart. But heartbreak has taught me much about love, boundaries, self-worth, and resilience. It’s not about accepting the loss as an ending but seeing it as an opportunity to grow stronger and redefine what happiness looks like.

Starting a New Chapter

As 2024 comes to a close, I am still unsure where this new chapter will lead me. But I trust myself and the choices I make, knowing that everything has a way of working out as it’s meant to. My peers are always shocked  that I was once in Life Sciences before switching to Creative Industries. No one ever believed I was a "gifted" student! But hey, everything happens for a reason. Maybe I should even thank my mom for not pushing me into the gifted program or maybe I wouldn’t be the bubbly person I am today(haha). After my first program at Walt Disney World, my new friends inspired and supported me to switch my degree. That decision led me to meet even more amazing people who align with my career goals and passions. This year, I’ve truly learned the importance of networking and the value of never burning a bridge. Some connections from my first Disney program have supported me during this experience, and I know I’ll stay in touch with them when I return to the city. And who knows, maybe even find my way back to the company someday. Switching degrees from Life Sciences to Creative Industries was a scary decision. It meant leaving behind a familiar, structured path for something less specific but far more exciting. At first, I worried about pivoting away from the expectations I’d placed on myself, but following my intuition was the best choice I’ve ever made. I’ve learned that taking risks, even scary ones, allows you to grow and align with what truly matters to you. Moving to Walt Disney for a year has been another bold step. The excitement of joining such a dynamic environment pushed me to step outside my comfort zone. Along the way, I’ve had to adapt to a new workplace, build new skills, and connect with people from all walks of life. These experiences have taught me the power of collaboration and how much you can learn from those around you. This year has also brought plenty of moments where I felt unsure about my future. But I’ve learned to balance my ambition with self-compassion. It’s okay to take things one step at a time and let your path unfold naturally. Ambition doesn’t mean rushing. It means staying curious and open to exploring unexpected opportunities. Through it all, I’ve had to have tough, honest conversations to advocate for myself and prioritize my well-being. And while those moments were intimidating, they’ve made me stronger and more self-assured. I’m proud of my steps this year to embrace change, lean into uncertainty, and trust that I’m exactly where I’m meant to be.

Lessons on Accepting Change

Change is inevitable, but how we navigate it can make all the difference in our personal growth. Over time, I’ve learned some practical ways to embrace transitions while staying true to myself. One of the first steps is allowing yourself to grieve old chapters. It’s important to acknowledge what you’re leaving behind and give yourself permission to feel the loss. This isn’t about holding onto the past but making space for the new beginnings that lie ahead. Staying present is another key piece of the puzzle. It’s easy to get caught up in future plans or to dwell on past mistakes, but there’s so much value in appreciating now. Whether it’s through journaling, taking a walk, or simply sitting with your thoughts, staying grounded helps us embrace uncertainty with clarity. Change can be scary, but it’s also an exciting opportunity to discover new strengths, meet amazing people, and uncover hidden passions. It’s crucial to lean into these new experiences, even when they feel overwhelming at first. Along the way, don’t forget to stay true to yourself. Sometimes, the hardest lesson is realizing you can’t change others, but you can focus on staying aligned with your values and prioritizing your own needs. If something doesn’t resonate with who you are or where you’re headed, it’s okay to let it go. Growth starts with asking the hard questions. What truly makes you happy, and what are you willing to work for? Finally, it’s important to accept that change is part of life. Resisting it only leads to stress, but embracing it opens the door to resilience and growth. The road ahead may not always be clear, but trusting in the journey, and knowing that each step is part of your evolution, will guide you to the right place.

Conclusion

As I close this chapter of 2024, I feel excitement and gratitude for all the lessons this year has brought. It hasn’t been easy, navigating significant changes never is, but every experience has shaped me into someone more resilient, self-assured, and ready to face whatever comes next. From heartbreak to personal growth, moving to Florida, to rediscovering my independence, I’ve learned that embracing change isn’t just about accepting what’s new. It’s about honouring where you’ve been and trusting yourself to create the future you deserve. I may not know exactly where this next chapter will lead, but I’ve realized that uncertainty isn’t something to fear, it’s something to embrace. Life has a way of working itself out when you show up for yourself and take those risks. So, here’s to stepping into the unknown, staying true to who we are, and finding joy in becoming. Thank you for sharing this journey with me. Let’s make 2025 even better!

Beyond the Election: Women’s Rights and the Path to Empowerment

**Talk of sexual assault

Introduction

Hi friends. Today, I woke up with dread, afraid to even look at my phone. It’s election results day in the U.S., and one glance at the screen would tell me what the next four years might bring, not just for America but for women everywhere. As I fell asleep the night before, the race was close, and I held onto hope. Seeing the results this morning, though, I felt a wave of disheartenment wash over me, especially thinking of all the work women like Kamala Harris put into this campaign. Her strength and refusal to give up until the end inspired me to write this post because she fought so hard, and many of us, even here in Canada, believed in her. As a proud Canadian representing my country at Walt Disney World, I feel grateful to live in a place where equality and human rights are values we strive to uphold. But what troubles me most today is the thought that all the progress women have made over decades, the rights we fought so hard for, could be diminished. It breaks my heart to think of the fear many women across the U.S. might feel, wondering if they’re truly safe in their own country. North America has always felt like a place of freedom, but today, that promise seems more fragile than ever.

Fear of Losing Progress on Women’s Rights

For generations, women have fought relentless battles for rights that should be expected: the right to vote, to earn equal pay, to make decisions about our bodies, and to feel secure in our communities. These hard-earned freedoms are not taken for granted as they result from activism, sacrifice, and resilience from women who refused to be silenced. Yet, as I contemplate the election results today, I fear these rights are more uncertain than ever. Political shifts in the U.S. could reverse years of progress, bringing in policies that undermine our freedoms, remove our protections, and leave many of us hesitant about the future. As a Canadian woman, I am fortunate to live in a country that consistently upholds and protects these rights. However, witnessing these changes in the U.S., I empathize deeply with women who may soon face an uncertain reality. It’s a clear reminder of the critical need to defend our rights everywhere because we should never have to fear losing the equality we’ve fought so hard to achieve.

The Personal Fear and Trauma Women Face

One of the most powerful aspects of Kamala’s campaign was her ability to be vulnerable and genuinely connect with others. She didn’t just speak from a platform. She came down to people’s level, listened, and genuinely saw them. Vulnerability is something we often shy away from, but I’ve learned through facing my past traumas that acknowledging our pain is the only way forward. My experience with sexual assault left me struggling with feelings of powerlessness and shame, often feeling as if it were somehow my fault. Healing from that trauma would have been impossible without the people who stood by me, reminding me that the blame wasn’t mine. It’s strange how trauma works. It can shape your insecurities in ways you don’t fully understand until you confront them. After my assault, I became deeply insecure, questioning my worth and struggling to feel safe. However, as I built relationships with others who were willing to be vulnerable with me, I found the strength to address my trauma head-on. Living in a country where politics sometimes feels like a game, I worry that these essential issues will be brushed aside. We need leaders who will confront problems honestly rather than using them to divide or dismiss. I’ve worked hard to reclaim my confidence and be open about my experiences, and it took vulnerability, support, and a lot of inner work to get here. This country needs that same willingness to face hard truths without fear of what might come next.

Finding Strength and Reclaiming Power

One of the greatest strengths I gained after my assault was resilience, and Kamala’s campaign reminded me so much of that same inner power. Her example empowered me to keep fighting, reinforcing that our fight for rights doesn’t end after an election, it’s an ongoing journey. Setbacks can either break us or make us stronger. Those who face challenges head-on truly rise, while those who avoid them stay stuck. After my experience, I struggled for a long time, unsure how to move forward. But at some point, it clicked for me: the only way my life would change was if I took control and did something about it. Through this, I learned that “no” is never the end of the road. There’s always a way forward when you put your heart into it and surround yourself with people who believe in you. By acknowledging my weaknesses, I’ve learned to transform them into strengths. What I respected most about Kamala was her refusal to pity herself, instead, she held herself accountable, pushing forward regardless of the odds. She symbolizes the strength we all need to keep fighting adversity and working toward a world where every woman is empowered. Never forget that resilience is our strongest weapon when confronting challenges.

The Role of Community and Collective Action

Supportive individuals are crucial in the battle for women’s rights, as they help create a world where everyone feels secure and valued. Strong relationships, including with men who stand with women as advocates, can make a real difference by listening, speaking out against discrimination, and fostering a culture of respect. Communities built on empathy and support can drive lasting change, and having people in my corner who believed in my worth was invaluable in my journey to reclaim my power. I hope this post inspires you to consider how you can support women’s rights in your own way. Small actions, like voting, advocating for equality, or educating yourself and others, are powerful steps forward. None of us need to face these challenges alone. We’re stronger together. Even as a Canadian, I deeply connect with women in the U.S. and worldwide. Their struggles and successes impact us all. Women’s rights transcend borders, and it’s on all of us to protect progress and push for a future where everyone enjoys freedom and safety.

Conclusion

In moments like these, when the future feels uncertain, I find strength in our unity as women and supportive communities across borders. Each of us, whether Canadian, American, or elsewhere, has a role in standing up for and uplifting one another. Sharing my story and engaging in this conversation is my way of reclaiming power. I hope it serves as a reminder that no setback can diminish our progress if we work together. Looking ahead, I’m more determined than ever to continue advocating for women’s rights, holding onto the belief that resilience is our greatest strength. Let’s keep moving forward, knowing that every voice, every action, and every supportive connection strengthens our path toward equality. Together, we can overcome the challenges and create a world where every woman feels safe, empowered, and valued.

From Misunderstood to Empowered: Navigating New Places and Changing Perspectives

Introduction

Hi friends, It's been almost two months since I moved back to Florida, following my career dreams as a Walt Disney World Cast Member. I highlighted how my first Disney International Program shaped me in previous posts. Now, I want to dive deeper into how moving multiple times and adapting quickly to new environments has influenced my future. My first significant move was from the town I grew up in to Toronto, the country's most diverse and populated city. Growing up, Toronto was always exciting for me. I would take weekend trips by myself to meet up with city friends, and my hometown friends would joke about me living a "double life." I didn’t see it that way. I was expanding my horizons beyond my hometown. That taste of city life as a teenager made me want to move there for school, especially knowing that my grandparents also went there. I was torn between Toronto and Vancouver when choosing a school, but I finally chose Toronto because of its energy and connection to my family. However, my first year in Toronto didn’t go as planned. I felt like I had failed my dream of living in the big city. But I realized it’s all about what you make of any experience. I hadn’t set myself up for happiness that first year, but luckily, the opportunity to work at Disney that summer came along, and since then, each step has revealed something new about myself. 

First Impressions and Preconceptions

Growing up, I often clashed in friend groups, and it wasn’t until my twenties that I realized the issue wasn’t me; I hadn’t found people who embraced my strong personality. My mom, an elementary school principal, often talked about how girls are made fun of for simply getting along with everyone. I related to that. I enjoyed hanging out with the boys, not to flirt, but for drama-free friendships, yet I was often labelled as a “flirt.” Throughout middle and high school, I distanced myself from cliques, avoiding daily gossip and drama. In high school, I kept to a small circle of close friends, but when I began socializing more, the people I surrounded myself with made me feel judged. They saw me as loud and obnoxious, which fed my insecurities. Now, though, I’m proud to be dancing in the middle of the floor with my friends! The people who once controlled how I felt are now complimenting me for being open on social media. It’s funny how time changes perspectives. Looking back, I wonder how high school might have been different if we’d all had the life experiences we have now. Moving to Toronto for university felt like high school all over again. I surrounded myself with people who cared about status and materialism, which wasn’t me. Their judgmental nature weighed me down; even my mom noticed a change. But her support and understanding were crucial in my journey. I needed to go through these experiences to find the friends I have now: the ones who lift me, embrace adventure, and encourage me to be unapologetically myself.

Adapting to Different Social Dynamics

As I navigated the social dynamics of a big city like Toronto, I realized the value of authentic connections. Walking into my first lecture, Psychology 100, surrounded by 1,000 students, I felt overwhelmed at the thought of these being just a few classmates. The people I hung out with suggested joining a sorority was the only way to make friends, but that idea felt entirely out of my comfort zone. As a Canadian teenager, my weekends were spent at bush parties, local bars, hockey games, and anything but formal gatherings. I felt entirely out of place when I entered my first sorority rush. Known for my bubbly personality, the lack of authenticity took me aback. Panic set in as I questioned whether this was the only way to find my people. I had always dreamed of leaving my small-town life to explore the city and meet people like me, but I sensed there had to be a better way. Despite my reservations, I kept an open mind and rushed to a sorority. I had faced similar feelings of being out of place when I attended a private school on a scholarship, feeling different from my friends. Travelling from a young age exposed me to authentic cultures, making the materialistic vibe of Toronto challenging to navigate. My mom could see that something was off. I'd come home for weekends feeling anxious and panicked, especially after being dropped off at the train station. I tried my best to engage with others, but I didn’t understand why I wasn’t enjoying my first year like everyone else seemed to be after getting a bid into a sorority. Honestly, my first year was a blur. I blocked much of it out, holding onto the trauma of those experiences to the point where my mom didn’t want me to return. Yet, I was determined to finish the year, and I did! That’s when I got to go to Disney, where I finally met my people. The community at Disney was different. They embraced me for who I am, and I felt a sense of belonging that I hadn't experienced before. This experience at Disney was a turning point in my journey, and it made me realize that the people I encountered in Toronto weren’t meant to be my people, and that’s okay. We all have paths and needs that must be met, and we deserve to be treated with respect, kindness, and happiness. This understanding drives me to make everyone feel welcome and heard, as I know firsthand how hard it is to find yourself.

Breaking Through Judgments and Finding Connection

It’s been a long journey to get to where I am today, and the most challenging part was spending time alone to figure out who I truly am and what fuels my spirit. This process of self-discovery and self-awareness has been enlightening, allowing me to confidently articulate my needs to others and fully embrace myself without pretenses. Ultimately, it comes down to believing in yourself over the voices of doubt and knowing what is true. Disagreeing with others is perfectly okay; we all hold different beliefs and values. What matters most is surrounding yourself with people who align with your principles. If they don’t, you have to be confident enough to walk away, knowing it’s the best choice for you. Recently, I started working at a new location where people have warned me that if I share something, the whole staff will know. However, I trust myself enough to stand my ground. I know how to interact with others and am always willing to lend a hand because I understand what it feels like to be judged. It’s particularly challenging when people say they would never assume anything is wrong with me based solely on my appearance. Often, those who carry the heaviest emotions are battling the most profound inner struggles. We usually want to do so much for those we love that we forget to care for ourselves. It’s crucial never to judge anyone based on their appearance or any diagnoses they may have. You are not that person, and you have no idea what they’ve gone through to become the strong individual they are today. Anyone who attempts to undermine that strength doesn’t deserve a place in your life. By sharing my history with mental health, I hope to encourage others to share their battles as well. It’s hard to feel judged, but we shouldn’t have to live in that fear. The people who love us will never make us feel that way; they will always want us to feel safe and supported. Remember, you know your body and your struggles better than anyone else. The ones who genuinely love you will be there to help you through.

Lessons Learned Across Three Cities

Reflecting on my journey through three cities: my hometown, Toronto, and now Florida, I see how each move has significantly shaped my self-discovery and relationship perspective. Each environment presented unique challenges and opportunities for growth, allowing me to refine my understanding of what I truly value in friendships. In Toronto, I learned the importance of resilience in the face of judgment, discovering that my strong personality is a gift rather than a flaw. My time there taught me to seek out those who appreciate me for who I am rather than trying to fit into preconceived moulds. Moving to Florida as a Walt Disney World Cast Member has further solidified my adaptability and openness as I embrace the diverse personalities and stories around me. Each encounter has broadened my perspective and deepened my appreciation for the uniqueness of each place and the people within it. If I hadn’t participated in this program, I wouldn’t have a best friend from Norway and France today whom I plan to visit! I've realized that meaningful connections thrive in environments where authenticity is valued, and I’m grateful for the lessons learned along the way. Embracing my individuality while appreciating the differences in others has made my journey all the more enriching, and I look forward to where this path of self-discovery will take me next.

Conclusion

Reflecting on my journey through these diverse cities, I realize how each chapter has made me stronger and more self-aware. The challenges I faced taught me resilience, while the friendships I forged helped me understand the importance of surrounding myself with those who embrace my authenticity. I no longer feel the need to conform; I’ve learned to celebrate my bold personality and the unique perspectives of those around me. Each move has deepened my appreciation for the rich tapestry of experiences and cultures and reinforced my belief in the power of genuine connections. As I embark on this next chapter as a Walt Disney World Cast Member, I am filled with excitement and confidence. I look forward to breaking down barriers and thriving in new environments, knowing that I carry the lessons of my past with me. Embracing my true self and remaining open to the adventures ahead, I am ready to make meaningful connections that reflect my journey of self-discovery. Here’s to the next adventure!

The Power of Attitude: A Personal Journey of Growth

Introduction

Hi friends! I know it’s been a while since my last post, but life has been a whirlwind as I settle into my new role. I’m excited to share that for the next twelve months, I’ll be a full-time cast member with the Walt Disney World Experiences Team, working as a Canadian representative at the Canadian Pavilion in Epcot! This opportunity has been a significant part of my growth journey, where I’ve gained so many leadership insights in just over a month. Returning to the Disney groove, the vibrant and energetic atmosphere that is synonymous with Disney, reminded me of one of my favourite traits: my attitude and effort to radiate positivity to those around me.

Embracing change isn’t just a part of my journey; it's the joyous heart of it. I hope this blog gives you a glimpse into my path of embracing change, vulnerability, and confidence and how my attitude has shaped my direction in life.

Learning to Let Go

In previous posts, I’ve shared how, when I was younger, I felt like I had to shrink myself to fit in. Like many of us, I struggled with finding where I belonged and often muted parts of myself to avoid standing out. This feeling is universal: we all go through stages where we need to change who we are to be accepted by others. 

Over the past few years, I’ve realized that letting go of what holds us back is essential for personal growth. We often cling to relationships, self-doubt, or fear of judgment, all of which can stifle our potential. Moving out independently at 18 was one of my most challenging but rewarding decisions. I had to let go of relationships that no longer served me, people who limited my growth by imposing their goals on me rather than supporting my own. This wasn’t easy, but it was necessary to become the person I wanted to be, and I encourage you to do the same in your own life.

Finding My Spark

That first year living independently was tough, but it forced me to confront parts of myself that I had long ignored. I had to deal with loneliness, fear, and uncertainty, but it was also when I found my spark. A pivotal moment came during my first Disney program, a unique and immersive experience that allowed me to be surrounded by like-minded people who shared my positive attitude and ambition. This program was a significant milestone in my journey, as it was where I realized the power of being in an environment that supports growth. We uplifted one another, encouraged each other's dreams, and shared a collective energy that pushed us forward. This experience was life-changing and helped me embrace my potential.

When I returned to Toronto, I carried the mindset and skills I had gained. I switched schools, changed my major, and moved into my apartment. During this time, I adopted my Chihuahua, Moose, who became my constant companion and best friend. All of these changes were steps toward the life I wanted to live, and my attitude played a crucial role in that transformation.

The Journey to Confidence

Since I started living for myself, my life has changed dramatically. People often compliment my confidence, telling me, "Never change!" But here’s the truth: I did have to adjust to become the person I am today. Growing up, I was quiet and reserved, always holding back out of fear of being “too much.” But the spark of who I am was always there; I just didn’t know where or how to express it safely.

The most significant shift happened when I started to embrace vulnerability. I learned that being called “too much” wasn’t a reflection of me; it was a reflection of those who weren’t ready to accept me as I was. The people who matter don’t find me “too much;” they celebrate my energy and personality. Being unapologetically myself has been my greatest strength. 

But expressing your attitude doesn’t mean you must be loud or dominate a room. As Disney cast members say, we’re all "VIPs,” Very Individual Persons. There are countless ways to express your attitude, whether through quiet confidence, kindness, or simply staying true to your values. Your attitude should be an authentic expression of “you.”

Finding Hope Through Vulnerability

In my first year of university, I experienced a difficult period. I disappeared from social media, spent most of my time in my room, and felt uncertain about the future. It was a lonely and anxious time, and I struggled with mental health challenges that felt overwhelming.

Looking back, I realize the people I surrounded myself with didn’t support who I was or wanted to become. It wasn’t until I met friends who truly accepted me, allowing me to be vulnerable, that I began to open up. That vulnerability became the key to unlocking my potential. Complaining about life and feeling stuck didn’t get me anywhere; changing my mindset did. I learned nothing can change unless you’re willing to change your attitude first.

The Importance of Therapy and Self-Work

A pivotal moment in my journey was my decision to take therapy seriously. I remember telling my therapist that all I wanted was a friend to send TikToks to. That might sound small, but it symbolized the more profound loneliness I was experiencing. Slowly, therapy helped me open up and put in the work to heal. This journey of self-work wasn’t just about healing; it was about empowerment. 

My mom has been a constant source of support. She allowed me to be vulnerable but clarified that I had to take responsibility for my growth. She couldn’t do the work for me, but she stood by me as I began to change my outlook on life. That’s one of the most important lessons I’ve learned: having a support system is essential, and it's comforting to know that it's there, but ultimately, the hard work has to come from within.

Overcoming Challenges

At just 20 years old, I’ve faced my share of challenges: moving out, working in a new country, and dealing with personal trauma. This trauma, which I may share more about in the future, was a significant turning point in my journey. Every experience has shaped me into the person I am today. Every mistake has been a learning opportunity, and every difficult situation has taught me to find the positive. I’ve come to realize that my attitude is what has helped me overcome these challenges.

We all face tough times, but comparing our struggles to others won’t help. Everyone has their journey, and focusing on self-awareness can change how you approach life. My grandma recently told me that some lessons I’ve learned are things her friends still haven’t figured out, even at their age. And that’s okay; we’re all on our paths. But I’ve learned that working on your attitude and mindset can make all the difference.

Conclusion

As I continue this journey, I’ve realized that sometimes we have to let go of things, or people, who aren’t willing to grow with us. It’s not easy, but it’s essential for our progress. I’ve learned that attitude is everything. It gets me through the tough days and allows me to spread positivity to those around me. However, having a good attitude doesn’t mean being loud or overwhelming. It means being authentic to yourself. There are countless ways to express attitude, and we’re all unique in how we do it. 

Thank you for reading, and I hope this blog encourages you to reflect on your attitude. Remember, no matter what life throws at you, your attitude will shape how you move forward. Stay true to yourself, and embrace your journey.

Finding Home Again: My Move Back to Florida

Introduction

Hi friends! I know it’s been a while, so much has happened, and I’ve been all over the place! After hopping off a flight from Spain, I packed up my car and hit the road to Florida. Oh, and did I mention that I got into a car accident that demolished Nemo, my beloved orange Subaru? Despite all of that, I’m finally settled into my new home, and as promised, here’s an update on my move to Florida!

My drive to Florida was filled with so many emotions. Surprisingly, none of them were fear. I was confident about what was to come this year because of the strong connections I’ve built here, both through holidays and from living here in the summer of 2023. Even with the twists and turns that led me back to the Sunshine State, I knew it would all be worth it.

A Fresh Start

My first Disney program changed me, or maybe it just helped me uncover the real me. I was surrounded by people with big dreams, ambition, and drive, pushing me to pursue my own goals. Back home, I’d felt stuck in my Niagara bubble, and although I’ll always cherish my roots and the people there, I needed the change. I needed to find “my people”, and the only way to do that was to take that leap into something new.

My mom has always been my rock, especially through the darkest times. It was her encouragement that led me to apply for my first program, even when I didn’t want to think about the future. Now, it’s all I think about, my dreams and what I can accomplish. She’s always been there to brighten my world, and I carry that strength with me as I chase my next chapter.

The Big Move

This time, I was ready. The car was packed, Moose (my emotional support animal) by my side, and it felt like no time had passed since my first road trip to Florida. Keeping the tradition alive, my grandma Hana came along for the ride, paper map in hand. We had a few detours, Daytona and Cocoa Beach were a bit of a blur, but we made it! The 18-hour drive flew by, filled with laughter, family stories, and my grandma’s endless knowledge of American politics (as a Canadian citizen, no less!).

We took a quick pit stop at Cocoa Beach before heading to Disney. I needed that breather, a moment of rest and reflection before jumping back into the magic. Florida holds a special place in my heart, especially because it’s where I made some of my favorite memories with my grandfather. Though his dream of taking me to Disney never came true, my Noni, his ex-wife, made it happen during her battle with stage-four cancer. She was the definition of perseverance, and that’s a trait I’m proud to carry forward.

Moose, My Comfort and Constant

I couldn’t have done any of this without Moose, my ESA (emotional support animal). He’s more than just a pet—he’s my home, my familiar friend, and the best snuggle bug I could ask for. Through all the ups and downs, having him by my side makes everything easier. His presence gives me the comfort I need, and I know I’m never truly alone with him around. I also feel like Dug, my late dog, is watching over us, making sure we’re both okay. Moose makes this new chapter less intimidating because with him, I always feel like I’m home.

Reflecting on Nemo

Nemo, my orange Subaru, was with me during my first journey to Florida. Losing him in the accident felt like the end of an era. But in some ways, it also felt like a full-circle moment. Nemo was part of my story when I first began this adventure, and now I’m starting fresh in a new chapter without him. It’s bittersweet, but it reminds me how far I’ve come. We now have a new car family member, Betty White, the white Subaru.

Settling Into My New Home

Arriving at Flamingo Crossings felt like coming home. I reunited with familiar faces and met so many new ones, some of whom I already know will become lifelong friends. There’s something special about being surrounded by fellow cast members who have worked hard to get here. It feels like a community of dreamers and doers, and that energy is contagious.

When I moved back to the city last year, it was tough because there weren’t many people around who shared that same Disney cast member mindset. But this year, I worked hard on building my brand, especially on LinkedIn, and preparing for my return to Florida. Funny enough, I hadn’t originally planned to come back for a full year. I was aiming for a shorter program with some friends, but after being told I was no longer in consideration, I didn’t give up. Eventually, I got an unexpected offer for the Cultural Representative Program, and I couldn’t have clicked “accept” fast enough!

One of the things I’m most excited about is working the beer cart! It’s a completely different experience, and I’m slowly improving my skills. I never thought I’d be doing something like this, but it’s been a lot of fun learning the ropes and getting better each day. The guests love to make comments on my minimal skills and I’ve also been questioned if I truly am Canadian, apparently I don’t sound like one!

I’ve always loved the company and its values, and even though I don’t know exactly what I want to do yet, I know Disney is part of my end goal. There’s something magical about working here, and it’s helped me see a future I’m excited about. It’s incredible to be part of a company that aligns with my values and inspires me to think big.

Conclusion: The Adventure Continues

So here we are, settled into my new-but-familiar home, adjusting to American living (seriously, why does no one use their indicators here?). My first three months here were the best of my life, and I can’t wait to see where this next year at the most magical place on earth will take me.

If there’s one thing I’ve learned, it’s to stay open to all the opportunities that come your way. You never know where they’ll lead you.

This journey has been full of unexpected twists, but every moment has been a part of the path that led me to where I am now. I’ve learned that no matter the challenges, I can always find my way back to what feels like home. With Moose by my side, my supportive family cheering me on, and the incredible opportunities that await me at Disney, I feel more ready than ever to embrace whatever this year holds.

I’m excited for the growth, the friendships, and the memories that are yet to come. I don’t know exactly where this journey will take me, but I do know that I’m in the right place, where dreams truly do come true. Here’s to making the most of every opportunity, staying open to the magic, and continuing to follow my passion.

Until next time, stay tuned for more adventures from my time at the most magical place on Earth! Can’t wait to dive deeper into my Disney journey in my next post! Stay tuned!

City Nights and Solo Flights: Embracing Single Life and Preparing for What's Next

Introduction

Hi friends! I can't believe we're already nearing the end of summer. It feels like just yesterday I was writing about my plans to embrace single life in the city, and now, here we are, two months later, with a few weeks left to savour. Reflecting on it, it’s been a pretty successful summer. Much of my time was spent working at the mall or glued to my computer, tackling summer courses. I'm happy to say I completed my last final this week and am ready for a small (year-long) break before returning to full-time studies. As many of you might remember from my previous blogs, last summer was about finding myself. This summer was about owning my confidence, being unapologetically myself, and attracting those who share my vibe. I've loved spending time with friends I met in the city this year, reconnecting with friends who visited me from home, and making new connections on nights out.

Embracing Singleness in the City

Last summer, I was immersed in the magic of Walt Disney World, juggling late shifts at Magic Kingdom and making unforgettable memories with new friends. While it was an incredible experience, I had little time to live on my terms. This summer was different; it was my first real taste of independence, living alone, and figuring out who I am for myself. The freedom has been exhilarating, with no one keeping tabs on me. That’s the beauty of being single, having the space to be yourself, with no one questioning your choices or wondering what you’re up to. It's a joyous journey of self-discovery and empowerment, and I want to share this joy with you all.

One of the best parts of this summer has been my new sidekick, Moose! My dog has made living in Toronto on my own so much more secure and fun. He's always there, even if he isn’t thrilled when I roll in during the early morning hours after a night out. I joke with my friends that Moose will meet a few ‘dads’ until we find the right one. I'm not sure if you saw our famous TikTok, but Moose and I went viral this summer! We’re almost at 1.3 million likes because Moose insisted on visiting an ex’s apartment, only to discover that “old dad” wasn’t ready for a relationship. If only dogs could understand that not all men are what they seem! The funniest part? The guy blocked me after the video went viral. But on the bright side, it’s introduced me to some lovely guys who appreciate a girl and her dog’s time.

I’ve also been making the most of my time in the city, soaking up everything Toronto offers, from happy hours on patios to hitting the bars at night, catching Jays games, and meeting people in the craziest scenarios, like running into someone from my hometown that I’ve never met before. I'm always open to trying new things, whether spontaneous nights out or meeting new people. I’ve built a solid friend group I love going out with; they're single, too, so we have a blast together. They're a bit older, so they've taught me the dos and don’ts of city life and how to know our worth. We’ve had nights dancing on tables, running down the city streets at 4 a.m., and living life to the fullest. 

This summer has been about embracing the freedom and empowerment of being single. I’ve used this time to focus on myself, rediscover my passions, and explore the city on my terms. Whether spontaneous adventures, late-night conversations, or new friendships, every experience has helped me grow and find joy in this chapter of my life.

Strengthening Connections and Expanding Horizons

Being single can sometimes feel lonely, but the strong foundation I've built with my friends reassures me that I won’t be alone forever. Embracing my independence and becoming more confident has drawn like-minded people into my life. I’ve realized that taking care of myself in all aspects empowers me to be selective about the relationships I choose, and only those that align with my future goals are worth my time and energy.

When a guy tells me he isn’t ready for a relationship or is seeing other people, I’m at peace with it. I know who I am, and I’m confident that people will value me for all I am without the need for competition or ego boosts. This summer, I’ve embraced spontaneity, gone out with no expectations, and danced freely, which led me to meet some incredible people. These encounters often sparked deep conversations about life goals and personal growth, which I value deeply. These conversations have inspired and motivated me, reminding me of the importance of meaningful connections in our lives, and I hope they inspire you too.

Being single has also given me the freedom to spend more quality time with my friends. I’ve had more “dates” with friends this summer than anyone else, and I wouldn’t trade that for the world. I love our girls’ nights (with a few close guy friends included) and treasure our deepened bonds. It’s comforting to know that I have a circle of people to lean on and share life with, no matter what.

Reflecting on these experiences, I see how they’ve shaped who I am today. It hasn’t been easy to open up to men, especially given my past experiences with sexual assault and emotional abuse. But I’m proud of my progress in allowing myself to be open to new relationships, something I couldn’t have imagined last year. Back then, I clung to relationships because they felt “safe,” but leaving them was the best decision for me. Taking risks, stepping out of my comfort zone, and meeting like-minded individuals have shown me that I have time to enjoy being young and, as my older friends remind me, to have fun. There’s lots of time for boy drama.

As I prepare for new solo adventures, I’m excited about the future and the connections yet to be made. The anticipation of what's to come is a thrilling part of the journey, and I can't wait to see where it leads. Stepping into this new chapter, I’m ready to embrace the unknown and welcome the opportunities ahead.

Preparing for Solo Adventures

Sitting on my bed on my last night in the big city, I’m filled with anticipation for what’s yet to come. There’s a sense of security within me now, a readiness for the challenges ahead. I’ve embraced the mindset of “let them,” understanding that you have to be your first priority at the end of the day. If you don’t love yourself fully, you can’t offer genuine love to others; instead, it reflects your insecurities and ego. It’s taken me time to reach this point, but the air is clearer now. I finally feel like I’ve found myself and am ready to take on whatever comes my way.

I’m setting off on my first solo trip to Europe this week, with Spain as my destination! Travelling has always been a passion of mine. I never grew up obsessed over a sport or playing an instrument; instead, I’ve always had an insatiable desire to see the world and try new things; try everything. This solo trip is a dream come true, and I know it’s just the beginning of many more adventures on my own. My last trip was to Cuba, where I met so many wonderful friends. I earned the nickname "the hub" because of how I brought everyone together, and it was so fulfilling to be that connection point. Just today, someone called me a "breath of fresh air," and when people give me those compliments, it means so much. I can’t wait to spread my love in other parts of the world and experience different cultures.

Travelling alone feels like a natural extension of the journey I’ve been on, embracing singleness and independence, learning to trust myself, and finding joy in my own company. Reflecting on my experiences in Toronto, from the spontaneous nights out to quiet moments of introspection, I realize how much this city has prepared me for this next significant chapter. I’ve honed my skills and built a strong sense of self, and now I’m ready to explore the world with an open heart.

After that, I’ll be gearing up for my big move to Florida once I return! Unlike last year, I have no fears about moving this time. Florida feels like home now. So many people I love, and cherished memories are tied to that place, and I can’t wait to create even more. With Moose by my side, I’m excited to spread the love and embrace this new chapter with familiar faces and new adventures. The journey from Toronto to Florida, with a detour through Spain, is one I’m eager to embark on. It’s a continuation of the themes that have defined my year: growth, discovery, and pursuing what makes me feel most alive.

Conclusion

Reflecting on this summer, I’m grateful for the journey I’ve been on: embracing singleness, deepening connections, and discovering more about myself. It’s been a season of growth filled with laughter, new memories, and a renewed sense of independence. As I embark on my solo trip to Spain and eventually move to Florida, I carry the lessons I learned and the confidence I gained from my time in the city. I’m excited about what’s ahead and open to the possibilities that await. Here’s to new adventures, cherished moments, and the thrill of what’s yet to come. Thank you for tagging along with me!

Memories in the Making: Preparing to Move to Florida

Introduction 

Hi friends! As most of you know, I’m just a month away from my big move down south for the year. I’ve gratefully accepted my second internship with the Walt Disney Company, and this time, I’m honoured to take on the new title of Canadian representative. This position is not easy to earn, especially since I’m still completing my studies and will be the youngest in the group. But in my family, we don’t miss out when opportunity knocks. I'm filled with anticipation and excitement for this new chapter in my life, and I can't wait to share it with all of you.

This summer, I’ve been feeling a whirlwind of emotions, and I tend to pick up on the energy around me. My Grandpa (Sneaky Snake) and my Nonni were two extraordinary people I lost suddenly within a year when I was just five. It was a tough age to experience loss, as it’s the time when memories start to stick. But while I remember the family arguments, the hospital visits, and attending two funerals as the only grandchild, the happy memories shine through the dark. Those memories are deeply rooted in Florida, which is why the place holds such a strong emotional pull on me. And hey, it seems like Florida can’t get enough of me. A three-month visa wasn’t enough, haha!

Florida: A Place of Memories

It all started when I was a baby; my grandpa owned a condo on Fort Myers Beach, where most of my fondest memories were made with him. One of my earliest memories is of us winning the sand sculpture competition with our creation, “Emvicous,” a sea monster that wasn’t necessarily the best. Still, we won anyway because my family signed up for the kids' competition. Even though I was just a baby, I was the only kid present! I’m so grateful my mom, like most parents from my generation, had a VCR and recorded those moments. It’s such a gift to have those tapes, to laugh and still feel his presence.

It’s incredible how much nostalgia can bring back. I can still remember the salt air, the feeling of sandy feet walking from the beach back to our condo, and the time my Nonni spent hours searching the ocean for my favourite Minnie Mouse ring. I never got that ring back, but my mom asked a friend to bring another one back from Disney, and I made sure to wear it to both of my interviews with Disney. My last trip with both of my grandparents is my most cherished memory. When I first met my therapist, she asked me what the best day of my life was, and the first thing that came to mind was my time spent with my grandparents in Florida. When I asked her what those questions helped with, she said that my answer revealed that family is my priority, and that is true. My family has built a strong foundation for me to grow on, and I’m forever grateful for that. Even though my grandparents are no longer here, 15 years later, they still drive me to reach my goals, and I am deeply grateful for their influence on my life and career.

Now, my mom is in Florida, visiting all our favourite spots. Unfortunately, the hurricane last year took down many of them, but they are slowly reopening. My favourites were The Mucky Duck, The Bubble Room, and The Lazy Flamingo. I also loved a good round of animal-themed mini golf, and there was nothing better than driving with the top down, except when I lost my pink bucket hat and made my mom pull over on the side of the highway to retrieve it! As I get ready to move down to Florida, I can’t help but feel like I’m coming full circle.

The Presence of Loved Ones

At age 5, saying goodbye to two of the most influential people in my life was hard. That year, I took a memorable trip with both of them—one that I will cherish forever and hope to tell my kids about one day. My grandparents were divorced; this was my grandpa’s second marriage, so Nonni was my step-grandma, but she felt like blood. My mom and Nonni had a very close relationship, as Nonni was there for most of my mom’s upbringing. Nonni was Italian, so it was nice to have some Italian blood on this side of the family. During our last trip together, they were dealing with a messy divorce. I will never forget the crossover at the airport, waving goodbye to my grandpa and then walking over to the arrival gate to pick up Nonni. Even though my family had so much bitterness, the love overpowered it.

Both of my grandparents were tough cookies: my grandpa was a judge, and Nonni was a lawyer. They were both young and fit, which made it even harder to believe they were gone. It’s crazy to think that Nonni was my mom’s age when she lost her battle with cancer. My grandpa’s cancer was very sudden; he was diagnosed shortly after that trip we had. Florida was the last time I saw them both, as I remember them, my Sneaky Snake and my Nonni. My grandpa was a jokester who loved to scare me, and Nonni loved taking me shopping and on breakfast dates. One of my favourite memories is when Nonni asked for a cappuccino at the princess breakfast in the castle, and the waiter returned and said, “This is just your average castle, ma'am.”

Signs and Symbolism

Splash Mountain is a ride that holds special memories for me, and I’m excited to go on the newly renovated version, now themed after “The Princess and the Frog.” When I returned to Disney at 12, seven years after my trip with Nonni, I could remember that trip as if no time had passed, and I understood why Walt Disney created this place. I will forever cherish the picture from that ride. I was scared, but I put my arms up, and Nonni’s wig flew off, so she had to rock a Minnie ball cap for the rest of the trip. Every time my mom and I return, we laugh about these memories. 

I haven’t returned to Fort Myers since, and I think that will be hard. I had a close connection to my grandpa, and I don’t know how to explain it because I only knew him for five short years. My mom shares her memories with him, and I feel like I’m in the room. I even followed in his footsteps by going to of, though weirdly, I think he was trying to tell me to “get out of there.” He lived in the same residence building as me, which is where most of my trauma occurred. My sign from him is a snake. I don’t know how it started, but his name to me has always been Sneaky Snake, and whenever I see a snake, I know it’s him.

I’ll never forget my mom telling me that she talked to Sneaky Snake about feeling bad that he wouldn’t see me the first time at Disney because he took my mom all those times when they went to Florida together. She remembers him saying, “I have all the time in the world; Diane (Nonni) doesn’t.” Unfortunately, he passed away six months before her, so he never got to take me, but I always felt his presence around me. His favourite ride was the Carousel of Progress, so I always visit it. As I prepare for this move, I can’t help but feel that they are guiding me every step of the way.

Looking Forward to New Beginnings

Packing up and moving always brings a mix of emotions. There’s the excitement of starting something new and the weight of leaving behind familiar places and faces. As I prepare to move to Florida, it feels like a reunion with my past, filled with cherished memories of my grandparents and the special moments we shared. At the same time, it’s a step into my future, where I create new memories and experiences in a place that has always felt like home.

This transition is bittersweet. I’m thrilled to be returning to a place that holds so much meaning for me, but I’m also nostalgic for the times that have passed. Yet, I find comfort in knowing that the memories of my grandpa and Nonni will be with me, guiding me as I embark on this new adventure. They’ve always been my driving force, and their presence will continue to inspire me as I take on this next chapter.

I’m filled with hope and excitement as I look forward to this move. I’m eager to continue my family's traditions, and I’m honoured to be part of the magic as a Cast Member at Disney. Being able to make magical memories for guests is something I cherish deeply because, without us, the magic simply can’t happen. I’m ready to embrace both the past and the future, carrying the love and lessons of my grandparents with me as I start this new adventure in Florida.

Reflections on Toronto with Moose: From City Streets To Summer Solitude

Introduction

Hi friends! As I started to wrap up my summer here in the city, it was the perfect time to reflect on a truly transformative season. This summer, I explored nature, embraced solitude, and found inspiration in the simplest moments. It’s been a journey of practicing mindfulness and setting future intentions, all while having my loyal Chihuahua, Moose, by my side.

In previous blogs, I've shared the ups and downs of my life post-secondary, but these past few months have been a whole new relief. Without the weight of events threatening my mental well-being, I've been able to enjoy time with my loved ones and reflect on what I've learned since moving out of my family home. This summer, work and summer school have kept me busy as I complete a semester before moving for the year. Work has been a great way to get me dressed up and out of the house daily.

I've cherished my first summer living in the city in my free time. From countless walks around the town with Moose to religiously attending Jay's games, enjoying occasional beach days, and indulging in many happy hours, this summer has been about finding balance and joy in everyday life. These experiences have profoundly impacted my mental health, creativity, and personal growth, and I'm excited to share more about them with you.

Exploring Toronto’s Nature Spots

Although you may think there's little greenery in the city, spending more time here and having the freedom to explore different locations has been worth it. With Moose, I'm pushed to leave my house 1-3 times daily. Our go-to spot is the Berczy Park Dog Fountain, a quiet greenery escape surrounded by towering buildings. We've also enjoyed our visits to the lakeshore, watching the ferries take off to the island, and planes soar to unknown destinations.

Another hidden nature getaway is Toronto Island. I visited it for the first time since I was a baby, and I accused my mom of never taking me, but she swears we went when I was little! Escaping the city's hustle and bustle was refreshing, knowing it was just a 10-minute boat ride away. Tanning on the beach with friends while seeing the city skyline was a great way to spend a day off; I could even see Niagara in the distance in the other direction!

Toronto has several parks and natural spots that have become my favourites. With its charming dog fountain, Berczy Park is a retreat for us. Moose and I have had many memorable adventures there, and it's become our little urban oasis away from home. Our lakeshore visits have been equally delightful, offering stunning views and a peaceful atmosphere.

These moments of escaping city life and enjoying a change of scenery have been more than just enjoyable. They've been a lifeline for my mental health, providing clarity and inspiration. The natural environment has been a catalyst for my creativity and productivity, making this summer a transformative experience in more ways than one. I hope my experiences inspire you to prioritize your well-being and seek out similar nature escapes.

The Art of Solitude

Few of my friends live alone. Initially, living alone was nerve-racking, but with Moose by my side, I quickly adapted and even began to enjoy it. Returning to living with roommates will be challenging, especially since I don’t know who they will be. However, I am grateful to bring Moose as my emotional support, much like Dug was for me last year.

Last year, our apartment had four girls and three dogs, and it couldn’t have been crazier! Each living experience offers valuable lessons, and my older roommates last year better prepared me to live alone. Before that, I only lived alone in a university dorm room, always escaping to sleep in my bed.

When people ask if I mind living alone, I can honestly say I don’t. Moose motivates me to leave the house, and I’ve built strong connections with coworkers who have become friends. I’m grateful for my talkative personality, which makes it easy for me to make friends wherever I go.

Having a strong foundation around me has allowed me to feel safe and comfortable. I cherish this alone time because I don’t get to enjoy it often. Whenever I feel down about not seeing anyone, I remind myself to cherish the moment because who knows when I might meet my future husband!

Spending alone time in the city has pushed me out of my comfort zone. I’ve had to do things I used to ask my mom to do for me, like calling the doctor and dentist. Watching her raise me independently set an expectation for me to do everything myself. This summer, I've learned the difference between loneliness and solitude. I don’t feel alone anymore; I felt more alone when surrounded by people who didn’t care for my goals.

Building my solitude has been a journey of self-discovery and empowerment. It’s about finding people who share my goals and values and setting boundaries with those who don’t. Being authentic has attracted like-minded individuals, or even exact opposites, from whom we've learned and grown. Navigating personal, family, friend, and work issues has been challenging, but it's all part of life's journey to reach our true selves.

Spending time alone in the city has been a profound experience. I’ve explored new places, met new people, and discovered parts of myself I didn’t know existed. Reflecting on the difference between loneliness and solitude has been eye-opening. Loneliness is a feeling of emptiness, while solitude is a state of being content with oneself.

Solo adventures have led to significant self-discovery and growth. I’ve learned to appreciate my own company and enjoy the little things. These experiences have shaped my perspective, teaching me resilience, independence, and the value of true companionship. Through solitude, I’ve learned that personal growth often comes from within and that being alone doesn’t mean being lonely.

Moments of Mindfulness

In Toronto, you can never get bored. Each block is completely different from the other. At the same time, Moose and I could walk the same route daily and still find something new each time. When people ask why I enjoy the busy city life, I say it grounds me. Walking through the city, I can reflect and look around, seeing other pedestrians, cars passing by, and animals following behind their owners. Each person has a different story that has brought them to this point. Even though most of my friends and family don’t live near me, I never really feel alone when I’m out and about in the city. Each time I step out, I always have some sort of interaction!

My favourite interactions are the ones with Moose. Seeing people glance up from their phones for two seconds or tap their partner on the shoulder to look at the fluffy little Chihuahua always brings joy to my face, especially when cars roll down their windows and yell out how cute Moose is. There are special moments where I can tell someone needed some time with a cuddly little guy. Hearing their life stories or about their past pets always means so much. People have even shed a tear while cuddling him and sharing their stories. I’ve even gotten closer with some of my coworkers by bringing Moose to the store. 

Life is so hard nowadays and constantly changing, but I’ve learned from being a dog parent that they slow us down and keep us grounded. They have nowhere else to be than in that moment with their person, unconditionally trusting them. I feel pretty sad as I write this blog because Moose isn’t snuggled up next to me. He’s at home visiting with my mom. I’ve had to use my other mindfulness tactics. As I said, my walks in the city are always unique, and I always come back with a story or sometimes a shopping bag or Starbucks cup.

Journaling and sitting in my thoughts have been something I’ve had to become better at. It’s hard to reflect on our flaws, but once we reach that point, we can assess what needs to change and accept that some things don’t need to change, and some do. We need to put ourselves first and choose our values. Everyday moments and interactions in Toronto inspire my creative work. Mundane moments often spark new ideas, and I’ve learned to find inspiration in the ordinary.

Mindfulness has been a significant part of my summer activities. Being present has made a considerable difference, allowing me to connect with my surroundings and appreciate the beauty of life's simple joys. These experiences have fueled my passion and drive in the creative industries, reminding me of the importance of finding inspiration in everyday life.

Setting Intentions for the Future

As I’ve finally settled into my routine in the city, I am uprooting again! But to be honest, I like always being on the go. Most of my family is like that, always trying out new things. My dad went from being a teacher to getting into medical school, earning his master’s degree, and now, his career in law enforcement. My mom began her career as a principal at a very young age, even before she had me, which was a difficult spot to get at that time. She then earned her master’s and tried to pick up a second over COVID. But even a superwoman can’t do it all! Despite this, her dream career was to be a flight attendant, and still is to this day. So, my career possibilities were endless while I was growing up.

My reflection journey has shown me that whatever I want to do in this life is up to me and no one else. My mindset has changed to where I am only working to meet my expectations, and so should you. Once we start focusing on our own lives, that’s when self-reflection and change happen. Looking into other people's lives truly mirrors those qualities within yourself.

I am so proud of the growth I’ve encountered living as a single female in the city, managing for myself and my dog. It didn’t happen overnight to build this security within myself, and I’m sure there will be more bumps along the way. But knowing I am capable of taking care of myself and understanding my worth, I attract and keep like-minded individuals around me. This summer has been a joy because I’ve let go of people who aren’t interested in mutual growth and have invested time in myself and those who are genuinely happy for my success as I am for theirs.

I fear what this new chapter brings with my move back to Florida. This time, I am returning with my head held high, coming in as my most authentic self, no holding back. I am excited to be surrounded by like-minded cast members seeing their drive. That inspired me last year and makes me want to continue working with the company. The opportunities and dreams are endless. The connections I have made are ones I will cherish, and I look forward to more I will make and more insights I will gain over the next 12 months.

Reflecting on my goals and intentions for the upcoming months, I plan to focus on personal and professional growth. My summer experiences have shaped these intentions by teaching me the value of self-reflection and authenticity. I look forward to achieving new milestones and am confident that my summer journey has prepared me well for these future goals.

Conclusion

This summer has been a profound journey of joy, solitude, and inspiration with Moose. Reflecting on my experiences, I’ve realized the importance of finding balance and happiness in everyday life, exploring nature, embracing solitude, and practicing mindfulness. These simple yet powerful moments have significantly improved my mental health, creativity, and personal growth.

Nature spots in Toronto, like Berczy Park and Toronto Island, have provided peaceful escapes from the city’s hustle and bustle, offering clarity and inspiration. The art of solitude has pushed me out of my comfort zone, teaching me resilience, independence, and the value of true companionship. Mindfulness has been a crucial part of my summer activities, allowing me to connect with my surroundings and appreciate the beauty of the mundane.

As I set intentions for the future, I am proud of the growth I’ve encountered and the lessons learned. I look forward to achieving new milestones and embracing new opportunities with an open heart. My summer journey has prepared me well for the next chapter, and I am excited about what lies ahead. With Moose by my side, I am grateful for the experiences and the insights gained, and I am ready to embark on new adventures and continue growing personally and professionally.

My Year in Toronto: Skills for the Creative Workplace

Introduction

Hi friends! I hope you are all enjoying your summer so far! As most of you know, I am returning to Florida to participate in another Disney internship for the year. Recently, while filling out paperwork to start my job as a cast member again, I had to decide what city to put on my nametag. Since I don’t live at home anymore and we’ve moved to a new town, I mainly spend my time in Toronto. I texted my mom, asking what city I should use, and she said, “You’re a city girl right now.” So, city girl it is!

I wanted to reflect on my life in Toronto and start up with my furry friend, Moose. I've lived in Toronto for two years, but I've had a soft spot for the city since I was younger when my mom and I would play hookey to go shopping and see a musical or on school trips to the ROM my friends, and I still talk about today. I have always loved the vibrancy of the city: every block, person, style, and building is unique. It's an excellent place for someone who is neurodivergent and needs different things to focus on. I get distracted, often wandering off and exploring new markets, parks, cafes, and more.

My first year in the city was challenging, which I've reflected on in previous blogs, and now it feels like I’m living in a whole new city. This year, I took the necessary steps forward and made some tough decisions to find my niche, and I did. It took some time, but everything changed once I reached that point. I've met many great friends in my classes who share the same drive, and we're always learning and growing from each other. My friends like to say I'm a LinkedIn connoisseur. Everything clicked once I found my people, Moose, my safe space (my apartment), and my retail job, where I gained excellent customer service skills and made terrific friends. Reflecting on how living in Toronto has shaped my skills for the creative workplace, I realize how much my experiences at Disney and my academic transition have inspired me.

My Transition from Life Sciences to Creative Industries

My whole life, I always thought I would end up in math and sciences. I have no idea why because my entire family consists of educators and in-laws, so I’m not sure where the dream came from! I enjoyed math and sciences more when I liked sticking to a rigid lesson plan and not stepping outside the box. I liked that I had to listen and learn from someone else and then apply the work. Plus, there was never any public speaking in math class!

On the other hand, I also loved the arts growing up, but it wasn’t emphasized much in school. In high school, I had some work featured in art shows and got to expand on my creativity, but still in a very rigid way where I couldn’t do my own thing. I also loved the idea of helping others. It would have involved travelling if I had worked in the medical field. Travelling at a young age and volunteering in developing countries inspired me. So, when it came time to decide what I wanted to do in university, I chose the sciences, but I never felt confident with that answer. Reflecting, I know I could entirely stick through, but it wasn’t for me, and I wasn’t happy. Despite my determination, I stuck it out for the first year, and that was enough.

When I started university, it felt like everyone around me was having the time of their life, what college was supposed to be about. If you've struggled with mental illness, you know it’s hard to be around people who don’t understand it. I always put myself down when I heard stories of others and their successes and felt like I had nothing to bring to the table. But I also know real friends would never want to make me feel as insecure as I did last year. My turning point was my summer at Disney. If you remember, I was very fearful of starting my program and only applied because my mom told me about it and encouraged me to do so. I wouldn’t have made it without my best pal, Dug, my late rescue dog, who accompanied me on the journey. The feeling was surreal when I got to Florida; it was like a switch flipped in me, and I was home. I applied for my second program only a month into my first one! The people I met were like-minded and had even more drive than me. I surrounded myself with older individuals with more life experience than me. I met the big sisters I never had growing up and gained the self-love I needed. I was always giving love to others but was so burnt out because I was never receiving it back. Once I knew these friendships existed and there were people like me, returning to Toronto was easy for me to meet and know when it was time to let go. My determination to pursue my dreams was unwavering, and I hope my journey inspires you to do the same.

Reflecting on My Academic Experiences in Toronto

Comparing the courses I've taken this year to those from last year, I’ve been enlightened in many ways and have made inquiries about our society. I've taken various creative courses like graphic design, fashion, music, business, and marketing to help me further grow my skills in the creative industry. It amazes me to discover all the career options I never knew about in high school and that there is no limit to what you can do. I've learned much about cultural diversity in the industry, and working with the Walt Disney Company has shaped my perspective. Disney is a great place to work in terms of diversity. They run the best international programs within the states, such as Disney on the Yard for HBCU students and international programs where people from their respective countries come to represent themselves at the park, like me!

When I was at Disney, my coworkers asked so many questions about diversity within Toronto, making me realize how lucky I am to have grown up with such diversity around me. It shocked me to have only lived in the States for three months and to see the cultural differences. I’m excited to bring my open mind and willingness to learn about new cultures to Florida, where I can educate guests about why Canada is so great! All the courses I have taken this year are practical and skills I will need to know for my future. They have shown me the business side of creativity and how all aspects work together. Creativity extends beyond just the fine arts, and so many careers exist. I’ve also enjoyed being on LinkedIn and connecting with like-minded individuals. I’ve learned a lot from posts, followed new leaders, and found inspiration for my blog and future careers.

Taking a Pause and Returning to Disney

As I’m sure you’ve heard from me before, I am a cast member at Disney! Last year, I participated in the Cultural Exchange Program and will start my Cultural Representative Program in the fall. It’s a funny story because I originally applied to only go for the summer, forgetting I had also used for the year-long program, which is significantly more challenging to get into since we are only there for a year. There are only three work locations in Epcot, Canada. The Cultural Representative Program has been a program I’ve known about my whole life, dreaming of doing it but never thinking I’d get it. I assumed it would be more about knowing someone to get in. The second time around, I was dying to hear if I got into my second summer program with my friends when I checked the application portal to see if I was “no longer in consideration” for the Cultural Exchange Program. I was in complete shock. None of my friends in Florida could believe it. “You are the face of Disney,” they would say, haha. They are not wrong. I can keep this smile on my face 24/7. I have always been a Disney girl, and everyone knows it. So, if you know me, I’m not giving up if I want something. I knew Disney was where I wanted to work in the future, and I was getting back with the company somehow, some way.

It took me about three emails, reaching out to a few recruiters on LinkedIn, and finally getting the answer I sought. I am only allowed to interview for one program each year, and they had put me in the running for the year program instead, but I had the option. I immediately answered yes to the year! I didn’t even discuss it with my mom; I am only in my second year and will take a year off school. Luckily, she was on board, and I think she’s pretty pumped for a year of Disney visits. Last year, I worked in my dream location, Main Street, USA. You know, the pretty street with the castle at the end? Yeah, that one. I guess Walt was right when he said dreams do come true. I had the best three months of my life. It was challenging work, but what do you expect when working with the most well-known company worldwide? I had sleepless nights, blood, sweat, and tears, but those moments were worth everything to be on stage as a cast member, seeing the spark of magic in kids’ eyes or joking with the tired parents at the end of the day who just want their candy apple after the fireworks. Each guest experience was so unique to me. Or when other cast members would recognize your hard work and give you a cast compliment. I think that is the best thing about Disney: the support network of cast members and the shared experiences. 

I am so excited to return for a year and work in a different park, Epcot, in the Canadian pavilion. I have no clue what to expect; it is a whole new adventure for me, but after taking risks already, I know the rewards are worth it, and I am ready for the skills I will gain to help further my career and inspire others with my journey.

Owning Your Personality

When people ask me what I want to do in the future, career-wise, I never have a clear answer. But I do know that I want to work with people. I cherish my ability to connect with others personally and maintain an open mind when meeting and working with them. My manager at work jokes that she can hear me from the back room when I'm welcoming guests, and to be quite honest, I come home with a new Instagram follower at least once a week. I love learning about others and what they have to offer. I'm so interested in how our lives diverge into moments where we meet. I know people have left lasting impacts on me in public, and I want to do the same.

I used to hang out with people who were “embarrassed” by my loud personality, and it was unbelievable that once I stopped spending time around them, I attracted people who cherished my personality. I told my friend last summer I had never been so happy and had so many genuine laughs; I felt like a child again. She told me it was maybe because I had to protect myself and be the adult in most situations, putting my guard up, and now I finally felt safe to do whatever I wanted. It's true! I've learned that my personality propels me forward.

Most connections I have made through LinkedIn are just conversations I've had in public, so I always emphasize dressing and feeling your best; you never know who you will run into. When I was at Disney a few years ago, I was in a pink workout set and noticed a lovely couple on a ride. Later that day, we ran into them again! The lady said she saw me and that I stood out to her. It turned out she was a significant PR professional in Toronto. I knew nothing about PR then, but it all fell into place when I spoke to her at Disney about the career path I happen to be in today.

During job interviews, I always make sure to stand out. For my first Disney interview, I wore pink pants, and this time, I went all out with a pink power suit. The recruiter and I chatted about “Legally Blonde” for about half the time, and at the end, he said, "Never change who you are." Every time someone tells me that, it drives me more. I knew I was born to be authentic and not follow the lines. Once I broke free from my box and had the freedom, I couldn't go back.

Conclusion

Reflecting on my year in Toronto and the experiences that have shaped me, I am grateful for the growth and opportunities that have come my way. Living in Toronto has not only broadened my cultural understanding but also honed my skills for the creative workplace. From exploring diverse courses in graphic design, fashion, and business to forging meaningful connections with like-minded individuals, each experience has prepared me for my career aspirations.

Looking forward, I eagerly anticipate my return to Disney for another chapter in my journey. Joining the Cultural Representative Program at Epcot's Canadian pavilion is a new adventure that promises to enrich my skills and perspective further. I am ready to embrace the challenges and rewards that lie ahead, confident in the lessons I've learned and the growth I've achieved.

To anyone on a similar path, I encourage you to embrace your unique journey, pursue your passions wholeheartedly, and never underestimate the power of authenticity. Every experience, whether challenging or joyful, contributes to your personal and professional growth. Keep learning, exploring, and striving for what makes you truly fulfilled.

As I embark on this next chapter, I am excited to continue sharing my journey and insights. Thank you for being a part of my story!

Flying Solo: Embracing Singleness This Summer

Introduction:

Hi friends, sorry it's been a while. Summer school is definitely not for the weak! I didn’t know what I was getting myself into when I decided to take a full course load. But this topic has been weighing on me and is a central point of discussion as summer has begun: let's talk about being single in the summer.

If you've read my previous blogs, you know by now that I'm a pretty independent single woman and have been my whole life. I was raised by a single mom and was surrounded by strong female figures growing up. My mom chose not to share her dating life with me, making me her sole focus. I never had to witness toxic love because, even though she was one person, she was able to give me the unconditional love I understand today. Seeing my mom do it all alone meant I had to work just as hard for myself. I was my babysitter by age 9, “attempting” to have dinner ready, usually forgetting to put the chicken in the oven (sorry, Mom!).

As the years have passed, I've embraced my single life but have always been open to dating. Seeing my mom's high standards and how easily she could let go of a guy, I know my way around the dating game. So once again, this summer, I will be embracing being single and the exciting possibilities it holds. This journey of self-discovery and the joy it brings is something I want to inspire you all with.

The State of Dating Today:

Dating in our generation feels like my worst enemy. If you've read my previous blogs, you know I love romantic books and binge rom-coms. Growing up as quite the Disney princess didn’t help with setting my expectations either, so I’ve made it pretty difficult for these men. But I want you to know, you're not alone in this. We're all navigating the complexities of modern dating, and it's okay to feel this way. I thought living in a big city would make meeting people easy, but I find it the hardest. I’d much rather have plenty of fish in the sea than have a dating reunion with my hometown, where everyone finds everything out. In Toronto, I can explore my options without outside opinions until I’m ready to introduce someone. I’ve learned that once I talk about the guy, it becomes a curse, and I jinx it. This ability to set my own pace and boundaries in dating has given me a sense of control and confidence. So, how do we date these days? 

The most straightforward answer is dating apps. I’ve tried them all: Hinge, Tinder, Bumble, and I haven't left the house once! The appeal isn't there for me; I’m all about first impressions. As a hopeless romantic, I hope I don't have to say I met my soulmate on Tinder. But it’s been fun swiping left or right. I've had decent conversations with guys, which has helped me realize the traits I want in a future relationship. I’ve made it a mission to myself to go on a few dates this summer, even though it’s hard to believe I've never been on an actual date! I ask my friends how they go out with someone new every week. Is it not awkward? What if they aren’t the same in person? The main answer I get is, "The free food is great," haha. But in all seriousness, I don't think my social anxiety could handle meeting a guy I met online. Or maybe my mom just showed me too many crime documentaries growing up.

Embracing change and my fears this year is a significant step in the right direction. Another favourite when it comes to dating in our generation is Snapchat. An app that has never been a good thing for any relationship I’ve been in. The toxicity of “secret” snaps, checking Snap Maps, best friends lists, and leaving someone on "delivered" or, as we like to call it, “ghosting,” is exhausting. Many people who use the app have something they want to call a “roster,” where we have many options in the dating pool, which is the hit thing of our generation, and I’m tired of it. Sure, in high school, it was great; it built some tough skin and taught me how to speak up. But now, I’m ready for something real, and a snap a day of a mirror selfie at the gym that you're probably sending to your whole best friends list isn’t cutting it anymore. I also tire of looking presentable for the camera daily and sending photos where the conversation will lead nowhere! Frankly, it takes the fun out of the app. I prefer posting silly things for my friends to see instead of worrying if he is active now and hasn’t responded to me. These little things genuinely take a toll on you regarding dating, and it has now turned more into games. 

This summer, I decided I wouldn’t be using Snapchat as a platform to talk to guys. Instagram isn’t much better, but I find it more accurate because it is all laid out there with nothing hiding. I love stalking a guy's grid and showing it to the girls over drinks. I appreciate when guys respond to stories and engage in a conversation. There's no avoiding technology and dating today, but there are ways to use it correctly for your well-being. Focus on yourself first and your needs, and choose what you’re comfortable using on your phone for dating.

Navigating Situationships:

If you're on TikTok, you’re probably familiar with the term “situationship.” It's a relationship without labels, which makes sense for our generation. We’re all busy figuring out our own lives, and adding labels can feel like added stress. But a good relationship shouldn't be something you have to stress about. I think that's why I'm still single: I try to avoid situationships because I'd instead invest that time into myself. The term "situationship" has become synonymous with toxicity. These undefined relationships can drag on for months, going nowhere. It's strange to think that when our parents were our age, they often had stable relationships without our current serial dating culture.

As much as you want to avoid situationships, they’re hard to escape. Unfortunately, many guys are all talk, and when it comes time for the “what are we?” conversation, they aren't ready. I’ve learned that it’s time to step away if they aren't prepared. Relationships shouldn't add extra stress; when I feel a connection, I pursue it and focus on it solely. But don’t get me wrong, just because I’m single and avoid situationships doesn’t mean I don’t have fun! Dating should be fun, and situationships aren’t. So, I’m throwing the term out of my vocabulary this summer.

My mom always says I act like the “man” in the relationship, which isn’t entirely wrong. It's hard to trust again after having my trust broken so many times. I’ve learned to detach healthily. My most recent situationship was mentally draining, making me question my worth on most days. I wondered who else he was talking to and if there were others I didn’t know about. My friends even joked that he was using me for my dog, Moose! I’ve never received actual genuine acts of love from a man, but after a year of growth, self-discovery, and cutting off manipulative relationships, I knew this wasn’t how I wanted to feel. Someone who loves me wouldn’t make me feel this way and I have finally come to terms with that.

So, this summer, I’m adopting a "one-month rule." We have a month to figure out what this connection is. If you're not ready to have an emotionally mature conversation by the end of that month and want to continue the situationship, that’s when I back away. That conversation will show you what you want to see in your future partner. I now know my worth and know there is someone out there who will make me their everything. It’s essential to set clear expectations and not get caught up in potential, which I know is hard for us book lovers!

Traveling Solo:

One of my go-to remedies for anything is travel! I’ll never forget my mom telling me about ending a long-term relationship in her twenties and hopping on a plane to Australia by herself for a month. Her stories were so fun, filled with adventure and meeting new people, and a new boyfriend! Seeing my mom start solo travel at a young age inspired me. My cousins, who are a few years older than me, have also done their fair share of travel. One even met her husband and now lives with him in Edinburgh. My cousin Sabrina, who blogged about her dating life abroad, inspired me to start my blog.

Travel doesn’t have to be far. Even going out for dinner alone in the city is a significant first step. I’ve found that when I'm at a bar with friends, it’s easy to socialize if you go in with the right attitude. Improving my self-worth and confidence has significantly impacted my dating life. When you feel confident, it shines across the room. While travelling, I've received compliments like, “Never let anyone take away your energy.” It's my favourite compliment when someone notices my energy. I always try to bring positive light wherever I go because you never know who will be there. I've met some of my best friends on my solo journeys in the city or another country.

Travelling solo has numerous benefits, such as personal growth and new experiences. Here are some tips for meeting people while travelling: stay in social accommodations like hostels or guesthouses, use travel apps to connect with other travellers or locals, or engage in group activities like tours, classes, or meetups.

Safety is also crucial when travelling solo. Always research your destination, stay aware of your surroundings, and trust your instincts. Or, if you're like my mom, she sat me down and showed me a documentary on what not to do when traveling abroad to avoid getting kidnapped. Ha ha. My solo travel experiences taught me to navigate new places confidently and meet incredible people. Embracing solo travel has enriched my life with unforgettable experiences and helped me grow as a person.

Setting Boundaries in Dating:

One of the most important lessons I've learned in any relationship is setting and mutually respecting those boundaries. In past relationships, I often gave too much of myself, prioritizing the other person’s wants and needs over mine. Eventually, I realized that I was not happy and was living a life that wasn't true to myself. Once I understood what I wanted, I started making choices aligned with my personal growth. This realization sometimes meant ending relationships that didn’t support my growth. It was tough, but I had spent too long dragging myself down for others and was finally ready to live a life where my partner is equal and we support each other’s goals. In a loving relationship, you should never have to jeopardize your dreams for the other person, as this only builds resentment. 

I've made mistakes by letting people in too much and allowing them to take up all my personal space, thinking it would be worth it because they would choose me. But I’ve learned that happily ever after doesn’t exist in that way. I can control my actions, focus on what I love, and choose to spend time with people who I never have to question my worth. What frustrates me most is being ready for a real relationship, putting in the work, and having a partner back away when hard decisions need to be made.

So, set boundaries! Be honest about what you want from the beginning. Communicate openly if something makes you uncomfortable. No man worth being with will ever disrespect your time or your boundaries. Prioritize your well-being and seek relationships that uplift and support you.

Embracing Singleness and Self-Care:

Embracing singleness and prioritizing self-care have been transformative aspects of my journey. I've realized that loving oneself is not just a cliché but a profound truth. It's during those solitary moments that the most profound personal growth occurs.

Last year tested me in ways I hadn't imagined, but I found resilience in those moments of introspection and solitude. I navigated my inner battles independently, emerging more substantial and self-assured on the other side. Through this process, I've learned that I can manage my emotions and validate my worth. I no longer depend on others for validation because I've cultivated a deep self-acceptance and understanding.

The journey wasn't easy; it demanded confronting painful truths and embracing vulnerability. However, by confronting and working through these challenges, I've fostered genuine honesty with myself and, consequently, those around me. Transparency has become my strength, and I now embrace my past without reservation, knowing that every experience has shaped me into who I am today.

Self-care has played a pivotal role in this journey of self-discovery. It's about pampering oneself and nurturing one's soul and well-being. My favourite self-care activities range from journaling and meditation to long walks with Moose. These practices have helped me cultivate mindfulness, manage stress, and stay grounded in the present moment. They've taught me the importance of listening to and responding to my needs with compassion.

For anyone navigating singleness, I encourage you to view this time as a period of immense growth and opportunity. It's a chance to delve deep into understanding who you are, what you value, and what brings you joy. Invest in activities that nourish your mind, body, and spirit. Whether pursuing a hobby, travelling solo, or simply enjoying your own company, cherish this time of independence and self-exploration.

Remember, being single does not equate to loneliness; it's an invaluable chapter of self-discovery. Embrace it with open arms, knowing that every step you take towards self-love and care brings you closer to aligning with your most authentic self. Celebrate your journey, past relationships included, as they have all contributed to your growth and resilience. Someone once told me something that stuck with me: enjoy your single life, especially when you're young and growing, because you never know when you'll run into your soulmate and settle down. Trust that by nurturing a loving relationship with yourself, you are laying the foundation for fulfilling and meaningful connections in the future.

Conclusion:

In conclusion, navigating the complexities of modern dating, embracing solo adventures, setting firm boundaries, and prioritizing self-care have profoundly shaped my journey of self-discovery and empowerment. Encouraging words from my friends and family who admire how I've handled my single life mean so much to me. Despite the challenges and occasional setbacks, I've learned invaluable lessons in self-worth, resilience, and the significance of personal growth.

This summer, join me in celebrating the joys of being single! It's a season full of opportunities to focus on ourselves, explore new interests, and deepen our understanding of what truly brings us happiness. Whether navigating dating apps or enjoying the freedom of solo travel, remember to prioritize your well-being and honour your journey.

Setting clear boundaries in relationships, both romantic and platonic, is essential. It ensures that your time and energy are invested in relationships that uplift and support you. Feel free to communicate your needs and expectations openly. Remember, you deserve to be with someone who respects and cherishes you for who you are.

As you embark on this summer adventure of self-discovery, engage in activities that nurture your soul and bring you joy. Above all, embrace your singleness with optimism and gratitude. It's a period of growth, empowerment, and limitless possibilities. Trust in your journey, cherish your independence, and know that every step you take toward self-love and authenticity brings you closer to a fulfilling and meaningful future.

Here's to a summer filled with self-discovery, self-care, and the freedom to embrace who you are entirely. Cheers to celebrating the beautiful journey that lies ahead.

Reflections on Girlhood: Lessons in Friendship, Family, and Finding Myself

Introduction

Hi friends! Happy June! With the weather warming up, I am excited for summer. Moose and I have been enjoying our adventures around the city. Reflecting on a busy week of midterms, full-time work, and social outings, I realized how unique and uplifting my catch-ups with different girlfriends have been recently. I hadn't noticed how draining some past relationships were until now. After twenty years of navigating life as a woman, I'm beginning to understand what I need from any relationship. Growing up with a single mom, who was always there to guide me, taught me to handle things independently from a young age. Her influence, along with strong female characters from my favorite rom-coms, shaped my values and friendships.

Early Years

Growing up as an only child had its ups and downs, but I got good at entertaining myself early on. I started writing stories that my mom still keeps to this day. With a big imagination and a family of educators and actors, it makes sense that I was so creative.

Once I began school in my little neighborhood, where my mom, uncle, and grandma had all gone, I made friends for life. We would walk to meet each other at the lights until we got our driver's licenses. When we were younger (and phones weren’t a thing), we had to be home when the streetlights came on. Walking to the park turned into walking home from the bar, but we went through it together. Eva and Bea, if you’re reading this, this is basically about you. You’re welcome. Growing up in a small neighborhood had its moments. Everyone somehow knew everything about everyone. But through it all, I maintained a solid foundation of friends.

When I came home crying to my mom because I heard this or that, she always had an answer. Our nightly debriefs were my favorite thing, and those conversations sparked my love for having close girlfriends. We always used to joke that we were like college roommates, ordering in almost every night and watching TV. After a bad day, we'd ask, “Funny or scary movie tonight?” I can't even remember the last time we sat at our dining room table! Since I left home, she's been sitting at the table now, haha!

My mom influenced the friendships I carry proudly today. She never intervened, allowing me the space to find my way, yet she always knew when to lend a hand, especially when crafting the perfect response to those oh-so-important texts. If you’ve been through the “girl drama” phase, you understand those messages' significance. From a young age, I witnessed her endless love for me, her students, friends, and family. Her unwavering dedication has not only influenced me but has also shaped the meaningful connections I cherish today.

Sometimes I wished I had a big sister, but luckily, my mom introduced me to rom-coms at a young age, and I've been hooked ever since. Characters like Elle Woods, Carrie Bradshaw, Samantha Jones, Andie Anderson, Andrea Sachs, and many more became my virtual big sisters. The first thing the Disney recruiter said to me when I showed up in my pink pantsuit for the interview was, “Have you seen Legally Blonde?” I said I sure have! We spent a good chunk of time chatting about the movie, and even at the end, he said, “Thank your mom for showing you Legally Blonde.” And I got the job!

These characters taught me lessons in confidence, resilience, and self-expression. They showed me what friendship is all about. Yes, there will be fights here and there, but if you have a strong foundation, you can never say anything wrong to the right person. These movies made me dream of having a secure group I could trust with my heart, and I finally do.

Middle School

Now we're getting into the good stuff: middle school! The time when all the excitement and drama of puberty unfolded. It was a period marked by constant change with students transferring schools, close-knit friend groups splitting into different classes, the emergence of new social circles, and the rise of social media. Despite being surrounded by peers, I often found myself dealing with feelings of loneliness. While I had many friends, I quickly learned that quality outweighed quantity when it came to friendship. I tried to immerse myself in different social circles, but I always felt like an outsider.

This might be a surprise to some, but I was quite shy until I found my people. In the midst of middle school drama, I found myself struggling to fit in despite my vibrant energy and dislike for unnecessary conflict. Despite doing well academically, I battled with self-doubt and feeling insecure around my peers.

Yet, during these years, one friendship remained constant: my best friend, Bea. Despite going to different schools, Bea and I shared an unbreakable bond. Throughout the chaos of our teenage years, one thing stayed the same: my friendship with Bea. Even though we were polar opposites, our connection gave me a comforting feeling of belonging and stability during those tough times.

Throughout the challenges of middle school, my mom was my biggest cheerleader. Her wisdom and support helped me navigate the complexities of teenage social life. It is quite handy to have a parent who deals with students' problems daily. Entering high school only added to the complexity of social situations, faced with new challenges and opportunities for personal growth. Yet, equipped with the lessons learned and the continued support from my mom, I faced these new challenges with renewed confidence and resilience.

High School

The big debate is: you either hated high school, or it was the time of your life. Everyone would say, “Enjoy those years, they go by so fast.” For me, they couldn’t have gone slower. Going into high school, my friends and I first thought about where we would sit for lunch, whether we were in any classes together, and how we would navigate this new environment. We went from being at the top in elementary school to the bottom again. My classes didn’t interest me, I had no classes with my friends, and I was comparing myself too much to others, trying to become something I wasn’t.

I was lucky enough to have my friend Bea with me. We made high school fun in our ways, even joining the swim team together. I did not like those 5 a.m. wake-up calls in the middle of winter, though! As I reflect, I am grateful to have had a strong foundation built with my best friend and to have navigated the highs and lows of high school together. Walking home from school before we had the freedom to drive was my favourite time to debrief about our day. Sometimes, it was even better when we’d convince our moms to sign us out of the last period so we could leave early on the days we couldn’t stand it.

COVID came along, and that was a hard time for friendships. Luckily, Bea and I were lockdown buddies and made some pretty epic TikToks and had many movie marathons in my basement in our matching PJs. The COVID lockdown period was challenging for me, as I'm sure many of you can relate.

Unfortunately, during those years, I also faced the trauma of sexual assault, which greatly affected my ability to reach out to others, leading me to withdraw and isolate myself. I’ve learned now that I don’t need to do that, and I have a strong support group I wasn’t taking advantage of at the time. After the COVID lockdown, life got better. We were seniors: a time of so much excitement, like joining the cheer team (still not sure how I made the first cut), our senior trip to the Dominican Republic, prom, and so many more unforgettable memories.

As I reflect on those years, I realize the insecurities of others and how their actions were just reflections of themselves. Once I realized my values, I chose to stand up and pick the right people for my well-being. I hold no grudges against anyone from my past. I have accepted the situations for what they are and who I am: the good, the bad, and the ugly. Once I did that, I felt free of the relationships I was holding onto that weren’t working out. Still, I always do my best to resolve the situation because my mom always reminds me that it’s important to never burn bridges, especially at the age of 20, when we start to branch out and begin our careers. High school was just one chapter, and while it had its challenges, it also laid the groundwork for the secure, supportive friendships I have today.

Adulthood

As I enter adulthood, I discover a newfound sense of fulfillment in my relationships. When I think about my tough first year at university, it was a time of struggle and pretending. I wore a mask, concealing the inner pain that weighed me down. Yet, hitting rock bottom became pivotal, encouraging me to seek the support I needed. Despite the obstacles, I persisted, completing my first year of university with the necessary assistance. Then, an unexpected journey unfolded last summer: a trip to Walt Disney World for three months, accompanied only by my best pal, Dug. Whether it was the enchantment of Disney or the change of scenery from southern Ontario, something shifted within me, and Dug, too.

Gradually, genuine happiness replaced the mask I once wore, and the friendships I forged during this time were transformative. These friends opened up about their pasts, offering comfort and understanding without judgment. Trust flowed effortlessly, and their continued support pushed me forward. Returning from Disney, I continued my journey of self-discovery with newfound confidence. I embraced change, switched programs, and started blogging. During my studies this year, I made connections with inspiring individuals, who shared similar ambitions and a love for creativity. A few of my friendships were formed from unexpected meetings in the city, often, they stopped because they were in awe of my dog, Moose.

Some of the most significant growth in my life has come from conversations with strangers, particularly during my travels. Growing up, my confidence was shaped by experiencing different cultures and meeting new people from a young age. During my time in Cuba, I formed friendships I've longed for my entire life: the kind of

spirited and supportive girls you often see in romantic comedies who always give me the advice I exactly needed to hear. They're like the big sisters I needed when I was younger, and now I finally have them. It's hard to believe I had to go all the way to Cuba and Florida to meet some of my best friends today, only to find out they live in Ontario. But that's the thing about doing things alone: you never know who you'll meet or where. That's why I always emphasize the importance of putting yourself out there and trying new things, especially going solo, because that's where you meet people who truly align with your values.

As I continue my journey through adulthood, I remain dedicated to self-discovery and surrounding myself with those who share my values. While this path may lead to parting ways with some, I understand that such changes are crucial for personal growth and taking care of genuine connections. While we may not click with everyone, it's essential for our well-being not to hold grudges but to thank them for the lessons learned and hope that everyone who crosses our path finds their people.

My Advice to You

As you navigate your own journey, here are some pieces of advice that I've learned along the way…

1. Be Yourself: Embrace who you are and let your genuine personality shine. The right people will appreciate you for who you are.

2. Learn from Every Experience: Every friendship, whether it lasts or not, teaches you something valuable. Reflect on these lessons and use them to grow.

3. Open Communication: Honest and open communication is the key to any healthy relationship. Don't be afraid to express your feelings and listen to others.

4. Set Boundaries: It's important to know your limits and set boundaries in your relationships. Don't be afraid to say no or distance yourself from toxic influences.

5. Stay Positive: Surround yourself with positive, like-minded people who uplift and inspire you. Positivity is contagious and can greatly improve your well-being.

6. Keep Growing: Personal growth is a lifelong journey. Continuously seek to improve yourself and your relationships. Learn from your mistakes and celebrate your successes.

7. Cherish Quality Over Quantity: It's better to have a few close friends who truly understand and support you than to have a large group of acquaintances. True friends will be there through thick and thin.

8. Value Your Own Company: Learning to enjoy your own company helps you discover what truly makes you happy. This self-awareness not only makes your relationships with others more authentic but also ensures your happiness comes from within.

9. Let Them: People will always have opinions about you, but what's important is how you view yourself. Stay true to who you are and let go of the need for validation from others.

10. Take Risks: Sometimes stepping out of your comfort zone and taking risks can lead to the most rewarding experiences and relationships. Don’t be afraid to take that leap, because you never know where it might lead you.

Conclusion

Reflecting on my journey through girlhood and adulthood, I'm grateful for the lessons learned and the friendships created. From my mom's guidance to the inspiration I got from fictional characters, each has played a vital role in shaping who I am and the friendships I hold dear today. The ups and downs of middle and high school taught me resilience and the value of true friendship, while my adventures in adulthood have shown me the importance of self-discovery and aligning with those who share my values. Whether through unexpected encounters with strangers or lifelong bonds formed since childhood, each friend has contributed to my growth uniquely. As I look ahead, I am grateful to my current circle of friends, acknowledging the strength and significance of these connections. My final message is that you reflect on your own journey and the friendships that have influenced it, recognizing their pivotal role in personal development and overall well-being. And if you ever need a friend, I am always here :)

Fearless Living: Embracing Fear for Personal Growth

TRIGGER WARNING: Talk of mental health and self-harm

Introduction:

Hey friends! I hope you are all enjoying your May long weekend. Yesterday, I had the day off and spent a good chunk of time outside, taking advantage of the beautiful weather to find happiness amidst my heavy spring course load. Don’t be fooled, I was still doing work on our walk. Listening to the audiobook of “Jane Eyre” would not be my first choice of audio to listen to on a walk. I decided to take Moose on a walk to my old campus, where I spent some time reflecting. Revisiting a place tied to many emotions felt strange, especially returning a year later as a different version of myself. I sat in the spot where I’d go when I’d have my worst panic attacks, where I could finally catch my breath. Now sitting there over a year later, the sun beaming on my face, with Moose by my side, I am at my most content. This experience inspired me to write about facing our fears and how it can be a catalyst for personal growth. Yesterday felt like the final checkbox in this chapter of my life, giving me the closure I needed.

Confronting Trauma:

Yesterday, I walked around the city and eventually revisited a place of past trauma, accompanied by Moose. As I’ve mentioned in previous posts, my first year of university was challenging, a sentiment many of us share. Much of my trauma was tied to my residence, where I spent the majority of my time. For those familiar with depression, the feeling of being tied down to your bed by the weight of your thoughts is all too real. I chose to stay quiet for too long, and eventually, it caught up with me. It's hard to explain when people ask me why I feel this way and why I decided to open up now. Being in a changed environment and feeling a lack of understanding from those I confided in exacerbated my struggles. When people didn’t respond in the way I needed, I turned to self-harm as a coping mechanism, feeling I "deserved" it on most days. Some days were worse than others, with thoughts keeping me up all night. Eventually, I hit my breaking point, a moment that remains with me but one I often wish to forget. However, I choose not to forget because facing my fears is the first step toward recovery, a lesson I've learned this past year.

It wasn’t until I finally told someone I wasn’t the 24/7 bubbly person they thought I was that things finally began to change. After reaching my breaking point, my mom swooped in to rescue me, staying by my side every step, along with my supportive friends and family, who constantly reached out. Despite my stubbornness and reluctance to listen, my mom tried various approaches to help. We spent Sundays at Michael's art classes meant for kids, and she tried to play the "bad cop" role, which I humorously pointed out she wasn't good at. Eventually, she let me find my way, and I finally did. The changes and challenges over the past year, which included becoming a Walt Disney World cast member, switching schools, altering career goals, and the impending move to Florida in the fall, have all shaped my growth. None of this would have happened if I hadn't faced my truths, opened up, received proper support, and spent time with people whose energy I thrive on.

Embracing Change:

Once I finally faced my fears and stepped forward to get help, positive change followed. Accepting my flaws and developing an action plan helped me break free from the negative cycles of not wanting to get out of bed, feeling the world hated me, and thinking I’d never be good enough for anything or anyone. Even writing this now blows my mind because I could never imagine saying those words to myself today. Choosing to be vulnerable with myself and others made a significant difference. Therapy was a great start. I began it before leaving for Disney and met my personal goals by the end of 2023.

In 2024, I feel confident within myself and comfortable expressing my feelings externally. I've learned to say "no," communicate my feelings to people I care about, and finally trust others and open up. Embracing this new version of myself has given me confidence like no other. This growth feels entirely mental rather than physical, and it's beautiful. I've never felt my head and chest so light. I fully embrace my loud, goofy, bubbly, chatty self. I don’t want to change anything about me because I’ve learned to own my flaws and words. Ultimately, you’re all you've got and must do what's best for you. That is what this year has taught me, and I hope it can help you.

Finding Happiness:

Finally, facing my fears has led me to a more profound sense of self-acceptance and happiness. This journey all started with a mouse who hired me to work at the most magical place on earth in May 2023. My friends and family say those three months changed me, and they did, but what they might not understand is that this has been a work in progress long before then. Moving to Florida was just when I finally became vulnerable and opened up to others. Once I started to be myself, I attracted like-minded people. I harnessed my skills and entirely accepted myself: the good, the bad, the ugly, and the trauma that trails along. I attracted the people I needed most. I also attracted new opportunities, such as accepting my position in the Disney Cultural Representative program in the fall, something I had only dreamed of doing, but never thought I could achieve. These new supportive relationships and opportunities inspired me towards self-discovery and growth, and I began sharing my journey online through my blogs. This year, I switched my career goals from the life sciences, which had always been on the horizon, to creative industries, something I was never surrounded by until recently. It’s never too late to change your path. You should change it more than once until you feel the happiest with yourself and your relationships.

Lessons Learned:

This year has been a catalyst for growth, and it truly began when I took control of my life and faced the fears I needed to confront. What I hope you take away from this is the importance of confronting your inner demons. Once you do, identify what you need from the outside world, take what serves you, and leave behind what doesn't. It's okay to say, "No." However, never holding a grudge or avoiding confrontation is crucial because unaddressed fears prevent you from working through problems. I've learned to let go of people unwilling to compromise and work through issues. The most critical thing in any relationship is that both sides feel valued. While this sometimes takes extra effort, keeping only those willing to do the work, regardless of the relationship type, is essential. Don't fall for false hope; be vulnerable enough to accept that some people won't change, and you can't control that. You can control yourself, your fears, and your flaws. As I've said in previous blogs, “let them” and embrace the "what if" because no matter what, you're still here. You've made it this far, dealing with all your fears and flaws that you thought you could never work through. My friends always ask how I got here, and I am committed to helping others embark on their own journey of self-discovery.

Conclusion:

Looking inward and confronting our fears is crucial for personal growth. Embracing change, accepting our flaws, and being vulnerable with ourselves and others can lead to a more profound sense of self-acceptance and happiness. My journey began with facing my inner demons and seeking help, which allowed me to break free from negative cycles and attract the right people and opportunities into my life. It’s never too late to change your path; you should change it as often as necessary until you find what and who makes you happiest. I encourage you to embark on your journey of self-discovery. Confront your fears, embrace change, and don’t be afraid to seek support. Remember, personal growth is an ongoing process; you are not alone. I am committed to helping others navigate their paths and am here to offer support and guidance along the way. Together, we can achieve the growth and happiness we all deserve.

The Abbey Girls: Three Generations of Love on Mother's Day

Introduction:

Hey friends! Happy Mother’s Day weekend! This holiday is when I’m reminded of the extraordinary women who have shaped my life. But you know what? We should celebrate them every day, shouldn’t we? Today, I want to reflect on my family: three generations of Abbey girls. There’s my grandma, my mom, and then there’s me. Our family dynamic may not fit the typical model, but honestly, I wouldn’t have it any other way. Growing up as an only child with a single mom and a grandma who felt like a second parent, I learned the true meaning of love and resilience. While many incredible women have influenced my life, these two hold the top spots. Our bond is unbreakable, and the love we share for each other is like no other. So here’s to you, Mom and Hana. Today and every day, I celebrate you.

To Hana: 

Let’s begin by introducing Grandma Hana, the backbone of our family, who raised my mom and my uncle during challenging times as a single mother. Growing up, I always knew my grandma was a tough cookie, but she also had the biggest heart and still does. One of my favourite memories is from grade two, when she went to talk to my teacher because the portrayal of a grandma in a rocking chair knitting in one of our practice worksheets was an incorrect depiction of a grandma! Another classic Hana moment was when she asked Cinderella at breakfast at the Walt Disney World castle if Prince Charming helped her with chores or if he was in the other room watching football. My grandma certainly isn’t your traditional woman! As I grew older, I began to appreciate her wisdom more and more. Climbing the moors based on the Brontë sisters at age eight wasn’t exactly fun, but now, funny enough, I’m in a course where this information comes in handy, and guess who I turn to? That’s right, Hana! With Mom and Hana working full-time jobs when I was younger, Hana's eventual retirement made her an integral part of my daily life. I’ll never forget her making me breakfast and walking me to the bus stop to greet all my friends. She also was a helping hand with my schoolwork and saved me from being the last one picked up at daycare. Thanks, Mom Ha Ha. Now that I'm at an age where I can reflect on her strength and resilience during a time when divorce was uncommon and on her remarkable job raising two amazing kids and working full-time, I am genuinely in awe. Then eventually she had the honour of becoming a grandma, surprise it’s me! Hana always tells the story of how there was a Northeastern US and Southern Canada blackout when Mom announced her pregnancy with me. She knew from then on that I was powerful! You might be wondering why I call her Hana, and no, that’s not her name. She decided she didn’t want to be called Grandma, and since she loved the name and my mom wasn’t using it for me, why not? So, since then, she’s always been Hana to me, and she’d be pretty offended if you ever called her Grandma. Hana and I have always been close. I was her only grandchild for ten years until my cousin came along. So now, she always calls me her "Uno." Over the years, we’ve shared endless good times: skiing in Ellicottville over the years, my first backpacking trip, our 18-hour road trip to Florida, where we pulled over late at night to a motel, drank wine in the parking lot, and listened to her endless CNN updates. So, Hana, here’s to you. Thank you for being the foundation of our family. Thank you for always being my go-to for a good time, serving as my favourite wine partner (especially during happy hour!) and dance partner. 

To Mom:

Let's shift our focus to the next generation: my mom, who most of you know as Hilary. Mom, you are the anchor of this family, and you've done an incredible job passing down Hana's legacy to me. I understand now that you were always hard on yourself, but even in your darkest times, you were the brightest light in mine. Your selflessness is unmatched, and I will forever be grateful for your hard work as a single parent and your unwavering dedication to providing for me. Despite your doubts, you balanced your career as a principal with being a loving mother, always ensuring I was cared for, even on your late work nights or bad days. I had some pretty cool babysitters, and you made sure of that! I'm grateful that you allowed yourself to be vulnerable with me and set realistic expectations for me from such a young age. I witnessed the effort you put into everything you did and the rewards that came from it. I've always admired and been proud to call you my mom. Having a baby and running a school simultaneously at such a young age is remarkable. But boy, did you make up for it on your time off. Yes, there were weekends when you didn't want to get out of bed, but as an adult, I understand that now. However, it was always the best time when we were out and about. I cherished the days when we played hooky and went shopping or binge-watched thriller movies and rom-coms. And the best times were our holidays together, the three of us. Mom was definitely the brains behind these vacations. Sure, we almost got lost in the rainforest on a day trip with a stranger, and we had a close call on a roundabout in Italy in our Fiat convertible, but I wouldn't have it any other way. These memories fuel me and bring me joy when I look back on them. I miss being able to come into your room every night and keep you up on a school night with my funny stories or videos I find online. But wherever you are, I know you're just a phone call away, ready to share a laugh on the other end. I can't express enough gratitude for your sacrifices in order to love and dedicate 18 years of your life to me. The love you poured into raising me is immeasurable, and I can never thank you enough.

Passing it Down:

Last but certainly not least, there's me! I like to think of myself as the Switzerland of the family, always serving as the neutral ground and sounding board. With three strong-willed women, our discussions can sometimes escalate into what could easily be reality TV show-worthy arguments. But they always conclude with a hug, without fail. We've never allowed ourselves to go to bed upset with each other. Regardless of the disagreement, we Abbey girls always have each other's backs. They've instilled in me the actual values of loyalty and respect. Despite our differences, we share a deep love for one another and are made stronger by each other. My grandma leans towards extraversion, while my mom tends to be more introverted, and I find myself somewhere in between. I've been fortunate enough to form two exceptional bonds with them. Recently, we went on a vacation to Cuba, and it was extraordinary to be reunited again. Life tends to get in the way, but that week was filled with love and laughter. Hana and I enjoy our wine and sunset photoshoots, and Mom and I are soaking up the sun with our morning coffee. Perhaps they were both a bit annoyed with me for rolling in at who-knows-what time in the morning, but the best moments were the nights when I accidentally woke them both up, and I found myself sharing crazy stories from the night out. Overall, I don't know who I would be today if it weren't for these two amazing women. Mom is my favourite person to watch movies with, and enjoy takeout on the couch. Even the Disney recruiter told me to thank my mom for showing me "Legally Blonde" at such a young age! On the other hand, Hana is always up for a visit to the city, a history lesson, or both. A few months ago, she even attended my philosophy lecture with me, an experience I'll never forget. Not to my surprise, she had more notes than me. Each and every one of their teachings has shaped my character and influenced my positive outlook on life because I know, no matter what, they're always in my corner. As I embark on my next chapter, living alone in Toronto with my puppy Chihuahua, Moose, where Mom has become GoGo to him, I'm reminded of the significance of family traditions and the memories we've created over the years. I can't wait to continue passing down this legacy of love to future generations, animals and humans!

Conclusion:

In concluding the celebration of the two most remarkable women in my life, Hana and Mom (Hilary), I'm filled with profound gratitude. Hana, the foundation of our family, instilled in me strength and warmth through her resilience and wisdom. Mom, the anchor, carried down Hana's legacy with love, shaping me with her selflessness and dedication. We, the Abbey girls, form a trio bonded by love and laughter. As I move forward, I carry their lessons and memories, ready to pass down this legacy of love to future generations. To all mothers, thank you for your endless love, strength, and guidance. Happy Mother's Day.

Let’s Get Real: My First Month as a Twenty-Year-Old

Introduction

Hey everyone! With school out (at least until my spring courses start), I finally have some free time to sit down and write. Lately, I've been engaged in deep conversations with friends and family, navigating through significant changes that have encouraged me to reflect and share my thoughts. They often say that crying on your birthday is common, but for me, the tears flowed more freely during the first month of my twenties than ever before. They were onto something in the rom-coms I grew up watching; your twenties mark a pivotal time when life-changing events take shape. After handling my fair share of challenges in my short twenty years, I began realizing the importance of embracing change and staying in touch with my emotions, something I never would’ve said as a nineteen-year-old. So, let's dive right in!

Highs and Lows of the First Month

My journey of self-growth has been brewing within me for the past year since I embarked on a road trip with my faithful friend, Dug, by my side. I've come to believe that the most significant growth often occurs when we seek adventure independently, though it's equally important to have our loved ones cheering us on from the sidelines. Stepping into the unknown can be worrisome, but it's in those uncomfortable moments that real change begins to unfold. Reflecting on how different my life might have been if I had never left home, I've realized that true fulfillment only comes when our surroundings align with our inner selves. It's easy to be tough on ourselves, but confronting our struggles with someone else can be incredibly challenging. Admitting that my journey to self-acceptance was shaped by years of trauma and self-criticism has been a complicated truth to face. I set unrealistic expectations for myself, eventually taking me down when I couldn't meet them. It was then that I realized therapy was the next step forward. Since starting therapy last year, I've made significant strides in overcoming my inner demons and am now beginning to address the challenges around me. In the past, I've tried therapy, and initially, I believed I could outsmart the therapist. However, when I simply sat back, relaxed, and opened up, the real progress began. Remember, it's okay to be vulnerable. At some point, we must prioritize ourselves and our well-being. This doesn't mean neglecting others, but recognizing that true love and support mean wanting to see each other grow, no matter the obstacles we face.

Finding Strength in Words

I've been doing something I never thought I'd do so often: sharing my feelings. And if you know me, I usually add humour to my emotional conversations to lighten the mood. However, recently, I've realized that brushing the surface wasn't enough; I needed to delve deeper and confront these feelings head-on. It wasn't until I found the courage to voice them aloud that I truly began to understand the weight it held on me. Hearing my thoughts spoken aloud wasn't as horrible as I had feared. It felt free to acknowledge that these struggles were not mine to face alone. One mantra that has resonated with me throughout this journey is the simple question, "What if?" It's a reminder that, no matter how drastic the situation may seem, we always get through it. Instead of allowing my emotions to spiral out of control, I've made a conscious effort to identify my triggers and figure out what aligns with my values. This phase of life is a time for significant shifts in our relationships. As we figure out our values, we recognize that some connections no longer align with our aspirations. Engaging in those challenging conversations, particularly for individuals who prioritize others' approval, can be immensely difficult. Yet, as my mom said recently, "Let them." Choosing yourself over others is a new perspective that gave me newfound clarity. Not everyone is destined for our story, and that's perfectly okay. Maintaining peace, however, is essential, and clarity is critical. After all, life would be dreadfully dull if we were all the same, wouldn't it? Embracing conflict as part of life allows us to appreciate the diversity of human experience and can also make for excellent drama novel plots! So, it's essential to allow yourself to let them have their opinions about you because you can only control your thoughts and well-being. Once we connect with ourselves, we expand our focus to face the world.

Facing the Unknown

Engaging in face-to-face conversations is undeniably challenging, regardless of the circumstances. Yet, when you're secure in your truth and have worked on all efforts toward a compromise, sometimes the best thing to do is to step away. Stepping into uncertainty, whether in personal relationships, career aspirations, financial struggles, or any other area of life, can bring out a sense of fear. However, I assure you that things begin to improve once you find inner security. You become more equipped to navigate change and regulate your emotions, even amidst the actions of others. As I've mentioned earlier, confronting our challenges head-on, even when it means facing our inner demons alone, is essential for personal growth. We evaluate our relationships through this journey and discover careers that genuinely resonate with us. And remember, despite the solitary nature of this process, you're not alone. We're all navigating similar challenges simultaneously, and a sense of security lies in that. Opening up and allowing yourself to be vulnerable can lead to a more fulfilling life, bringing us one step closer to uncovering our purpose. Perhaps that's what the twenties are all about: discovering our path amidst the uncertainties of life, or so I've heard.

  Moving Forward with Moose and more

Moving forward with Moose and more, I'm ready to embrace the next chapter. Having cultivated a positive mindset and surrounded myself with supportive people, Moose included, I am prepared for this next chapter. Returning to the Happiest Place on Earth for a year-long internship marks a significant change, requiring me to take a break from school. But this opportunity aligns perfectly with my career goals in the creative industries. As I embark on this adventure, I hold onto two guiding principles, as I talked about: "let them," allowing others to voice their opinions, and "what if," acknowledging potential setbacks. Stepping into my twenties feels like a chance for newfound growth, filled with optimism and determination. I encourage you to do the same. Embrace change, follow your instincts, and surround yourself with supportive people. Stay true to yourself, take risks, and trust your ability to navigate challenges. Approach each new chapter with resilience, optimism, and a willingness to embrace the unknown. And always remember, you're never alone. Whether with a faithful pet like Moose by your side or a supportive group cheering you on, there's always someone or something there to ease the journey.

Conclusion

Reflecting on my first month as a twenty-year-old, I'm grateful for the lessons I learned and the growth I experienced. This journey has been challenging and rewarding, from navigating deep conversations to confronting inner demons. I've learned the importance of embracing change, staying true to myself, and surrounding myself with supportive people. Stepping into uncertainty can be a scary thought, but it's also where real growth occurs. As I look ahead, I'm filled with optimism and determination. With Moose by my side and a newfound clarity, I'm ready to embrace whatever the next chapter may bring. And as you embark on your journey, I encourage you to do the same. Embrace change, follow your instincts, and trust your ability to navigate challenges. Remember, you're never alone; there's always someone or something there to ease the journey. Here's to embracing the uncertainties of life and finding strength in the journey ahead.

Wanderlust: A Journey of Discovery and Growth

Introduction

Hello, friends! Apologies for my recent absence; life’s been quite the whirlwind, with a fair share of travel adventures that have inspired this post. I've always believed that my experiences on the road have significantly shaped who I am today. From marvelling at the magic of Walt Disney World's castle at age five to embarking on my first solo flight to a distant continent at ten, I've been fortunate to have these formative experiences early on. While most people wait until adulthood to begin their explorations, I knew from the moment I set foot in that bustling airport terminal that there was no turning back for me. Winning the superlative in high school for "Most Likely to Travel the World" is a legacy I'm determined to fulfill. So, join me as I reminisce about some of my favourite destinations and the stories they hold!

From Childhood Imagination to Adult Realities

Let's kick off this journey with a trip down memory lane to good ol' Orlando, Florida, where I first discovered my inner Disney princess. Legend has it that my very first words upon seeing the majestic castle were, "Just get me to that castle!" And you know what? I made it there, eventually even calling it home for a while. So, I drove to Orlando from St. Catharines to fulfill my dream of becoming a Disney cast member. Now, road trips may not be my preferred mode of travel (I'll stick to airports and planes, thank you very much), but as they say, it's all about the journey, not just the destination. My fondest memory from my summer was my road trip there with Dug by my side and many stops for coffee. One of the most profound lessons I've learned from my visits to the most magical place on earth is that you're never too old to believe in a little bit of magic. Working there inspired me to significantly shift from life sciences to the creative industries, a decision that has truly felt like finding my calling. Reflecting on my time at Disney, nostalgia plays a significant role. Memories of my first visit with my Nonni, especially as it turned out to be her last trip, hold a special place in my heart. Returning almost a decade later, I found myself reminiscing about the moments we shared, like the hilarious mishap on Splash Mountain where my Nonni lost her wig, a memory forever etched in my mind. My mom's childhood memories of Disney, especially those with her dad (my grandpa), have also shaped my connection to the place. While I never had the chance to experience it with him, hearing her stories allowed me to live vicariously through her adventures. This nostalgia is what fuels my passion for creating magical moments for others. During my interviews with the company, I emphasized my desire to be a part of making memories for others. It brings me immense joy to contribute to people's adventures at Disney. Hopefully, it includes exploring the world showcase and making your way to the best pavilion, Canada!

An Expedition with Grandma to South Africa

Our next adventure takes us to a whole new continent, Africa! My grandma had been making annual trips to Africa for as long as I could remember, accompanying university students on teaching placements in the townships of Cape Town. It had always been her dream to take me along, and finally, in fifth grade, that dream became a reality. Even before we embarked on our journey, I learned the value of giving by foregoing birthday presents and taking the money with me to Africa. It was a small sacrifice for me, but it significantly impacted the students we met. My birthday that year became one of the most memorable experiences I've ever had. While my grandma worked with her students, I had the privilege of spending time with students my age in a classroom. Their world was vastly different from mine. The entire school day consisted of copying notes from a blackboard that stretched across all four walls of the room, contrasting with the type of elementary school environment I was used to, where I found myself playing tag in the gym or exploring the library with friends. This experience was my first true immersion into a culture outside of North America, leaving a lasting impression on me. The differences between their school environment and what I was accustomed to back home highlighted the disparities in educational resources and opportunities. Yet, despite these challenges, the kindness and warmth we received from the people we met in South Africa made this trip unforgettable. As an adult, it's a place I hope to revisit, to delve deeper into its history, and to genuinely reflect on the experiences that shaped me during that time.

A Service Trip to Guatemala in Middle School

Our next stop takes us to Guatemala, where I embarked on a transformative journey during middle school at the age of twelve. While most of the volunteers were high school students, I stood as the lone seventh grader. As an only child and not yet the outgoing, bubbly person you know today, this trip pushed me out of my comfort zone in the best possible way. With my mom's unwavering support, I embarked on this adventure, seeking new experiences and purpose. Partnering with an organization called DIG, originally from Canada, and collaborating with my school, I worked on various projects to serve the local community. From helping construct a new school to engaging with children at a special needs facility and even attempting to carry water from one point to another in a remote mountain village, each experience left a lasting impact on me. The warmth and hospitality we received from the people of Guatemala made us feel like celebrities. One particular moment that stayed with me was when a girl my age marvelled at how we all fit into that "tin can" in the sky to come and visit her and her community, which emphasizes the disparities in our realities and how a simple concept like an airplane was foreign to her. The irony of using a tin can to play soccer was not lost on me either. I quickly learned that luxuries like hot water were not available around the world. Adjusting to quick, cold showers became a lesson in gratitude and mindfulness, something I never had to consider back home in North America. Additionally, learning that seatbelts aren't legal everywhere allowed me to enjoy the freedom of standing on the back of a pickup truck while being driven around, but also be grateful for the safety guidelines we have set in place in Canada. These experiences taught me the importance of perspective and living in the present moment. Reflecting on my time in Guatemala, I gained a deeper understanding of the diversity of human experiences and the privilege of living in a developed country. It instilled a sense of empathy and a desire to continue serving others, no matter where life takes me.

Working at Disney and Moving to a Different Country

Embarking on my three-month journey at the enchanting Walt Disney World was an adventure many of you followed closely on @Disneydugandem. If you've been keeping up with my previous blogs, you'd know of the mental struggles I faced last year and my reluctance to move to Florida. However, one day, my mom suggested, "Why not bring Dug?" My loyal rescue chihuahua accompanied me on an epic 18-hour road trip. Fortunately, the Disney cast members proved incredibly friendly, making it easy to create fast friendships, with Dug as a charming conversation starter. Despite our diverse backgrounds and nationalities, our fast connections eased our transition into the new work environment. Amidst the whirlwind of new experiences in those short three months, I commemorated my time in Florida by getting a tattoo inspired by the movie "Up," with the timeless phrase, “Adventure is out there.” This tattoo is a testament to the transformative power of my adventures and the importance of embracing new experiences. Before I knew it, I formed deep connections with some of my closest friends today, exploring new spots in Florida during our days off or enjoying the parks together. Many have remarked how much I've changed since that summer, both externally and internally. Disney restored my confidence and ignited a passion for chasing my dreams. Their exceptional networking events and supportive recruitment efforts inspired me to pursue my career goals in the creative industries. Reflecting on where I was a year ago, I realize these experiences were pivotal in preventing me from feeling stuck and getting me to where I need to be today. Who knew today I would be counting down the days until I move to Florida in the fall?! 

Cuba Chronicles

My most recent adventure took me to Holguin, Cuba, with my mom and grandma. While my mom had visited a few times before and loved the location, it was my first time even stepping foot in the country. Cuba's rich history has always fascinated me, but experiencing it firsthand was surreal. The scarcity of supplies and the strict security measures at the airports gave a clear picture of the reality faced by the Cuban people. Engaging with the locals and listening to their stories was a highlight of my trip. Despite many possessing degrees and could access free education, most were drawn to hospitality for its tips. I had enlightening conversations with individuals like a waiter with an engineering degree and another pursuing medical studies. I even questioned whether they'd leave if given the chance, with the majority opting to stay. Spending just a week in Cuba, I absorbed the vibrant energy and admired the strong work ethic of its people. It reminded me that one's attitude and outlook on life significantly shape their experiences. This trip allowed me to reflect on the turning point of my life when I embraced living life on my terms, prioritizing my happiness over unnecessary constraints. While in Cuba, I encountered remarkable individuals, building genuine connections. While I embarked on the trip with my mom and grandma, by the end of the week, I greeted most people who crossed my path by name. Embracing the carefree spirit I gave off, I was titled the "hub," bringing our new friend group together to share stories and create lasting memories while in Cuba. From dancing solo on the first night to having beach dance parties with new friends at sunset, every moment felt like a scene from a cherished movie. The encounter with a photographer capturing candid shots of our beach dance emphasized the fate of the experience. I met fascinating individuals, each contributing to the memories that now define my Cuban adventure. Who would have thought a trip intended for leisurely reading ( I packed 7 books, I read 1…) would evolve into a whirlwind of unforgettable moments? As I embrace my newfound title as the “life of the party,” I look forward to making more memories and spreading joy wherever I go. After all, life's adventures are meant to be lived to the fullest, aren't they?

Conclusion

As I prepare for my first solo adventure to Spain, followed by my move to Florida in the fall, inspired by the stories shared in my blog, I'm filled with anticipation and excitement. This upcoming journey signifies a significant milestone in pursuing personal growth and exploration. While travelling alone might appear daunting, I welcome it as an opportunity for self-discovery and cultural immersion. Reflecting on the invaluable lessons from past adventures, from childhood magic with Disney to life-changing experiences in Guatemala, South Africa, and Cuba, I carry the resilience and openness needed to embrace new adventures. With gratitude for the past and excitement for the future, I anticipate the moments of discovery and connection awaiting me. Through "Toronto Tails,” I aim to inspire others to embark on their journey of self-discovery and exploration. Life's most incredible adventures are meant to be experienced together, and I am excited to continue sharing this journey with each of you.

Navigating Love: My Journey as a 20-year-old Single Lady with Moose by My Side

Introduction

Hey there, friends! It's Emily, and I'm here to share my journey of searching for love with Moose, my trusty emotional support animal, always by my side. You might know me for my occasional complaints, but who isn't looking for love in their twenties? Growing up with just my mom, I missed seeing what a healthy relationship looks like, which influenced my approach to dating. Let's dive into the dating world, but hey, family members, you should skip this one if you're not into hearing about my love life, haha!

Reflecting on My Dating Journey:

I'll be honest, growing up with a single mom was challenging. It wasn't about the love my mom gave me but rather the absence of a male figure in my life. I had the most amazing grandpas, Papa and Sneaky Snake (yes, that's what I called him!). Unfortunately, my Nonno passed away shortly after I was born, so I never got to know him, though I've heard wonderful things. I'd love to dedicate another blog post to them sometime. Now, about my father, our relationship is complicated. I'm still working through it, but I know many of us struggle with fatherly relationships, and when I'm ready, I'll share more. But let me tell you about my incredible mom and grandma (I call her Hana), who more than made up for the absence of a male figure in my life. My mom was an actual superhero around the house. Though she did flood it or set it on fire a few times, we made it through!

Now, onto dating in my generation, what's the deal? I grew up watching romantic comedies from the 2000s, and let me tell you, dating isn't quite like that, at least not for me. I've heard stories from my grandma about ballroom dancing classes and milkshakes after. To me, that sounds like a dream. Our generation, though? It's all about Snapchatting and "hanging out." I feel disenchanted by it all. The lack of respect in online dating is appalling. Short answers or no answer at all, we call it "ghosting." But we have to roll with the times. Still, if I could have a "Back to the Future" moment and be picked up by a guy who opens the car door for me, I'd take it. But let's face it, I can't just blame my love life on the era I was born in. I have to take responsibility. Self-sabotage is a real struggle. I often felt that any guy who showed interest didn't mean it because of my lack of male love. I'm working on it and healing my inner child who never received that love from a male figure.

Setting Standards and Prioritizing Self-Love:

While the previous paragraph looked into the challenges of growing up with a single mom, it's important to note that every single mom's journey is unique, including mine. My mom dedicated 18 years of her life to me, which wasn't something I asked for, but she did it wholeheartedly. Sure, she dated along the way, and I met some interesting characters. There were some super great guys and some downright weird ones. They tried everything to win me over, but they lost! Well, except maybe for the yellow Ferrari, that was a winner (Lol!). My grandma also played a significant role in my upbringing. She raised my mom as a single parent, which runs in the family! Over time, I've embraced the idea of self-reliance and navigating life on my terms. My grandma always emphasized the importance of financial independence, hence my commitment to working since I was sixteen, steadily climbing the ladder. If I'm going to dive back into the dating pool, I refuse to make it feel like a chore. I'm all about having fun and enjoying the journey. And let me tell you, there's nothing fun about Snapchat selfies. So, this time, it's about figuring out my desires in the dating world and overcoming that creeping self-sabotage.

Overcoming Past Trauma and Toxic Relationships:

Talking about dating is incredibly difficult for me. To be honest, I feel shaky and clammy just writing about it. As I mentioned earlier, my relationship with my dad has been rocky. Some moments were small victories, while others were deeply traumatic. However, after months of therapy and finally coming to terms with the fact that I can only control myself, I found the strength to let go. Letting go has been liberating. It's allowed me to be more open and ready for the next chapter of my life. But beyond my relationship with my father, I've also faced a few other toxic relationships, or as we call them, "situationships." And there's always that one person who remains stuck in your mind. I often wonder what could have been if things had worked out. Despite my twentieth birthday being in a month, I've never been on an actual date.

Additionally, like many others, I've experienced sexual assault. I've never openly discussed it, but I'm ready to share my story and help others cope. This experience was a significant turning point that pushed me towards opening up to others. Through therapy and the guidance of various mental health influencers, I've reached a point where I feel prepared for the journey ahead. While unsure how or when my mindset shifted, I've made it to this point, and I'm ready to embrace dating with an open heart.

Embracing the Journey Ahead:

After much reflection, I decided to take a break from dating to prioritize my journey of self-discovery. It’s been a while, let me tell you! It's become clear that I must first invest in myself before I can fully invest in a relationship with someone else. Channelling the spirit of Carrie Bradshaw from "Sex and the City" has been incredibly empowering for me. Her fearlessness in navigating the complexities of love and life has inspired me to embrace my journey with confidence and authenticity. Samantha was always my favourite, though! I’m still working on achieving her boldness and unapologetic approach to love and life.While I'm focusing on self-growth, I'm also open to the possibility of love in the future. However, I've learned the importance of setting healthy boundaries and maintaining self-respect in any relationship that may come my way. I refuse to settle for anything less than I deserve and am determined to approach love with renewed clarity and self-assurance. I offer encouragement to those who may find themselves in a similar position, navigating singlehood and self-discovery. Remember that taking a step back and prioritizing your well-being is okay. Building a support network of friends and family and potentially seeking therapy can be invaluable resources on this journey. Most of my friends are older and pushing 30 (sorry, I love you all!), so they have told me all the ins and outs of dating! As I look towards the future, I'm filled with excitement and a touch of fear for the adventures that lie ahead. While the path may not always be easy, I'm committed to embracing each moment with an open heart and optimism. After all, the most incredible love story is the one we write for ourselves.

Conclusion:

Reflecting on the impact of my upbringing, overcoming past traumas, and navigating through toxic relationships, it's been quite the rollercoaster ride. But here we are, at the end of this chapter, equipped to embrace the journey ahead. Stepping back from the dating scene has presented both challenges and moments of enlightenment. It's afforded me the opportunity to prioritize self-discovery and gain a deeper understanding of what I truly want and deserve in a relationship. Embracing my inner Carrie Bradshaw, writing about love has empowered me to navigate its complexities with newfound confidence and authenticity. I'm now prepared to set healthy boundaries, uphold self-respect, and approach love with clarity and self-assurance. To anyone walking on the path of singlehood and self-discovery, remember it's perfectly okay to prioritize your well-being. Lean on your support network, consider therapy if necessary, and always remember that you are deserving of love and happiness. As for me, I eagerly anticipate whatever the future may hold. Thank you for accompanying me on this journey, and here's to the exciting adventures of the next chapter!

Embracing Change: My Journey with Social Media

Introduction:

Hey friends! As we enter 2024, the continued influence of social media is undeniable. These platforms have emerged daily, from Snapchat streaks to Instagram reels and TikTok trends. In this piece, I aim to share my journey of navigating the ever-evolving realm of social media, capturing its highs, lows, and everything in between.

Like many young adults, I've experienced the full spectrum of emotions accompanying using platforms such as Instagram, Snapchat, and TikTok. Entering university, I struggled to discover my authentic self amidst a feed of edited posts and carefully curated images showing success. It was all too easy to allow comparison, constantly measuring myself against the seemingly flawless lives of my peers. Reflecting on these years, I've recognized the importance of carefully judging our online interactions. Instead of allowing negativity to enter my feed, I regret not unfollowing toxic influences and directing my focus toward the positive aspects of social media. Finding positive platforms to follow can hold potential for building connections, igniting inspiration, and fostering personal growth if we navigate our accounts carefully and with intention.

Detox and Discovery:

My first year of university was challenging, as I suspect it is for many. Transitioning from the familiarity of home to the unfamiliarity of a new city was disorienting. Without a support system by my side, I often felt adrift and isolated. In those moments of vulnerability, scrolling through social media became both a comfort and a source of discontent. Seeing the seemingly perfect lives of my peers portrayed on my screen intensified my feelings of self-doubt. Yet, as I began to reengage with social media after a hiatus, I consciously decided to unfollow those accounts that no longer served my growth. By eliminating the distractions of comparison, I allowed myself the space to rediscover who I was and explore new interests.

Amidst this period of solitude, I found solace in activities such as reading and diving back into the world of literature with such enthusiasm that I occasionally skipped lectures to finish a book (only once or maybe twice..). Additionally, I rediscovered the joy of music and visual arts, even enrolling in two art history courses. The Art Gallery of Ontario, with its free admission for adults under 25, became a place for reflection and inspiration. These moments of introspection, away from mindlessly scrolling, have facilitated my personal growth. However, recognizing the realities of the modern world, I eventually had to rejoin social media with a newfound sense of intention and self-awareness.

Reconnection and Reinvention:

After a challenging first semester, I completed my first year of university online from the comfort of home. However, being back in familiar surroundings only worsened my feelings of being stuck. I missed the excitement of being on campus, surrounded by friends off pursuing their adventures. It felt like I was stuck in a rut, unsure of where to turn next. Despite anticipating my upcoming journey in Disney after finishing the second semester, I couldn't feel genuine excitement because I felt disconnected.

Upon rejoining social media, I felt the weight of societal pressures and the need to keep up with my peers, but no genuine joy or enthusiasm drove me to rejoin. It seemed like a never-ending competition to see who could portray the most successful life. However, everything changed after my 19th birthday. Moving to Florida with my emotional support animal, Dug, marked a turning point. What started as a joke among friends about creating a Disney-themed account soon blossomed into something much more significant. Despite my previous insecurities and tendency to use social media as a distraction, I immersed myself in a vibrant community of like-minded individuals at Disney.

Inspired by friends who used their accounts as digital journals, I captured and preserved memories through daily posts, documenting everything from clothing hauls to Target runs and even Dug's encounters with Mickey Mouse. Through these genuine moments shared online, I began reconnecting with old friends from my hometown. As I embraced authenticity on social media, something incredible happened. People laughed and cried with me as I shared the highs and lows of my journey. When Dug passed away at the end of my Disney program, my online community's support and empathy were overwhelming. It was then that I realized the true power of social media to foster genuine connections and support networks. From that moment on, I consciously tried to use my social media accounts for the better, spreading positivity and authenticity in every post.

Finding Purpose and Happiness:

After my transformative experience at Disney over the summer, I found a renewed sense of purpose in posting on social media. I consciously decided to unfollow accounts that didn't contribute to my personal growth or align with my aspirations. Posting photos and sharing moments became more than just filling it; it became a source of joy and self-expression. When Moose entered my life, the @DisneyDugandEm Instagram account was revived, and together, Moose and I embarked on adventures around the city. Through our journey, I've raised awareness about the importance of emotional support animals and navigating life in my twenties living alone. By curating my feed to focus on accounts that inspire growth and positivity, I've come to appreciate the power of social media in fostering connections with old friends and new peers. However, this shift towards authenticity and positivity only occurred when I surrounded myself with uplifting content. As I continue to evolve on my social media journey, I aspire to create a blog highlighting my favourite accounts that resonate with my values and goals, hoping they also resonate with yours!

Embracing Growth and Education:

Since I decided to work on my social media presence, why not explore LinkedIn?

I joined in January 2023 and have grown my network to 600 connections, which exceeded my goal for the year. This growth was facilitated through various ways, including my Instagram, attending business courses, and gaining experience with Disney while transitioning into the Creative Industries program at university. While LinkedIn may suit some individuals better, plenty of other apps can also broaden your interests and professional connections. Over the past year, I've explored new interests in business, marketing, film, fashion, and authenticity in the corporate world. I've curated a feed that aligns with my goals and aspirations by shifting my focus from mindless scrolling to deliberate consumption of inspiring content.

I've also found inspiration from peers my age who share relatable and relevant content. Witnessing their growth and achievements has motivated me to strive for similar success. As a result, I've actively sought out and followed accounts that provide valuable insights and guidance. Daily quotes have inspired me, and I've noticed that my explore page has naturally evolved to cater to my interests. So, why not use this opportunity to spread our wings and prioritize our well-being for a change? After all, we hold the password to our social media accounts. Let's embrace them as reflections of our authentic selves and curate them to align with our aspirations and values.

Conclusion:

In conclusion, my journey with social media has been transformative, marked by highs of reconnection and lows of comparison. Through these experiences, I've learned valuable lessons in self-discovery and authenticity. By curating a positive feed and unfollowing toxic influences, I've witnessed the true potential of social media in fostering genuine connections and support networks. Embracing platforms like LinkedIn has broadened my interests and professional network, enhancing my online experience. As I continue to evolve, I'm reminded of the importance of self-care and intentional content consumption. We can create a positive online environment by prioritizing uplifting content aligned with our values. I urge others to embark on their journey with social media, embracing choice and authenticity. Let's use these platforms for connection, inspiration, and personal growth, meaningfully enriching our lives. I look forward to seeing you on there!

Journey of Perspectives: From Childhood Magic to Self-Discovery

Introduction

Hi friends! It's been a while since I last reached out, and for that, I apologize. Life keeps us busy, but I'm excited to reconnect with you all today. Many of you on my Instagram story voted for me to share my evolving perspective on life, so let's jump right in. My earliest memories take me back to my tight-knit neighbourhood, Old Glenridge. It's where I attended the same elementary school as my mom and grandma and where they used to roam as kids themselves. Growing up, it was just my mom and me; I'll admit, it came with challenges. I often envied the homes of friends who had a father figure present.

Losing both my grandparents at a young age meant that my role models were primarily women. Despite childhood innocence, there was an underlying tension that I couldn't quite explain. But my mom did her best to provide for me as a single parent, and some of my happiest memories revolve around holidays, especially Christmas. I'd eagerly rush downstairs each holiday to find gifts waiting for me, and my mom was always there, my first and only Valentine. Christmas, in particular, held a special magic for me. I held onto the belief in Santa Claus long after others had outgrown it, and my mom played along, ensuring each year felt genuinely enchanting.

My mom was my rock, giving me the tools to navigate the world. But I was also fortunate to have amazing friends by my side. Our friendships were straight out of a movie. I felt independent for the first time by walking to my friend's house to knock on their door for an afternoon of adventures at the park, constantly with the rule to be home before the street lights came on. Some of these childhood friendships have evolved into the most important relationships in my life today—a special shoutout to my dear friend, Bea Bea, for always being there. And always being the first one rto read the blog :)

Middle School

Middle school marks a pivotal time when responsibilities begin to weigh heavier on our shoulders. By age 10, I took care of myself after school and, begrudgingly, pitched in with chores at home. It was a period of significant change: saying goodbye to old friends, making new ones, navigating puberty, adjusting to new schools, and even trying French immersion. These experiences all played a role in shaping the person I am today.

Fortunately, I received a scholarship to attend a private school, which pushed me out of my comfort zone. As a naturally quiet and reserved kid, I struggled to find my place among my peers and the school community. Yet, despite the initial challenges, attending this private school opened many doors for me. One standout memory from those years was a service trip to Guatemala during Grade 7. While most of my peers were in high school, I embarked on this journey feeling excited and apprehensive. It was a moment of growth and independence, supported by my loving mother, who encouraged me to spread my wings.

Reflecting, I realize how much those years shaped me, even though I may not have fully appreciated it then. Recent therapy sessions have shed light on my "inner child," prompting me to acknowledge the significance of those experiences. If I could turn back time, I would reassure my younger self that all the challenges she faced were necessary for her growth. I would offer her the confidence and support she needed, knowing it would eventually lead her to where she is today. While I may regret my moments of vulnerability, I take pride in the lessons learned and the person I have become.

High School Adventures

High school was undeniably a strange time for most of us, a sentiment many of my friends shared today. It marked a transition into a new world filled with unfamiliar faces, challenging classes, and expectations that felt worlds away from our elementary school days. For many, high school became a place for discovering our identities and passions amidst the stereotypes of mean girls, nerds, jocks, and goths. I would’ve never thought this narrative was true, but from my experience, it was.

High school can be tricky, especially when friendships start to fade. The loss of connections during this time can leave us feeling alone and questioning our worth. But as I've learned, these losses are a natural part of growing up. They teach us resilience and the importance of cherishing the relationships that truly matter. So, if you've experienced friendship loss in high school, know you're not alone. Embrace the lessons learned and keep moving forward. If it wasn’t for taking the step to move on, I wouldn’t have made the friends I have today who have supported me throughout this difficult journey, and for that, I and grateful and I hope I have reciprocated that to them.

Then came March 13, 2020—the day an emergency lockdown put our lives on hold. As an only child, I found enjoyment in the solitude, cherishing the rare moments spent with my mom amidst the chaos of our pre-pandemic lives. Our shared obsession with the TV show "Lost" provided a distraction, though I still can’t get that confusing finale out of my head!

During those uncertain times, I fell into unhealthy habits, staying up until the early morning hours and waking up just in time for "happy hour" (a confession I can only make now as a legal adult! Haha). Yet, amidst these changes in my routine, something we all experienced during the lockdown, a mysterious turn of events landed me in the hospital for nearly three weeks in May 2020. It was a period marked by anxiety, unanswered questions, and profound self-doubt, but through it all, I found comfort in my mom's unwavering support, and, of course, the cute nurse to keep me company when she wasn’t around :)

Emerging from the hospital felt like hitting the reset button, signalling the start of a new chapter—one that would see me navigating the challenges of school amidst a global pandemic.

Post-Pandemic High School

We've shifted back to a hybrid schooling model, splitting our classes between online and in-person sessions. Choosing mostly online courses was influenced by my increasing dissatisfaction with traditional schooling, even though I was performing well in class and had a group of friends. Yet, even within that circle, I felt disconnected. I held onto deep resentment towards myself during this period, but over time, that feeling has transformed into understanding and self-acceptance. Reflecting on those difficult years, I've come to understand the underlying reasons behind my emotions and behaviours through introspection. One helpful exercise I've discovered is creating a chronological chart of significant life events, mapping out how each phase shaped my emotional landscape. Know filled with this self-awareness, I've realized that understanding one's emotions allows for control over our lives —an epiphany I've only recently embraced, but something i had always desired.

At 16, I ventured into the world of retail, which allowed me independence and an opportunity to connect with individuals beyond my high school. Interacting with college students, I cherished conversations that transcended typical teenage talk, reaffirming my belief in maturity.

Senior year, however, presented its own set of challenges, marked by traumatic events that prompted me to seek help through therapy. Though I attempted therapy, I struggled to confront my emotions head-on, preferring instead to bury them beneath a facade of happiness. Falling ill during the winter semester forced me to complete my studies online—an experience I welcomed, with a sense of purposelessness.

Navigating through this phase, I found myself dreaming of genuine connections while dealing with my profound insecurity. Resorting to avoidance tactics, I skipped tests to write them alone and found refuge in online coursework. Looking back, I recognize that, like many teenagers, I was simply trying to drown out difficult moments with distractions.

Despite the chaos, I seized moments of joy, from partying with friends to embarking on a senior trip to the Dominican Republic, clubs t school, attending semi-formals and prom, and finally, crossing the stage at graduation.

First Year of University

I did it! I finally made my escape. With high hopes and dreams, I enrolled in the top school in Canada, pursuing my passion in Life Sciences with a focus on psychology. But as soon as I stepped on campus, that anticipated feeling of happiness and fulfillment vanished. Instead, I was met with the reality of attending a prestigious institution, startled by academic pressures and the whispered term fellow students used, "U of Tears."

Initially, I put on a brave face, attempting to immerse myself in campus life by joining clubs and socializing. Yet, despite my efforts, I found myself in profound isolation. Unable to articulate my feelings at first, I retreated further into myself, withdrawing from social interactions and even deleting my social media accounts. However, the more I shut myself off from the world, the more I spiraled into despair.

Feeling unnoticed and unappreciated in the bustling city of Toronto, miles away from the comfort of home and my mom's reassuring presence, I couldn't shake off the question: What was I doing wrong? Surrounded by individuals whose values and aspirations didn't align with mine, I became aware of the saying: "You become who you surround yourself with." All these factors leading me to the idea of dropping out.

Thankfully, I had the unwavering support of my mom, who encouraged me to persevere. Determined to forge my path despite lacking relationships within my academic community, I soldiered on and completed my first year at university. However, by May of 2023, I knew it was time for a change.

Leaving behind the oppressive environment of academia, I decided to relocate to Florida, where I landed a job at the happiest place on earth. Little did I know this decision would alter the course of my life. Though the prospect of such a significant move initially filled me with anxiety, my mom's encouragement was the guiding light that pushed me forward.

Setting forth with a single condition—that my pet Chihuahua, Dug, accompanies me on this journey. I embarked on what would become the most enchanting chapter of my life, a journey filled with magic and endless possibilities, one that continues to unfold to this day.

Conclusion

After a summer filled with enchanting moments, talked about in previous blog entries, I was on the brink of a fresh chapter—a transfer to a new university with unfamiliar courses and faces. This unexpected pivot led me on a complete 360, guiding me to the Creative School at Toronto Metropolitan University for Creative Industries, where I now focus on film and business. It's a path I never envisioned, yet one that now feels like a natural fit. Looking back, I realize that without enduring my past trials, I wouldn't have arrived at this juncture of discovery and fulfillment.

As I embark on this exciting new journey, I'm thrilled to announce that I'll be returning to Florida for a year to embark on a role as a Canadian representative with the Walt Disney Company, venturing into the world of food and beverage, a switch-up from retail. It promises to be a year brimming with fresh adventures, and I can't wait to share them with you all.

With each twist and turn, I've gradually embraced a calm state and let go of the burdens of unnecessary tension. I've learned to accept others for who they are and have dedicated myself to focusing on self-control. After countless sessions of working towards my goals, I'm pleased to announce that I've graduated from therapy with my therapist—a testament to the progress made on this transformative journey.

So, as I continue to navigate the paths of life, I invite you to join me in embracing the ongoing adventure filled with newfound wisdom, personal growth, and the continued pursuit of self-discovery. Let's embark on this journey with open hearts, ready to seize every opportunity and savour every moment. Stay tuned for the next chapter— It’s going to be a good one.

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Magical Memoirs: My First Disney College Program Adventure

Introduction

Hello, friends! I'm delighted to share this exciting chapter of my life on the blog. As I eagerly await news about my potential acceptance into my dream program at Walt Disney World, where I could have the incredible opportunity to work with the company for a year, I thought now would be the perfect time to sit down and reminisce about my unforgettable experience during the Disney College Program as part of the Canadian Cultural Exchange during the summer of 2023.

When the idea of relocating to Florida for the program first crossed my mind, I faced fear and uncertainty. Despite my deep desire to embark on this adventure, doubts lingered. It wasn't until my mom suggested bringing along my best friend, my chihuahua Dug, that a newfound enthusiasm sparked within me. Without hesitation, I reached out to Disney support, and fortunately, the Disney Programs were incredibly accommodating to my needs. Dug was officially designated as my emotional support animal, allowing him to reside with me in Florida for emotional support.

With Disney's green light for Dug, I was ready to hit the road, accompanied by my furry companion and grandmother, who took on the role of navigator with a paper map in hand while I did the driving. To add a touch of Disney magic, my grandma even made orange shirts to match my car, named Nemo, perfectly fitting for a Disney cast member.

Upon our arrival in Florida, we made our way to Winter Garden and discovered my home for the next three months – Flamingo Crossings. The environment was incredibly welcoming, with resort-style pools, apartment-style rooms, a 24/7 gym, educational opportunities, fantastic support staff, and the chance to forge friendships with fellow participants. Dug and I even had the thrilling opportunity to say hello to Mickey on our first day!

These are just a few highlights from the beginning of my summer adventure, and I can't wait to share more with you below. Stay tuned for more magical moments and behind-the-scenes tales from my Disney College Program journey!

Main Street Magic

I vividly recall the anticipation I felt while eagerly awaiting details about my role with the company. When I accepted my position last year, securing a spot in the role of merchandise, the location remained a mystery. As a self-proclaimed Disney enthusiast, visiting the parks than the average person (yes, I might be a bit Disney insane), my mom and I eagerly speculated about the "ideal" store. Surprisingly, my wish to work at Magic Kingdom, particularly on Main Street, came true.

Upon embracing the merchandising role on Main Street, my imagination painted scenes of selling Disney merchandise, Pandora jewelry, and Dooney and Burke purses. Surprisingly, the Confectionary, the iconic candy store on Main Street, was also included in my role. Given my lower seniority as a college program student, most of my shifts found a home at the Confectionary—a place that quickly grew on me. The work went beyond the typical merchandise job, and there were nights when I clocked out at 4 am. However, the friendships forged and the memorable guest interactions made every moment worthwhile.

Magic Kingdom, especially the bustling Main Street entrance, provided a vibrant place for guest interactions at the Main Street Confectionary. Whether dancing in the store as fireworks illuminated the sky or waving to characters on parade floats, each moment exuded enchantment. Dressed in Main Street USA 1800s-styled attire—a yellow skirt, white apron, and bonnet—added an extra layer of magic to the experience.

One of the aspects I cherished most as a cast member was the opportunity to create "magical moments" for guests, even if it meant something as simple as giving them a Mickey Mouse sticker. The immeasurable joy it brought them became a heartwarming reward. Working at the Confectionary involved various tasks, from handling cash and taking orders to production and cleaning. Most importantly, it involved the art of making magic.

Amidst the enchanting chaos of Magic Kingdom, where each day felt like a page from a fairy tale, a particular magical incident stands out vividly in my memory. While strolling through the park, a little girl mistook me for a princess, sparking a heartwarming moment. Quick to notice her excitement, my friends gleefully pointed it out. In response, I turned around and knelt at her eye level, embracing the unexpected royal role upon me. A delightful conversation followed, brimming with childhood innocence and the magic unique to the Disney experience. We chatted about favourite characters, rides, and dreams, creating a bond that transcended the boundaries of reality.

However, the true highlight of my Disney journey was the bond formed with coworkers during late-night shifts and long days. Despite the challenges, we always found joy, and I often find myself reminiscing about those moments. These moments led me to apply in June 2023 for a return in 2024, just a month after initially joining the company in May 2023. Having recently completed the interview process for the 2024 program, I now patiently await news to see if I will be offered a program position once again!

Building Friendships and Networking

Before my journey to Florida last year, I found myself in isolation, navigating through a challenging period. However, those three months in Florida were transformative, pulling me out of my comfort zone and opening the door to embrace new experiences. Taking the risk of moving there led me to discover individuals who became integral to my life, and the connections forged during that period remain vital and cherished today.

Actions from that summer significantly boosted my confidence and propelled me deeper into my passions, particularly within the creative industries, with my blog as the starting point. A key motivation for my desire to return and work for the company is to continue building connections, both on a personal and professional level. A notable achievement from my summer experience was starting 2023 with less than 100 connections on LinkedIn and concluding it with over 600 – a trend I am eager to continue. Additionally, I felt compelled to create an Instagram account documenting my adventure in Disney last summer with Dug, called @Disneydugandem, which became a popular account with friends keeping up both in Canada and the States. This account gave me something to look forward to, as I knew it brought happiness to my friends, and they eagerly anticipated its updates. This growth serves as inspiration for both myself and others to pursue and develop their passions.

Being immersed in such a positive and supportive group during my time in Florida was a uniquely inspiring experience. The valuable work skills gained will undoubtedly serve me well in future job opportunities. Emphasizing maintaining a positive outlook, I've learned that you never know who might enter your life and make a lasting impact. The most significant lesson from the summer was a simple yet powerful truth: surround yourself with people who encourage you to be authentic and freely express your ideas. Without that, I wouldn’t be the confident, fun-loving person I am today, open to writing about my life, creating content, and following my career passions.

Exploration and Learning

During my summer working for the Walt Disney Company, I was presented with numerous opportunities for exploration. Perhaps the most frequently asked question I received was, "Do you get free park passes?" And yes, I did, an opportunity I never took for granted. The highlight of my summer was the park days, whether celebrating friends' birthdays, hopping on a boarding queue just before a shift, or witnessing our friends create magic on our day off. Not a single day was wasted, and my friends and I made the most of every moment.

With Dug by my side, I seized the chance to attend Disney Programs' events, allowing him to meet beloved characters like Mickey, Minnie, and Donald. When we needed a break from our Disney bubble, my friends and I often ventured off to the beach – my favourite was Cocoa. If I do go back, I look forward to continuing to share my experiences through blogging about these day trips, especially if I move there for a year!

Disney Programs also provided opportunities for professional development, including courses like the hospitality course, which I thoroughly enjoyed, and I even graduated with my “Mouseters.” Exploring the ins and outs of Disney's hospitality and delving into its history, inspired by Walt Disney himself, was enlightening. I firmly believe that you get out what you put into something. As I had the opportunity to live in Florida and work as a cast member, I am eager to take on these experiences to grow my career within the company further.

Now, juggling work at Disney, pet care, and life in Florida was undeniably challenging, but it all came down to finding balance. My experiences in the summer and Disney's management taught me valuable lessons in time management that I will carry with me into the future. My Disney journey was not just a job but a transformative experience that shaped me personally and professionally, leaving me eager to continue this exciting chapter.

The Unfortunate Goodbye to Dug

August 1, 2023, marked a challenging day for me. It was the day I had to say goodbye to my best friend, Dug, creating a full-circle moment that encapsulated the essence of the entire summer. Losing Dug prompted deep reflection on the past three months and my profound gratitude for having him by my side. He served as my catalyst for stepping out of my comfort zone and acted as my social icebreaker, enabling me to connect with others in ways I never thought possible.

As August unfolded, I faced the impending conclusion of my program and the daunting prospect of returning to Canada while navigating the process of transferring universities. The challenges were overwhelming, but Dug instilled the confidence to confront these obstacles head-on. After a few days of mourning Dug's loss, with the unwavering support of those who had followed along with @Disneydugandem, I found the strength to complete the summer for Dug and me.

Dug left me with invaluable lessons: his trust in me as we ventured to a new country, his unwavering excitement and support in meeting new people, and his continuous love and support when I felt lost and alone. Though he is not physically present with me today, I still sense his constant energy watching over me. Right now, he is basking in the sun in Florida, and the anticipation of reuniting with him brings me joy and comfort.

In conclusion, this past summer, though filled with challenges and goodbyes, has left an indelible mark on my heart. It was a journey of self-discovery, growth, and the enduring bond I share with a tiny Chihuahua named Dug. As I embark on the next chapter, I carry the lessons learned and the memories made, with the unwavering belief that Dug's spirit will continue to inspire and guide me wherever life may lead.

Unexpected Blessings

As I settled back home in Canada, I knew the right canine companion would eventually come into my life, so I began researching. Applying to two places with lengthy waiting lists, I eagerly awaited responses. Fortunately, I heard back from a Chihuahua breeder in Paris, Ontario. She invited me for a visit, and to my delight, there was a recent litter of 5 healthy long-haired Chihuahuas! When I looked at Moose, I knew he was the one. Each pup was born on Canada Day, July 1st, and named after a Canadian animal, but I couldn't change Moose's name – he simply is just a moose.

The breeder was excellent, and we visited Moose almost weekly until he was ready to come home with me in the fall. Since his arrival, Moose has brought an incredible light into my life and introduced a sense of routine. Caring for him has given me a newfound purpose, and I'm eagerly anticipating the many years of growth and memories we'll share. It's particularly fitting that I may have the chance to represent Canada in Walt Disney World, and even more coincidentally, Moose's birthday aligns with Canada's, and his name is Moose!

Excitement fills the air as we embark on our next adventures, and I envision warm breezes, palm trees, and a sprinkle of pixie dust along the way. Moose and I are ready for the enchanting journey that lies ahead. My fingers crossed!

Conclusion

In retrospect, this summer unfolded as a tapestry of enchantment, growth, and unforeseen blessings. From the initial uncertainties of relocating alongside my faithful companion, Dug, to the unforgettable moments on Main Street, the journey seamlessly wove a magical narrative. The Confectionary became not just a workplace but a realm of late-night shifts, extraordinary guest interactions, and enduring friendships. The profound impact of this Disney chapter prompted an immediate application for the 2024 program, emphasizing its transformative effect on my life.

Beyond the enchantment of the park, forging friendships and networking turned this adventure into a catalyst for newfound confidence and passion for exploration. The connections made in Florida served as a driving force for both personal and professional growth. Disney Programs enriched my summer with invaluable experiences and insights. The lessons acquired during this transformative journey and working for the Walt Disney Company have become guiding principles for my future.

The bittersweet farewell to Dug marked the conclusion of a challenging chapter, yet his spirit remains a constant source of inspiration as I embrace new challenges. Unexpectedly, Moose, the furry blessing, entered my life, bringing joy, routine, and the potential to represent Canada in Walt Disney World. In summary, this summer was a series of challenges, farewells, and unexpected blessings, leaving an indelible mark on my heart. Stepping into the next chapter with Moose by my side, I carry the lessons learned, the friendships formed, and the enduring magic of Disney. Here's to the captivating adventures, growth, and enchanting journey ahead, with Moose as my companion, ready for warm breezes, palm trees, and a sprinkle of pixie dust.

From Vision Boards to Real Life: A Journey Through 2023 and Into the Unknown of 2024

Introduction

Happy New Year, friends! As I begin to type my first blog post of the year, it is a pivotal moment, a benchmark to reflect on where I am today, how I arrived here, and the exciting path I envision for the future. The year 2023 marked a profound journey of self-discovery. Entering the year, I grappled with uncertainty about my future, needing more drive towards my personal goals. My most significant growth times were when immersed in unfamiliar and uncomfortable situations. Solitude became a refuge for reflection and a catalyst for breaking out of my comfort zone as I realized that the power to save myself was my responsibility and no one else. Embracing change, I opened up to new relationships and surrounded myself with individuals who propelled me towards my aspirations. The transformative magic of 2023 remains a mystery. Whether it was the symbolic act of my iconic bob cut, the three-month escapade to Florida, or the joy of raising a puppy, Moose, on my own. Together, these experiences of 2023 have ignited a newfound excitement for the upcoming year, marking the debut of the authentic and empowered version of myself.

Personal Growth

After a year of growth, I am ready to sit back and savour the journey. The newfound sense of peace has allowed me to feel secure and believe in my ability to navigate life independently. These learning moments wouldn’t have happened without handling the growing pains of life. The challenges of my past provided the courage and determination to break free from the negative state I found myself in. March of 2023 marked a turning point, a moment of feeling defeated and weary of a repetitive and inescapable life.

Facing these challenges head-on became a catalyst for change. I recognized that my fears were mere reflections of my choices, and the power to transform my life rested solely with me. Taking a bold step, I moved away from home, changed my course of study, and embarked on a fresh start. Perhaps the most vital lesson learned was the need to live for myself rather than for others. As I enter 2024, my focus is clear, and I am ready to prioritize my passions without allowing external influences to hinder my path.

So, thank you, 2023, for the difficult lessons that paved the way for this newfound freedom. I am eager to embrace the opportunities of this brand new year and grateful for the chance to experience and appreciate life fully.

Transformations

In January of 2023, I dared to embrace change by cutting my hair into a bob style, something I had yet to embrace since 2012 and one I never thought I would revisit. Initially uncomfortable, as I settled into this new look and found confidence, I proudly began publicly showcasing it. This bob cut symbolized my growth journey. It coincided with my decision to move home, complete my first year of university online and then take up a job in a different country for three months while navigating a particularly dark period of my life. Life, however, progressed, and so did I. This shift allowed me to open myself up to new possibilities, especially being in an unfamiliar country where the absence of familiar faces compelled me to step out of my comfort zone. A special mention goes to Dug, my emotional support dog, who accompanied me on my adventure to Florida. Amidst the unfamiliar, he became my anchor, connecting me with others and making new friends easier.

As I approach 2024, I've added a playful touch to my appearance by getting extensions. I find myself at a point where I am genuinely content with who I am and the trajectory of my life, prompting the question, why not have some fun? Recognizing that life is not flawless and challenges will persist, I've learned from 2023 that embracing change and navigating through difficult times is essential for discovering one's true purpose. So, as I welcome the new year, I carry with me the lessons of resilience, self-discovery, and the understanding that, in life's imperfections, it's crucial to savour the little joys and relish the journey.

New Year, New Moose

Over the past year, I have witnessed my growth and enjoyed watching Moose, my energetic six-month-old Chihuahua, transform into a spirited teenager. Since our first meeting in September, I can't help but imagine how every new year will unfold with Moose by my side. He'll be there to witness my milestones and growth, and that's one of the best parts of having a pet: they're unwavering companions, always by your side. When I moved to Florida, my mom gifted me a sign that said, "Be the person your dog wants you to be." After experiencing the loss of Dug and now raising Moose, I've realized that we are our pets' entire world, and to them, we are their heroes. So, why not live up to that and be the best version of ourselves?

Dug would be proud of my strides, such as finishing the summer work in Florida, moving out alone, raising a dog, deciding to switch programs to pursue my dreams, and starting this blog. The future is uncertain, and who knows where I'll be next year, but one thing is for sure: Moose will be right there with me. On the flip side, I'm bracing myself for Moose's teenage antics that are starting to emerge. Despite his drama queen tendencies and the work he requires, it's all worth it. Moose is why I get out of bed each morning, motivated to tackle the day and take another step toward realizing my envisioned life.

Vision Boarding Through the Ages

If you've been following my blog, you might have read the one I dedicated to my mom and our childhood home on South Drive. My family is a bunch of creative folks, and they're the ones who inspired me to start this blog. My grandma introduced me to something called soul collages, which is like making a vision board. We flip through magazines, pick out pictures that mean something to us, and assemble them. I've been making art for a while now, and I love how it helps me think about my goals and feel empowered.

Recently, my mom found an old vision board of hers from when she was about my age. It was funny because all the pictures were of the so-called perfect family, a massive diamond ring, and the dream house. I teased her, joking that she didn't raise me to only go after what society expects. She taught me to follow my heart and chase my dreams. She's always been strong and independent, just like she raised me to be. Now that she's 50, her life doesn't match those pictures on her old vision board, but she's happy. She often tells me how she wished she had the same freedom to express herself when she was my age, and we both agree that we have a lot to learn from each other.

Creating My Vision Board

Many people have their rituals when the new year rolls around, whether it's making resolutions, engaging in religious rituals, participating in physical activities, or creating a vision board to set goals. As a visual learner, I begin my year with a vision board. Using technology as my handy tool, I gathered quotes that resonated with me and photos that brought me joy or aligned with my goals. I selected my favourite images from my curated Pinterest board to create a computer wallpaper. This way, whenever I open my computer, whether to write a blog or do school work, it motivates me to stay focused on pursuing my dreams.

Setting goals can take various forms. One alternative activity I engaged in was creating an ins and outs list. Whether writing yourself a letter or making a physical collage with images cut out from magazines, the key is choosing an approach that leaves a lasting impact, motivating you to work towards and achieve your goals. It's a gratifying feeling when you finally meet them.

Conclusion

Reflecting on the transformative journey of 2023 and embracing the new year, I value the various renewal rituals that shape our paths. Crafting a vision board has become a cherished tradition, utilizing technology to transform quotes and images into a daily motivator. The growth experienced in 2023, marked by self-discovery, has instilled a sense of peace and confidence. As I enter 2024, I am enthusiastic about prioritizing my passions, undeterred by external influences. The physical transformations, such as the bob cut, the hair extensions, and the raising Moose, symbolize embracing change and discovering one's true purpose in life. Lessons from 2023 taught me the beauty of life's imperfections. Moose, my Chihuahua, adds fulfillment, emphasizing the enduring bond between pets and owners. As the new year unfolds, diverse goal-setting approaches, like vision boards or ins and outs lists, inspire us toward fulfillment. Here's to 2024, a canvas awaiting experiences, growth, and achievement. Happy New Year, and thanks for reading!